Slowly dripping.
Slowly ticking.
Quickly fading.
Quickly changing.
Continuously falling.
Continuously falling.
The sweat that perspires from my forehead.
The clock that lies right above my death bed.
My vison that was once crystal clear.
My twisted demonic thoughts through out my years. Me as I slipped.
Me as I tripped.
Im contiously falling.....
Bright lights from above.
Im momentarily blinded.
An angel.. the angel love.
A messanger for me to be reminded.
All is never lost.
There is always a way.
No excuses no denial.
There is always oppurtunties to stop from drifting away.
Memories can not harm you.
They are just reminders that you have overcome.
All the pain you have suffered.
Once you can move on.....
You have won.

Confused about my confusion.
Is life so real or just an illusion.
This pain that I feel.
Can it be my imagination?
Each layer of my heart that will peel.
Like a snake it will just slither away.
Life is so short but I want an end to my days.
Im breathing, but will you please take my breath?
So I'm no longer capable of dialating my chest.
Gasp gasp ...there's s nothing left.
My lungs have lost its air.
My heart has lost its blood.
I can not stomach this.
I cant not take this.
Been here so many times lets face it.
My thoughts have now become complacent.
Running tears from my eyes.
Trying to escape my inevitable demise.
You tried to save my life.
Threw a life jacket as I drowned.
Im so sorry but I've fallen down.
Down into the darkness.
Down into emptiness.
Down into eternity.
Just hope you remember me, the best of me.
I want you to know, I love you.
But there was no saving me.

So easy to revert to drugs.
So simple to hit the bottle.
Too quickly I do whats wrong.
Too soon I lash out in anger.
Kills me knowing that my mind is weak.
Pains me thinking I cant overcome.
You have broken me to nothing.
I feel nothing.
I am nothing.
Why must I lose myself hate myself.
Why cant you love me?
Do you still think of me?
Hello?
Answer me please.
F*ck you!
I hate you!
I'm sorry.
I love you...........
Silence.
Numb. Cold. Dark. Empty. Scared. Alone.
Love is so powerful.
I shiver to the wrath of its loss.
Everyone looks for love thrives for love needs love. But no one is prepared to lose love.
Tears of acid run down my face.
The poison has consumed me.
Nothing left but a shell.
Nothing left but a shell.

A vine ridden house.
Just like my life.
The darkness has entangled me.
I swear to god I will never learn.
Because i keep making the same mistakes.
Forget it.
My biggest flaw was that I cared too much.
About everyone and everything besides myself.
Fck these vines!
Im breaking free.
Fck these lines!
Im letting go.
Im burning up.
Melting snow.
That flurried in my globe.
Shattered glass.
Im breaking free.
F*ck my past.
Im finding me.

I can sit here and stare at this wall for hours and not one thought will pass through my drug infested mind. Blank stare. Truth or dare. I dare you to breathe. Breathe in this air. Toxic poison air. Breathe ******* it. Are you scared? Are you fckng scared?!!...................................
My skin has become leather. my bones concrete. You may think you know everything, but you don't know me, I don't even know me.
Step one. Take two steps back and re access things. Step two. Try to love what you may feel is ugly in you. Step three. Realize you cant change the past. Now dont look back with regret, move forward and be one with forget. Time heals your open wounds, and all that will be left are scars . These scars are reminders that you have overcome. Have you any open wounds? If you do you are already dead. Be grateful and less selfish. You are alive. Life goes on.....