Deliciously bored
Staring from a window, alone
Midwinter, sunday afternoon
Trees bare their skeletal form to the rain
That runs in rivulets down glass
Scientifically designed to keep the draft out,
Nowhere to be, so I may as well be here
Deliciously bored as I was when a child
Though then I wanted it all to happen,
The world to rush at me, engulf me so
I could drink it in, experience, digest, evaluate
But now it just passes me by, time to waste
Rather than worrying about wasted time
So for now I will enjoy this feeling
Nose pressed against a window pane
Leaving breath patterns on the glass
That is scientifically made to keep the draft out.

Nice
                          Delicious-ness
                   The sweet on your tongue
          Melting away from the heat in burning-ness
           Has you thinking should this be a pun?
     Treating the ice cold from your mouth into liquid
               Because there it is in your belly
   Floating away on the acid looking kind of like a squid  
             Then you take a scoop of wiggling jelly
                      Which is not a good idea!  
                       Look there’s a bee ahhh!
                       I can’t stand this nonsense
                     Maybe your name is blonese’

****** over it all.
Don't even give a **** anymore.
**** everything.
*******.
**** it.
Bored, depressed, hopeless, toxic.
Empty, numb, cold, alone.
**** Astrology, **** Spirituality, **** Love, and **** him.
Everything I loved, is long gone.
I don't give a **** anymore.
I feel stupid, worthless, shameful, sad.
No motivation, no will, no energy, no self love.
Just loathe, feelings of helplessness, drained, exhausted.

Poem 1:
Red and Black
Black and BLue
Here's a fact
I love you
Poem 2:
Green and Yellow
Purple and Blue
Let's make this Mellow
Just me and you

Hey how ya doing
I am boredom
Don't read too much into this
**** it dear
I am boredom

And it just hit harder
say something
and it just hit harder
it's only been a minute

**** it I am bored
but not in a way
where I wouldn't speak to you
under other circumstances
you're actually pretty cool

And it just hit harder
say something
and it just hit harder
**** it
dear I'm sober

I want some good food.
Maybe ice cream? Some Tacos?
I'm always hungry

This perfect moment
Slipping right on by
Already gone

I couldn't take it
Sorry
It didn't save it


Sorry...

i lost track of time
i lost count of days
i would say i'm fine
but i'm in a haze
day in and day out
i already know
how it all plays out
nowhere left to go
boredom on my mind
i can't stay in line
i can't keep this up
i just had enough
need a little change
life can't stay the same