I didn't have to use the bathroom
I just needed to sit
My feet were kind of hurting
****** arch support
The concert is good
Reminds me of Cowboy Bebop
With all the hats and button downs
"See you, space cowboy"
I'm still just sitting in the bathroom
Trying to play the part
I ran away to write a poem
Better move around a little
I can't focus on the band
I think tonight I figured out
What love feels like, looks like
Agape, the right Latin term I think
So many different definitions
For this four letter word
It's this feeling you get
Looking at someone in love
With their own moment
I feel this certain kind of smile spreading
Everything is warm
When you see people happy
Yeah, you feel joy (I hope)
It's just being human
Happiness, as they say
But it's different
This is different
And I'm trying to figure out
How to describe it
Sitting in this ******* stall
It's days later now
From when I ran to the bathroom
Figured I might have a better word
Some heightened vocabulary skills
But I don't
This feeling that I had (have)
The warmth inside my body
Seeing these people slip into space
An outer self, void of anything
That grounds them
I went back to the show
Arch support still ****, but
I didn't say why I really left
But I knew I needed to go back
I knew I needed to feel
I left to escape my sadness
It trapped my heels in the ground
But I came back to see their sun
And I watched the people float
Weightless in their universe
What has happened to me?
I’ve been acted upon;
brought to my own becoming.
On my knees
before an altar that holds me
and all I have been.
And I’m praying, God, I’m praying,
agape in my own-loving, in my still-shock;
Defenseless to my god and silent.
We know of black racists?
We aware of white racists?
And the opinions of both even if lost in myth and facts.
We know of Italians with bigoted views.
But for whatever logic?
Many are afraid to address the Jews.
And yes, some of them are racist too.
It's more than black and white issues in society.
We know of churches that preach love.
And racist in the tone of many within the church.
Which why many have lost some great leaders of the flock.
You can't preach love for one another.
When you surrounded by a racist flock.
Life, meant to learn, live and adapt.
God doesn't need to intervene between us to love.
Just reading the trouble faced by the Almighty Jesus.
He faces more and more harshly.
So racism more than between to groups.
We see this daily as living proof.
Love comes to everyone in many times, many different ways. For those who have been loved, love lives forever …
is all you'll ever need
not to hurt
Unconditional love that knows no bounds
Warmly embraces me without judgment
His voice fills my ears with heavenly sounds
Jesus causing a shift in my movement
None of it makes sense, it baffles me so
I kept running away yet He would still wait
Relentlessly pursuing me until I know
That my homecoming is never too late
I savor the times we spend together
When we’re in a crowd dancing and laughing
Or in nature’s beauty and warm weather
Even the grief and anger-filled crying
Through my pain and brokenness, He remains
An overwhelming love that breaks my chains
To agape love someone is to hunger
for their eternal life and their abundant life
even when it seems impossible to hope for them
when I was little
told me a story
about the time
she held a butterfly
she loved him, she said
he was yellow and beautiful
he was delicate
his wings were paper
and his legs were glass
and he died in her hands
and I have been
absolutely terrified of them
it's a stupid fear
I've been told
who the hell is afraid of butterflies?
and when I
think of your skin,
white sheets of paper
more beautiful than anything
and your arms, your collar bones
your shoulders, smooth like glass
I am afraid to hold you
or hurt you
instead, I'll watch you from afar
as you soar through
crystal blue skies
further and further away
you give me butterflies.
Highs before beloved biles
Bliss followed by bitter sweetners
She loves her beloved
And he loves her too
But she fears that he looks into her eyes to see only what is easy to find
Does he see her?
Does he have the patience to read her?
Inbetween the lines of her cries
Elegantly striding down the ailse of her heart
Yet knocking down her priceless art
Her complex heart and complex mind
Begs him to look deeper in
Shes scared and scarred
Her insides need more love
Because beloved highs and lows make her juxtaposed.
Her fear pushes him away
But the look in her eyes screams stay
Soothe the worry lines away
A task not everyone can bear
In beloved highs and lows.