Let's have a toast
For he who's boast
Is heard all down the coast

Let's give some Cheers
For the girl with no tears
With more men then she has years

One last decree
For the greedy
Consuming in their misery

Three shouts

Vanity!
Adultery!
Gluttony!

The Lord sets us free
Free of sin
Free to begin

Yet here we remain
Dwelling in pain
Our purity we stain

But by His grace
Those sins erase
And we return to His embrace

Mark my skin
Drive it in
Blood rush
Watch it gush

Red scars
Are prison bars
In the past
There top last

Pale flesh
****** mess
Shiny knife
And short life

These are what
make up
Survivors

We put our boys on the ground
Enemies all around
Shooting their rounds

Get in cover!
They said to each other
To wait till it was over

Such a death toll
Mothers heart with empty hole
Was not a real goal

Stop the bleeding
Quit receding
no retreating

Man made
serenade
Watch out
Grenade!

You told me you care
that you would always be there
I wanted to have faith
but that's a mere wraith
I gave you my soul
and you put me in a hole
When ever i tried to climb you just pushed me down
You always blamed me for the reasons of your frown
I am done with you now
I will no longer bow

Your power over me is broken
and I am now free

I don't feel free
I don't feel like me
How could it be

I want to die
I want to fly
I'm that guy

A funeral of no tears
Not even from my peers
Just snide remarks and leers

There were too few
To fill one pew
And I didn't see you

I'm not worth it
Just someone upon you spit
It feels like my hearts been bit

So whether heaven or hell
I'll wish you well
Afterall, my death was under your spell

Lit the match, to watch it catch a flame, the pain of passion is what's to blame. placing the world in a spire of fire that climbs ever higher.  Reaching for the sky refusing to die,  the spire of fire released a mournful cry.

Wake up in the morning
Hes slammming on the door
I yell im up so he could hear me
He screams back and i just ignore

I step out to go and make food
He gets angrier and yells louder
"Do a work out, Lose weight"
I blow it off, dont let it bother

Disrepsectful?
I hate you!
Bipolar?
Thats you!
The reason I hate life?
Guess who!

Its a day of thanks
A day of family
it really stinks
tell me this is trickery

I cant go anywhere
I cant do anything
I cant be me
without your disapproval

Go ahead and scream
It doesnt phase me anymore
Around you im in a bad dream
to me you are no more

When every imperfection makes her the definition of perfection.

If God can forgive an atheist
Then I can forgive my enemy

If God can forgive mass murderers
Then I can forgive individual ones

If God can forgive a Catholic Priest
Then I guess I can forgive the guy ******* my sister

Iron rain with metal steel
Families and friends in horror cried
As under the destructive wheel
Their loved ones died

Around the world was silence
Shocked in awe by radical violence
My home now burning
My stomach churning

Death, pain and misery
Filled the land of the free

Left right left right left right
Don't Stop
Don't look back

Left right left right
Its catching up
Know it prepping to attack

Left right
Makes a move to get on top
Feel it land with a smack

Stay away
It feels like yesterday
Lies are all I say

You were heart broke
I was heartless
You thought you might choke
I thought far less

Incase you were wondering
Or maybe still caring
My heart never came
I have you to blame

I can't love
By the Lord above

You now have 2.0
I would know

Is easy to be better
Then a creature from a gutter
So please let your heart flutter
And find your souls other

It's too late for me
I'm a romance tragedy
So just let me be
Be a nobody

It's the way you talk
The way you walk
Its the way you are around me

Your smile makes me warm and fuzzy
Your laugh makes me dizzy
Its just the way you are around me

Trying to cuddle closer
Trying to hug me tighter
Its just how you are

The longest good-byes
The twinkle in your eyes
Its the way you are around me

I love you with all my heart
And you love me with yours
Its just the way we are

Tic Tac toe
who would know
that while the world is resting
Dark creatures here are stirring
In every mind, in every place
Purest thoughts they will disgrace
their darkened deeds will be done
Before retreating from the sun

Impossible is just a lie
Just a reason not to try
Sadness to make you cry
Don't fear, impossibility will pass you by.

I look into the mirror
and recoil in pure horror
A monster stares back at me
Hating everything I see

And see the scars you inspired
It was all about the love you required
I don't see what it was
I don't see what you saw

You lied to me
You said I made you happy
You said we would be together
It was going to be for forever

I fill with anger and hit the wall
I see it now, the reason to appall
My face, my acne, my twisted image
I look at all the baggage

I look into that reflection
I  am suddenly filled with new conviction
I start to carve at,
I start to slice off the fat

I smile as I see the blood
I laugh at the piled flesh
I know that it ruins that twisted image
But you are gone, you have left

The twisted image
The pure idea
The love I felt
The pain I feel

There is no more me
That silly image
that made this *******
Only you ,who begged me to stay, can set me free

Is the place where I have grown
The place I call my home
Others fear the friend zone

My every steady glare
At morons I must bear
For her its that I care

I'll stay here
To keep away her fear
And to wipe away a tear

I'm her best friend
Till the end
Too worthy to be a boyfriend

I made you my everything
so when you left I  had nothing

You shined so bright
Now the world is dull
Your face was light

Now I'm laying here in bed
just wishing I was dead,
evil thoughts echoing in my head

I feel like a ****
Or magbe just a bug
Afraid I may get swat
Afraid of getting shot

In your eyes
I see my false disguise
That is when I realize
I'm made of purely lies

Lies of sorts
Of different size
From horrible things
To white lies

I want to break
I want to bend
Fight for what's at stake
Until the end

It would brake my heart
For us to part
But it is not there
Its so unfair

No love
no humanity
No peace
No sanity

All thats left
Is a lifeless soul
Just let me go..
Just let me go!

feet slip in the water
Wondering why i even bother

Looking into that deep abyss
I think about what's amiss

Staring at my own reflection
every answer for contemplextion

Rock a bye body
In the treetops
When the wind blows
My body will drop

Strung up high
And stretch out my neck
Don't leave me swayin
Just show some respect

My whole life is crashing
It's all in a knot
My heart finished beating
Looks like I got caught

My soul will fly high
Way up in the sky
Grin on my face
Is the day that I die

I walk the line
The line so fine
The line so fine is thin as pine
But its the fine pine line that's mine

I feel like it's almost time
Like my clock will chime
That I'll be covered in grime

I'm in a bind
My teeth so grind
My hearts what I wish to find

Those voices had left
Like a thief in the night
Theyd stolen my freedom    
Theyd taken my rights

They tried to get away
Yeah they thought they were bright  
Till I locked them in a box and turned off the light
A pool of black surrounds this box          
Bombs, grenades, and lots of locks
They sit and bicker and argue too
Till I turned up the heat and the whole box
Blew....

not a joke
not a hoax
finally time to take my life
look at that shiny knife
good bye
farewell
its been short
its been painful
riddled with scars
beaten with bars
into the red
into the dead.
no more cruel world
hello death
my old friend
nice to finally see you again

I have a writers block.  I am going to take a break and Try to come up with new ideas.  Good luck to you all.

MnM

I'll hold your hands
that hold my heart
that holds you

And through the night
We will fight
We pray to see the next dawns light
Caught in trenches huddled tight
Our brotherly blight
The enemy's spite
To return to sons and fathers
To hold our mothers and daughters
To see freedom never fade
This is why tonight we pray

Im not typical
but im not a miracle
Work hard every day
Very little time to play

School in the morning
Followed by hours of working
Camera, shovel or saw
I use them all

Green eyes
Brown hair
Five foot nine
Pale everywhere

Don't judge a book by its cover
Spread the bindings and take a look
Created from our grand old author

It's late At night
I don't feel alright
It's like he is here beside me
I don't know how that could be

I thought I had so long
I guess I was really wrong
With his skeleton hands
His Flaming head band

Hello death my old friend
You said you'd greet me at the end
Why so soon?
Was I such a goon?

I finally see your soulless eyes
You look at me with despise
I see how you eternally cry
When each soul must say good bye

Life was overrated
But death is poorly stated
I don't see a heaven
I don't see a hell
Might want to wish me well.

I see those who passed
Those who didn't last
Those for who I cared
Those who feelings i had shared

the last of the living
The last of the thinking
The last of the being

Because that's what we are
we are the last

If all the world's a stage
Will we ever find a blank page
In this strange script
We all follow to our crypt
All of us actors
Where drama and tragedy are disasters
What if I choose to break character
Would that anger the director?

It's the scourge of the seas
Dearest Anarchy
Terror of all countries
Makes them shake at the knee

Anarchy is not chaos
It is not random
It has rules
Just none to command them

It is peace
It is serene
It gives the word self
a deeper mean

Your words tear me down.
The heavy weight makes me drown
Our darkest hours pass
And we all stand alone

Out of the fire we will rise
Standing alone
But of common mind

The outcasts
The forsaken
The lost and earthly ******

We are the future
We are united
We stand alone to face what others deny

We are hope without hope
We are a chance that was never given
We are the puppet without a master

It may be best
To go get some rest
And leave what's lost
Regardless the cost

My mind is going dark
Trapped in an Ark
I feel the call
Calling me to fall

I fall into pieces
I fold at the creases
Into the deepness
My heart then ceases

On hells doorstep I will wait
An ironclad guard at the rusty gate
For his fiery masters fiery state
An unloved,  unwanted, deserted mate

To Watch over the ****
To guard the gluttonous man
Doing whatever he can
His name is Satan

Misunderstood
Like no other could
Employed by God
To use the ****

To remove the bad from Paradise
To make it safer for the mice
His image is his only vice
He truly is very nice

I love to hang topside down
It creates a false smile on my face
Reversing my frown
to put me in a better place

You make this unnecessary
You give help me to make that grin
Even though I'm very wary
You still make my head spin

I smile that lie
and laugh falsely
You give a disapproving eye
but never lash at me

The world has made mistakes
it has its own errors
I do my best to forget and forgive
but its just a new way to live

We lift this drink to the newly wed
We lift this drink those who're dead

We lift this drink to the athiēst
We lift this drink to the Holy priest

We lift this drink to the grudging father
We lift this drink to the loving mother

We lift this drink for our past sorrow
We lift this drink for more tomorrow

We lift this drink for one more night
but most importantly...
We lift this drink for ONE MORE PINT

I made a mistake
It's caused my heart to break
I didn't realize what was at stake

The look of terror in your eyes
Filled me full of self-despise
Three months is too short I now realize

My kisses of poison
For no other reason
But to provide your addiction

Pain and terror
I'm such a monster
I'm now starting to wonder

Do you really love me?
Or am I that scary?
Have I lost you, Baby?

I'm on the edge
Leaning over this ledge
Back to you, I am needing a bridge

I'll go shut down
Maybe just drown
In the the tears from your frown

I'm sorry for the joke i made
I know you are better then me

I'm sorry for my sarcasm
I got worried that i might let you in
I thought you were smarter then me


I'm sorry for that jab I through
I thought you were stronger then me

I'm sorry for everything I did
I just wanted you to be tougher then me

I didn't know you'd leave so soon
I must look like a goon
even though I'm the one who popped you like a balloon

I lie in bed and close my eyes
Knowing I go to my next demise.
There he sits and there he waits
My torturous wraith at hells dark gates

Grabbing me in his claws
Grisly smile petrudes from jaws
Tightly bounds me in barbed wire
My allegiance is his one desire

Tattered scarab, rusty knife
Yet no move to take my life
Slowly starts to part the skin
And slowly slides his hand in

Grabs my love
My happy, my peace
My grateful, my smile

Locked away in a chest.  
Only returned for a quest
an eye for an eye
A heart for a heart

Gabriels fallen
Gabriels demise
He shall not rise
Dont give in to those lying eyes

Every smile on my face
Is simply feelings I misplace
I throw in my headphones
The ones with skulls and crossbones
Then I crank up my tunes and fly
To where the rocks touch the sky
I draw away my pain
Creating pictures all in vain
Because you won't see them
You won't ever realize you are my gem
then the darkness refills me
and I'll smile so weakly
As I give them all to you

It's weird how being true
is bad if you're truly you
Society Will you kick you out,
Out of the blue

In this world
Being fake,
Is no mistake
And your individuality this world will take

Oh Silly haiku
I disdain you,  off beat, you
Never make sense

Sometimes,  somedays
I just want to fade away
to sink into my poetry
among the lines for all to see
my soul to rest on every word
such dreams, such nonsense it is absurd
but yet I hope to dare
That my work spread everywhere
filled with soul and loved with grace
pushing darkness from this place

What has come of me?
A hero to be?
The one to save thee?

Nay,  i need the saving
I'm the one who's dying
all the while my mind is screaming
Whilst the world burning
admist the light thats drowning

We bonded over god
We kept each other sane
I decided to go a little deeper and then everything changed?
what happened?

We swore to change the world
We were going to fix religion
No one would stop us
but the only thing to change was your mind
What happened?

You were my best friend
but you died and got replaced
Same body, same soul,
What changed?
what happened?

different time, different place... i guess
but you changed so suddenly
i randomly committed blasphemy?
what happened

you lost your mind
but i guess you got hers
we were all good friends
but i was a heretic?
or did you become fanatic?
what happened?

we knew i wouldn't change
we knew id stay the same
the only question to me is
what happened?

Love is a rose.
Beautiful yet dangerous
Only dying if left untended
Only hurt you if you aren't careful.
Yet once you have the rose and are holding it safe, gentle,  and careful
you can understand the full beauty in the appearance,  journey, and danger

This ain't your
Sick evil war
Just run for the door
Is What I'm fighting for

I'll lay my life
On that knife
To save you strife

You are no royal
do not spoil
The throne we've given you
after all you have been through

Don't go back
She's a heart attack
she talks lots of smack

It's her pathetic choices
that gave you the voices
We'll down them out with noises

You are my friend
until the end
So don't be so stupid

Eyes down
Chin up
Don't frown

Chest out
Shoulders back
Prepped for serene attack

Repeat these words
I love laws
Rebels false cause

Think like us
Get on the bus
Don't make a fuss

You are free
Be What you want to be
Pursue liberty

But don't question
any aggression
From the higher nation

Band Wagon
Mindless rabble
Talking babble

Free The mind
You will find
Fewer binds

Your Name  am a great and wonderful person.  People will miss them when I go.  Head Deity of your faith* loves them.  Even though I may not know them personally i would stay up all night for Your Name because life is precious and they are important to me.

Where did the child go?
The one I used to know,
He would talk real slow,
Always wanting to grow

He is gone
Like a fading song
On the breeze
between the trees

He is not under a rock
Nor beyond a casket lock
He is dead in my mind
It seems so very unkind

Innocence lost
A young Lifes cost
Caught in this ever changing place
Wandering hopeless... Not sure where to face

Then the voices strike
Shouting using my mental mic
"Your no good"
"You wish you could"

Try to run
Can't outrun the gun
it's the voices
Criticizing his choices

Beaten and ******
His feet all muddy
Fingers  broken back
His ribs about to crack

Innocent child
His spirit is wild
He refuses to be docile
For the longest while

The voices rise
to cause his demise
to crush the boy
Who cries for a toy

Bullied Into the dirt
His life so very short
A sliver still survives
Struggling hard to thrive

Into the darkness
Of The mind
There are voices
You will find