Where did you go,
Barefoot and mysterious.
The storm of fate
Has brought me to the heat of your arms.
Why don't you say
What you cannot admit.
Will you let the air just do away with it?
Do not be afraid;
These whispers of feelings.
I'm listening to you.

Like every mislead person
in this world
I thought you made me happy
Or maybe you really did
I still remember that pure squeal that seemed to erupt
in me
the kind that you get
when on gigantic, overwhelming rides
in amusement parks
No, nothing else could explain
that internal squeal
not the dried fries
not the hostile hum of air-conditioning
Just you
despite how your chair
angled away from me
despite how busy you were
sipping your cola
making small talk to our friends
to notice my elbows skirt towards you
despite how much
how many times
I tried to deny to myself
that it was always you
Always.

Practical clothing
Practical thinking
Logical habits
Stress on the ball
***** are rolling
Lights turning in
Flickering to constant
Shadows grow
Shadows shrink
They never disappear

I was hoping
To get a few words in
But it's okay, I'll keep them.
It is what it is,
And it was what it was,
But I guess we can keep pretending.  

We'll keep living our lives,
We'll keep locking our eyes,
Too different and yet the same.
The reality's clear,
There's nothing happening here,
So why am I still wearing these chains?

I was hoping
To get a few words in
But it's okay, I'll keep them.
I won't rock the boat,
I'll try to let go of hope,
I'll find some water to make this flame dim.

I was hoping you'd always be mine,
But on second thought, nevermind.
I was hoping it would be you and I,
But on second thought, nevermind.

I was hoping
To get a few words in
But it's okay, I'll keep them.

By Arcassin Burnham

leaves blow away in an LSD grave
we will always be friends
whatever the price is we might have to pay
we will always be friends
throw roses on my grave today
let's not for get the ones who pave the way
we will always be friends,

(Melodies play )

I love you as a friend.

Sad little boys.
You reek of desperation.
It felt great to say no.
No, I won't come closer.
No, I won't do it again.
No, I won't kiss you.
No, I will do what I want.
And trust me...
I do not want to do you.

I help you, I help her
I help him, I help them
You feel cold, I give fur
Feel alone, I am friend.
But one thing, is for sure,
It stays true, til the end,
Help for me, is not ensured.
I help myself, I self transcend.

I wish you knew,

how much you mean to me
how i want to start everyday with you at my side
how i want to end every night in you arms
how i can lose myself in your smile
how my heart skips a beat at the sight of you
how my heart races when you get close to me
the feeling in the pit of my stomach when i know we will be apart
how my heart pounds waiting for you to respond to my text messages
how i hang on every word you say to me
how excited i am when i get a text message
how disappointed i am when the text is not from you
how my passion for you overwhelms me
how i yearn to gaze into your eyes
how i crave running my hands through your hair
how my need to see you daily consumes me
how my every thought consists of you
how you exist in all i do
how captivated i am by you
how i know how much i need you
how i have found my one and only
how i want to spoon with you
how i want to sneak up behind you and cover your eyes
how i want to kiss the base of your neck
how i want to whisper "i love you" in your ear
how i need to feel your touch
how the scent of your skin is my nourishment
how i dream of you every night
how i daydream of you constantly
how i can never get enough of you
how i can't last a day without you
how i can just look at you for hours and never want to stop
how i can't wait to have you all to myself
how i have never loved anyone the way i love you
how i want to devote myself to your happiness
how i can't wait to give you all of me
how i can't wait to have all of you
how you are the only thing that matters to me
how i am like a ****** who needs you like a drug
how you have taken over my life
how i know you are mine and i am yours
how i pray for the day the you will be in my arms
how i will never let you go
how much i really truly love you alone

But, alas you will never understand the extent of my love for you neither what i think of you nor how much you mean to me.

We used to put obedience above our sorry selves
And live inside a creature made of love's redeeming cells
But something came upon us, likeness something like our own
that told us we could separate and sit atop a thrown
Where once I was a woman who was searching for a man
there now exist two people who are turning into sand
And should I be the glass that you created and destroyed
I've since become the ruin that you struggle to avoid
My heart can open wider, be together like it was
a mender and a giver and a product of the dust
So what it is tonight that tries to shift my weaker parts
will disappear in stillness that remains inside my heart