Esther

Esther Oct 2020

#blocked

you blocked me on social media
i blocked you in my heart.

#blocked #block #blocking #social #media #heart #love #loss #heartbreak #text

Esther Sep 2020

drugs

sitting outside in the autumn air
rolling one last cigarette
every night without a single worry

big sur moon my only friend
memories flowing back
drowning my senses in liquor and regret.

inspired by a conversation with Sam.

#drugs #cigarette #smoke #autumn #moon #regret #memories #love #loss #alcohol

Esther Sep 2020

***

rainy day
messy white sheets
naked bodies
soft music
smell of smoke
your lips crashed against mine
like an apocalypse...

🖤

#*** #rain #music #smoke #apocalypse #kiss #love #lust #naked #aesthetic

Esther Sep 2020

the bus stop

i noticed
on our way back to the bus stop
you offered to carry my bag
it felt like a weight lifted off my chest

i guess
you're a flawless angel
having hit hell's rock bottom
i don't want to stain you like a bottle of wine

i swear
when you said you wanted to kiss me on the cheek
before i stepped on the bus
i could've loved you then

i'm caught in the middle
you saw me right through
wanting a new start
yet struggling to let go.

let's see where this goes, joe

#this #poem #is #**** #haha

Esther Aug 2020

melancholy

when holding your hand
becomes holding my breath
so that i don't cry out loud
and wake everybody in the house

why can't i keep anyone?

#melancholy #sad #depressed #love #loss #cry

Esther Aug 2020

epiphany

you know
if we never moved
perhaps we could stop time
everything would be frozen
in this infinite moment
the stars would stay in the same position
on this deep blue canvas
if we never left that beach
everything would stay still
if we never moved
you know

living our lives out in a painting, chasing after you beneath the stars 🌌

#epiphany #realisation #lingering #love #loss #imagination

Esther Aug 2020

visions

i have touched you for the last time
with hope, i flew up to your arms
but you pushed me away for the first time
reminding me that you were never mine to lose

i have kissed you for the last time
remember that day
when you said you'd leave after this song
oh i hope the song never ends

i have loved you for the last time
with a heavy heart
i wrote this poem for you
with 3 words I will never say...

for ali.

#inspired #by #visions #of #gideon