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I give you my world,
And You give me the universe.
I open my heart to You,
And You dwell within me.

I lift my hands to praise You
And You reign like a roaring thunder.
The galaxy belongs to You —
How tiny I am and yet you see me through.

My years are in the palm of Your hands—
Written by the blood of your Son…
Beloved and precious,
A King who’s always on the throne.

Your love remains steadfast,
Your grace is like the rain
Showering me every now and then
So my soul can dance with You.

I long to see You face to face
But I wait patiently
Before the curtains unveil the coming glory
And before I commit my spirit
And find its rest with You.

It's hard to surrender
To what and to whom the eyes cannot see
Giving in to something Heavenly
It seems to be risky.

But not risking
Makes you risk every thing
Including your salvation.

They ask,
"Is Hell real?"
"Is Heaven real?"

Faith comes then
By hearing
And hearing the Word;
Will you listen?

In the latter days,
Every white flag shall be seen
Those that are authentic
And sealed and painted with red.

And at the end of the Story
His Story will not be left untold
There're corpses all over
To where bodies might be dying
But we are always alive in Him!

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I will SECURE you —
Remove your insecurities
And remember to mention my Name
I am here even before you declare.

I will LIFT you —
Remain grounded, your heart I will take care.
Your fall isn’t a failure
When you see things through My lens.

I willl STRENGTHEN you —
Your weary soul, I breathe life!
Your burdens, I will carry
Your tears, I will wipe.

I will always LOVE you —
Nothing can separate you from Me.
My love is complete and just focus on Me,
I will be sufficient for you!

Believe and receive,
Abide in me, My Child…
And trust Me wholeheartedly —
I Am who you say I Am!

Kasabay ng aking pagpikit
Ang pagsilip ko sa panaginip sa aking isipan.
Namumukod tangi ang Iyong kagandahan
At Ikaw ang nag-iisang kumikinang sa aking paningin.

Napapasilip ako
Sa likod ng lahat ng napakagandang palamuti,
Pagkat nariyan pala ang tunay na may-akda ng lahat.
Pagkat sa kabila ng naghihiyawang palakpakan,
Sa kabila ng mga ngiting bumabandera sa aking harapan --
Ang dahilan ng aking kalakasan.

Pagdilat ko'y tila bukang-liwayway na,
Hindi kumupas ang Iyong kagandahan.
Muli kong kinapa ang aking bulsa,
At muling naghagilap ng anumang umiingay sa aking kalupi.
Dahan-dahan kong pinakiramdaman
Ang magaspang na katauhang gawa sa pilak.
At buhat sa pagkakamulat,
Ay dahan-dahan akong pumikit
Na tila ba sumasabay sa unang pagpatak ng ulan.

Nangungusap sa aking konsensya
Ang tinig **** matagal ko nang hanap-hanap.
At sa naudlot na istorya sa entablado'y
Nagpatuloy ang aking paghahanap.
Hinahanap ko kung saan nagmumula
Ang tinig **** humihele sa akin
At nagbibigay galak sa puso kong
Uhaw sa malasakit at pag-ibig na tunay.

Nasaksihan ko ang paglisan ng bawat katauhang
Kailan lamang ay nasa akin ang pagtingin,
Ngunit ang lahat pala sa kanila'y
Syang palamuti at hindi tunay na kabahagi
Ng aking istorya.

Patuloy silang nalusaw
Gaya ng krayolang nilalaro ko sa apoy
Noong ako'y paslit pa lamang.
Na ang akala kong bubuhay sa pinipinta kong larawan
Ay hindi pala sapat sa magandang imaheng
Aking nasasaklawan sa aking imahinasyon.

Kusa silang naglaho na tila ako'y tinakbuhan lamang
At marahan akong napaluhod buhat sa aking kinatatayuan.
Gusto kong magsalita, gusto kong may masambit..
Gusto ko silang pigilan sa paglisan
Pagkat hindi ko ninais na mapag-isa
At patuloy na mangulila sa pagmamahal.

Kung pwede lang na sa gitna ng katahimikang ito'y
Kaya kong marinig ang sarili kong boses.
Kung pwede lang sa gitna ng aking paghihintay at pagsusumamo'y
Wag muna silang kumilos at aking mahanap
Ang tinig na akala kong susundo sa akin
Buhat sa paglimot ko sa aking sarili..

Namukod-tangi ang boses na aking hinahanap,
Naririnig ko na ang Kanyang mga yapak
Na tila ba patungo at palapit na sa akin.
Ngunit hindi ako makagalaw buhat sa pagkakayuko.
Ni hindi ko na masilayan pa kung sino ba ang paparating.
At dahan-dahan pa rin ang pagpadyak
Ng Kanyang sandalyas patungo sa akin.

At habang Siya'y lumalakad,
Ay dahan-dahan ding nagbago ang senaryo
Na aking kinalalagyan.
Narinig ko ang napakalakas na pagpaubaya ng alon,
Ang tunog ng kampanang magaan sa aking pakiramdam,
At ang mga humiheleng tila mga anghel
Na naging mitsa ng pagtatayo ng aking balahibo.

"Nasaan na nga ba ako?" Tanong ko sa aking sarili.
At muli kong narinig ang mga nagpupuring anghel
Na tila ba walang katapusan ang kanilang galak
At ako'y nadadala kung saan.

Hindi ko pa rin mabuksan ang aking mga mata
At wala akong masilayan maliban sa dilim
Na pilit kong nilalabanan at alisan.
Hinahanap ko pa rin ang tinig Nya
At nais kong tanggapin ang bawat salita mula sa Kanyang bibig.

Maya-maya pa'y narinig ko
Ang isang pamilyar na boses na tumawag sa aking, "Anak."
Habang ang aking kamay ay hawak-hawak pa rin
Ang pilak na muli ko sanang itatapon sa balon..

"Anak, halika na.. sabi ng doktor, may donor ka na raw.."
Sambit ng aking ina habang ako'y akap-akap
Sa kanyang mga maiinit na mga bisig.
Kusang tumulo ang aking mga luha
At sya nama'y humagulgol sa saya.

Walang salita ang sinambit naming dalawa,
Ngunit ang kanyang yakap ay humigpit.
At naramdaman ko ang kanyang mga luhang
Dumadampi sa aking balikat at sa aking damit.

At sa mga oras na iyo'y
Ang kanyang yakap ay higit pa sa lahat ng yakap sa mundo
Ang luha nya'y tila ba binabalot ng isang hiwagang
Nagpapakalma sa aking paghihirap.
Ang gaan ng aking pakiramdam,
Ang saya ng aking kalooban.

At doon ko natagpuan ang aking hinahanap,
At sa aking muling pagmulat
Kung saan may liwanag nang maaaninag,
Alam ko kung kanino na ako muling lalapit pa..
Alam ko, hindi ko man nasilayan ang lahat
Ngunit ang pakiramdam na iyo'y
Habambuhay kong nanaisin
At pasasalamatan.

True blue and cleared sky
Where the pasture meets the woodland
And the current meets the past —
That is where I’ll meet you.

Evening falls,
And the field glows
Burgundy,
I’ll come near you.

The sky is a well of inky black
Pinpricked with diamonds,
Still, I’ll be so near.

We will languish in the woods,
Forge friendships with the trees.
When the trees got tire of us,
We will go
Befriend the tall grass.

Such are the inhabitants of this place—
This place
Where the pasture meets the woodland.
And you and I,
Oh dear companion,
Will slip into their ordinary,
While remaining wholly in our own
very extraordinary
And these hours
It counts for you!

(12/9/13 @xirlleelang)

072416 #Entry

Naisip kong magnakaw,
Magnakaw ng tingin.
Pagkat ramdam ko
Ang bigat na tangan ng pagkatao.

Alam kong nabibigla ka
Sa sunud-sunod na pagsubok.
Bagamat nais kang yakapin,
Idaraan na lamang sa panalangin.

Kayanin natin kahit mabigat,
Kahit mahirap
At kahit maulap ang daan.
Kayanin natin
Pagkat *buhay ay di atin.

Itanan mo ako sa dilim
At doon ang Liwanag Mo ang tataglayin;
Ikaw na Haring Araw ang Siyang mangibabaw.

Hayaan **** hindi makipagtagisan
Mga butil ng liwanag
At Ikaw ang yumapos
Sa naghihingalong katauhan.

Dilaw* na *laso
Para sa pusturang laos
Tatak Pilipino
Kahihiyan naman ang puntos na dala.

Daraan ang bisekleta ni Juan
At titilapon ang mga matitining
Na Animo Rizal
Doon sa Puting Palasyo

Dilaw na laso
Laban sa Korte Suprema
Kung sinong naghalal at nagluklok
Siya ring magpapalaya
Malayo lamang tayo
Sa humihilik na *kasinungalingan

You’ve moved a step forward
And life won’t be the same.
But after the round of applause
Your daydream is abruptly ended.

Now, take your turn
To walk the stage
After the microphones echoes
Projecting your name.

(3/21/14 @xirlleelang)

You strive diggin’ up my attention,
Is it a bona fide or just wanna dupe around?
Til’ when you’ll bring that to a halt?

‘Turned out to be so awkward,
Spotting you somewhere,
Then have that guts and valor callin’ out my name.

You beamed at me as if others were indiscernible,
Then drop some line,
A sort of your usual approach.

A superhero branded to own self,
W/out your costume, said your zilch
‘And avowed to brawl those imminent risks.

Only just, uttered those words;
Yet ‘found out your soft spot
With that another lass.

‘Said you’re not like other typical chaps,
But own words were gobbled
So, I think it’ll be the last.

It’s unworkable as you are,
Conked out glass, so what now?
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(12/25/11 @xirlleelang)

You take the glory from this —
From every beatific happiness of heaven,
As the Sun leaves her nest from above
Stretching her breath towards the evolving darkness.

And despite the delay of time,
While the mindful wind spells her madness
As if she’s blowing an occasional candlestick;
The tree did not surrender her promise at all.

And that is to keep everyone so, so still…
And she’s like a mother who’s afraid to lose her child,
Who tries to protect her precious one at all costs,
Who tries to save a life more than hers.

You take the glory from this —
The formation of every rock
That falls exactly to their perfect places,
As Your voice sprouts hymns of creations
Of every beautiful kind…
Oh, in Your eyes, these are all beautiful.

And whenever we lose our grip,
Whenever we surrender our pure selves
Into the deepest ocean to let ourselves die,
You command Grace to come to rescue us.

And take hold of us,
To contain and consume us in a vessel
Where only You can truly feel the longing of our hearts.
And then put a new spirit in us…
And breathe a new fire on us —
A new breed of hope anchored to Your core.

So even an ember can call the soldiers of the heaven
To rally against our raging darkest thoughts
To break the walls that we continue to allow to get higher
As we also try to take the rest of the steps of our pursuit…
And yet failed ourselves by doing things on our own.

You take the glory from this —
From the gigantic waves welcoming us
Even before our feet kissed the sparkling sands.
The coarse-textured the salted waters
Making us the only remainder
Of this beautiful equation of our own stories,
Of sailing beyond the hidden horizons
And riding the tides as we spread our wings in motion.

And even before our arms collide and bid goodbye
To the sun who brought us home
And call it peace when we’re in Your sweetest embrace,
We remain in awe of You —
For everything speaks about You
And defines Your grandeur
In the middle of the night and day.

And as we continue to ponder the days,
We can’t deny the fact
That You’ll still be and will always be
The most beautiful
And the most precious among them all.