I’ve been starting to think that I can love you in your absence
And I’m worried that if you came back
Next week
Next year
Ten years from now
I’d still love you
And kiss goodbye to all I’ve held since you left
All that held me since you left
Just so I could hold you, feel you
Again

I still wait for you
in that spot in which
we would have escaped
when we needed
each other.
Did you forget
the way?

I reach out to touch your face
but find a void.
When did you
become so distant?

The absence of me, my very own self
Non existing inside of my vessel once again
How incredibly strange, to wake up hollowed out
To be the absence of a person you’ve always been

Hollowed, by the image of your claws at my skin
Again you grab my face and words swarm my
Ears like bees and wasps I cant let back in
I saw you in my minds eye and let you fill me

An empty bee hive is all I am now
The honey has dried and the clutter of buzz is gone
Hollow is all there is to define my insides
The tree will finally drop me to the rocks before long

The me is gone with no light, simply hollow
The fear is reality as I can see the rocks getting closer
An absence of life is one of the greatest fear
Now I fear that it is only fear which will follow

The absence of light is a common fear
Dreaded absence, the non existence which exists
The dark, the absence of light which cant compare
To the fear I felt when you left me in darks grips

I thought you didn’t exist anymore, then you did
Like a light shone in the middle of night
This fear scraped my insides out again, God forbid
You ever realize that which you havent become

I fought so hard to drown the absence
I was healthy, as night and day coexist
Yet suddenly I was shot again by my own perish
If I could control the wound you know I would

Punishment exists in this absence where I live
A shallow voice screaming at another
Both belong to me, for I forbid
Any of this existing in light

i almost abandoned you, my old friend.

i apologize.

it's just lately i haven't the time

to pay you a visit since the last.

but now, i am twisting Time's leg

for time with you again.

what do i call you?

never mind that, how have you been?

oh, silly me...

you don't exist.


for the one i abandoned


is really

me.