I see my soul dancing naked in a pit of burning embers.
She is on fire, and she is laughing and twirling engulfed in beautiful flame.
She dances mostly alone.
Sometimes another soul will come along and dance with her.
They will stay for a while, and then they will leave.
The fire is too hot for them, and they tire easily.
Then one day a soul comes along who is made entirely of water.
He is her opposite in every way.
He dances with her and enjoys the heat of her fire, for he has the power to keep himself cool.
He never tires of their dancing for she is so different to him, and he is transfixed by her uniqueness.
She in turn is in awe of his fluid motion, and the coolness he conveys.
One day they decide to embrace each other.
A merging of fire and water.
They touch each other for the first time.
They fill each other and synchronise in perfect harmony.
They both wonder aloud how they had ever been separate, for now that they were together, they would never dance alone again.

Sometimes it just hurts, hurts for no reason at all.
Deep inside the pain is triumphant.
Emotions all askew.
I cry for no reason.
I see the world through opaque tear spattered eyes.
The pain is unbearable, it makes me sick.
I want to hurt myself, pull out the anger, and the hope, and the broken pieces.
They stick to my hands like glue, tearing at my flesh and making their way back inside.
They bury deep, deep into a place where no light reaches, a place where there is no warmth.
It is still and cold, and although they are there, I am empty.

I would give anything to feel your lips on my lips, tongue in my mouth, hips against hips.
I would give anything to wake up with my head on your chest, i’m in love with you, in case you hadn’t guessed.
I would give anything to know that you’re waiting for me when I get home, to not have to hop into a cold empty bed, to not have to be alone.
I would give anything to ask you stay, tell you not to go, not to let you get away.
I would give anything to see you again, it wouldn’t matter, lover, enemy or friend.
I would give anything to turn back time, to appreciate you more, especially when you were mine.

There she stands in the darkness, shadows in her hands, wondering, waiting, watching.
She hears her name on the breeze when usually she hears nothing.
Hesitant at first she stops, blinks, stares, breaths.
Scared of being broken she steps forward slowly, shadows drop to the floor.
Head low, heavy, eyes closed tight.
With every step a piece of her falls silently to the ground.
A mirror stands before her, she opens her eyes but doesn’t recognise her reflection.
She starts to spin, growing dizzy, craving light.
Stop, stagger, makes it feel better for just a second, then back to the darkness.
Shadows float silently back into her palms.

Soft linen surrounds me as I wake draped in your arms,
I feel your breath on my back and smile,
The light of the morning lifts the shadows, and glides across your soft skin,
I turn and press my mouth against your forehead, stopping a moment to inhale your scent,
As your lips curl into a smile, my quiescent heart builds up rhythm,  
Your eyes open in a flourish of dazzling blue, and the dancer in my chest begins to twirl,
Oh those captivating eyes, circles of crystal that continually ensnare, hypnotising, encapsulating, my dancer has begun to leap.

None too far from those who see,
Crystals melt the ebony
Fire on water, ice on lake
Opposites to reciprocate

Earth on sand, mud on dune
Walking on the harvest moon
None too far  from those who hear
The melodic whisper oh so clear.

Sight and sound are all but lost
Dismissed, discarded, but at what cost?

Blue eyes, blonde hair, red lips, intense stare,
self doubt, dark soul, your eyes bore a hole,
hard kiss, quick ****, over fast, no luck,

leaving now, going home, so cold, so alone,
shiver shake earthquake, so unreal, so fake,
tears trickle down my face, so slow, quicken pace,
still there on the brink, another drug, another drink,
block you out, so numb, want to hide, want to run,

Far away, leave it all, the more i think, the more i fall,
Shut my mind, shut you out, feeling sick, full of doubt,
Too hard, you’re always there, look at you, try not to stare,
Fake smile, cold hello, nervous laugh, hard swallow,
little hope drains away, another moment, another day,

Time goes on, hope it heals, because I hate how it feels,
But for now, I crave your touch, I want you now, miss you so much.