Not yet,
It's still too soon.
I'd prefer for my heart to start right in my chest.
It craves to be mended,
Each shattered little piece.
No longer broken,
And finally set free.

But imprisoned by fear,
It cages itself.
Leaving the key,
Only eighty beats from its hell.
For any heartbreaker to stumble upon;
Without noticing the true power,
My heart can commend.

How long can I keep this up.
Pretending that I don't want more for us.
My heart just feels so lonely.
Each day I lose more faith in myself.
I wouldn't get to close to you,
But I can't deny how much I want to.
Your smile melts my soul,
And I can't seem to rid you from my heart.
I'll feel your kiss once again,
And when our lips meet our bodies will join.
Each deep little desire you crave with come true with me.
No judgments between us once the lights are turned low.

This pain is so unbearable,
I'm writing on my skin.
My whole arm feels numb,
I didn't think it'd get this bad again.
I'm painting with my wrist,
In only the color red.
Because each deep little thought,
Can only come out unsaid.

My mind is so twisted,
I'm mixing lies with facts.
I'm not sure who to trust.
My heart or my head.
They're spinning me around,
As if it's life or death.
Each direction will cause pain,
But somehow,
One will still bring something to gain.

It taste even sweeter when the blood is running down my arm.
Every sip I take,
I welcome the blade more.
I've missed this pain,
The familiar touch so welcoming.
Comforting me like an old friend.
I won't neglect you anymore,
Because giving in has such a sweeter taste.

No one gives me the pleasure you do.
So close to insanity,
But I cut the demons away.
Drowning away the emptiness that keeps dragging me down.
The darkness becomes stronger everyday,
consuming the very essence of my mind,
While I slowly drift away.

I can't stand to become that person again.
I can be strong as long as I keep this blade close to my skin.
Locking away each deep little thought.
Accidentally remembering the ones I forgot.

The darkness is a consuming the very essence of my mind.
Searching for the light, but I'm becoming more blind.
Coming to terms with who I crave to become.
Stripping away any remaining innocence, immorality impossible to overcome.

Never fall in love,
Unless you're strong enough to do with pain.
Matters of the heart,
Bring you nothing to gain.
Except torment each day.
Slowly, I'm moving further away.

My heart can't cope with this,
I'm finding it hard to forget.
Staring into the shadows,
Visualizing your silhouette.

I feel drawn to you,
As if we both swallowed a piece of a magnet heart.
But we're too close on opposite sides,
So the force pulls us further apart.

You've turned the hands of my heart,
Now is taking is slowing down.
But I'll have to pick myself back up,
After you leave me to drown.

The anticipation is killing me,
Just tell me how he feels.
My heart is literally aching,
This pain is too unreal.
I feel my chest caving in,
I can't handle these insecurities.
I keep forgetting what I told myself,
Especially about all my priorities.

I thought I hid my heart away,
But somehow I found the key.
It's spinning over my head,
It won't stop teasing me.
Pointing in each direction,
Not showing me a clear path.
But I'm too scared to move,
And deal with the aftermath.

So I'll press pause on my heart,
We can talk another day.
And hopefully you'll tell me how you feel,
Before my feelings fade away.