I'm finnally happy
I have been sad for so long
It took a long time  to get
Where I am
I don't think it will last very long
But it is just a good start I have been sad
For so long I just did not know how real happiness felt
And know I know it is real

Faking a smile is the hardest thing ever faking a laugh is a little bit harder faking the pain that is hidden in my eyes is impossible if someone just looked and I  mean actually looked they could tell that the pain in my eyes is the pain that I feel I know they would think I just want some attention but to be honest I don't why would I have been faking. So Noone found out so then when they found out they thought I wanted attention no I'm faking it all cause I'm the one to pick up that person and keep them on moving evn though they don't notice I try my best to be the nice person but I'm not faking it all for attention I'm faking it all because if someone actually knew my weakness then what would people think that I'm lost in despair and that I'm actually nothing or that I'm really faking because of everyone else because I'm supposed to be strong and brave I'm the oldest of my friends and my family (even though I'm only 13 ) I want someone to talk to who does not look at me like they are reading a book I want someone to talk to who really understands that I'm actually lost lonely and sad and very depressed

When your freind
Says
" you should cry all night "
And then I cry all night because
I thought she was my freind
And she betrayed me
By making fun of me

Behind my smile is a frown behind my eyes is pain and  tears behind my laugh is a sob behind everything I'm a broken person and behind the happiness I should really be crying but behind it all I'm faking I'm not happy I'm sad but behind my pain would be laughing because nobody would actually care because behind it all I am very very broken beyond repair so you wanted to know what was behind my smile because behind my smile is pain .

I'm sorry I'm a failure I'm sorry I'm a **** I'm sorry I ruin everyone's life I'm sorry I'm a nobody and I'm sorry that I care what people think I'm sorry I'm depressed I'm sorry for being mean I'm sorry I'm stupid I'm sorry I feel pain in my heart cause nobody cares about me I'm sorry I am empty of happiness I'm sorry I am a ****** up ******* I'm sorry I'm alive and doing these things I wish I was different but I'm so sorry I'm not I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so sorry I'm nothing to be exited about I'm sorry .........

You can
Not
Posibly
imagine how much
I hate myself
I'm ugly I'm usless what
am I here for
I can't even imagine how much
Everyone hates me I'm a nothing
A nobody and ugly

That moment when u know your life is over that moment u know u can't change your ways that moment u wish u could just melt away because stress kills you  fighting hurts and u can't express your own feelings that moment you know evrything is broken and never will ever be the same you will know I do we'll this is me and not you you or you I feel like I'm dropping down down down I feel like I'm dieing an melting away if I did would anybody care there will come that moment when you just won't care and that will be my moment to pick myself up and live my life as best as I can

I hate how I'm
ugly
Stupid
useless
nobody
and yet I'm still
someone who is
living
and talking
and breathing
who should not be
breathing talking or
living
I wish I was nobody
but no matter what
I will still be a sombody who wants to be a nobody cause she
already is useless
and stupid I want to
have friends who
treat me really good
but no
I have a ****** up
group of friends.
that I love so much I can't stay away from
I hate that about me how I love everything I hate  so much sometimes I hear
people say how can someone so perfect
feel so Insecure as to scar her skin with cuts and burns as if her pain isn't haRd enough ... I hate me I hate everything about me I hate it all I'm very very ugly

I don't know where
I'm going
I'm lost in despair
I can't find my way
Through the path of the wind
When I do it just
Blows me to sin
So how to get through to
the path of the wind
Nobody knows

How come when I write something nobody notices  no comments no good hell I must be that bad t poetry I like everyone poetry's and I can't even get advise from anyone oh my god

It's all on me that I'm a failure and nothing it's all on me my cousin learned to cut its all on me that I learned to cut this is not a poem I know it might not rhyme but I hate myself and I hate it all I hate how I love everything so much that I hate so much this is so not. A poem it is my life my parents always fight it's always my fault so I take it out on myself I'm a nobody who cuts I really don't want to but believe me I stopped it was pointless I think

I was told that my poems aren't
Poems is that true or should I stick it
To the wall like glue
I say ed to him I don't care what you say
Even though it really hurt
He told me my poems are not good
I should throw them away
But i said with a smile on
My face and tears in my eyes
I don't care what you say
So today I was told my poems
Are not poems
What do you guys have to say ?

It's my fault that everything is wrong and falling apart it's my fault everyone is fighting and not getting along ....it's my fault

My past was real lonely and I felt like a nobody everybody ignores me and treats me like I'm nothing I used to do somthinfng I so deeply regret to myself it was a very deep threat if anyone found out they would laugh and won't care that's why I'm so scared that only two friends actually know my deep despair  I'm so scared of my past it makes me cry every night in sadness I'm scared I'll be the same and nobody will care my past was so lonely and sad and my future will be too cause as the voice in my head keeps on saying nobody cares about you and is all they would do is just laugh at your past and maybe your future ...

She knew she used to cut she knew that It WAS wrong she knew she had no friends she knew she was a nobody she knew that taking her life would be stupid and that was not how she wanted to be remembered she wanted everyone to know how she felt she felt sad and depressed cause everyone hated her and made her feel like nothing she knew how they felt they felt hatred for her she wanted to die everyday going to school cause I'd all they would do is drown her In a pool she hid her wrist under a sleeve and took a blade to the bathroom she was stupid for cutting g bit it can't hurt it felt good she could take the pain out on herself she knew that they hated her and they knew she hated her and she knew she is a failure and a ***** up and that is not new

Her life was so perfect she went to church and never sinned then her life got messed up again and again  she smokes and she drinks she Cutts and she thieves she has sinned a whole lot and where the hell was god she don't. Know or Believe her life was so sad and she wants to give up but she knows nobody gives a **** that her life is so messed up ...

If I died
Or slept
All day
And stayed awake
All night
Would anyone notice
Would they care
That I'm sad and
I'm scared
I'm starting  to read
Skakspere bit you know what
Nobody cares

I hate how everyone
Hates me
And calls me a ****
And tells me
I should cut
I wish I was not
Living
Or even breathing
I hate my life alot
It is nothing to be
Proud of it is garbage and I'm told
I am worthless

Outside I pretend inside I'm a storm
They can't go together very we'll but I make it work I'm not that happy but no one knows I let them think I'm perfect and I'm full of it when I wish I could break out in tears I put on some makeup to cover up my face I try to fit in but I just  can't you can call me a nothing a nobody and useless a **** and a ***** but I hold back the tears I smile and hope not to show how  I honestly  truly really very feel

I am sad and not happy I have not been for a Long time now happy is no more what do I have to be happy  about family is so broken friends I only have a few my boyfriend i don't have one my dog died of cancer and my aunt did to so happy is no more now it's all faking happy instead of being happy so happy is clearly no more

If you know what is bad and have not tried it once that is good but it also means you are only good and don't go outside the box if you have not snuck out with your friends wow you would probably be the first I am bad but sad I want someone to tell me I'm wrong to disipline me I am  bad and do stuff I'm not supposed to do but I do not go overboard yes I am bad if you are to coment and I'll follow you

People  running people screaming people people swimming people talking there is sand there is sun there is fun it is a beach and there are lots off different possibilities

Tears rolling down my face
Passed my nose and mouth
Tears drip down my face again and again
I'm crying cause nobody listens
Nobody cares it's all because
I'm nobody
I'm useless
And lost in despair
I'm crying cause nobody cares

I open my eyes to see someone and then close my eyes again then I open my eyes to see nothing cause that person just withered away