there aren't enough words in the universe to explain
All the anger frustration and pain
I feel towards you
I want to scream cry and punch a wall
If it means I won't fall
Ever again for someone like you
Don't try to come back
And build up a fallen stack
Of trust that will never be regained
Under my breath I curse your name
For involving myself in your game
But I can't be called a fool for something I never saw coming

I've never felt a pain so sharp
It makes breathing
Sleeping
Eating
The hardest part
To have someone make you believe
That you are worth more to them
Then you actually are
Swallowing the smoke
That builds a thick layer of tar
As I take one more drag of this cigarette
Close my eyes and try to forget
I picture the image clear as day
Of two bodies close together
One yours and the other which is not me
No way
Pain of the heart
Is the hardest part

Hate the smell
Hate the taste
Hate that thoughts are easily erased
Can't change that fact
So I'll leave
I won't look back
Find a new place to call my own
A new place that'll be my home

Fingers in your hair
This can't be real
You're here
It can't be real
You're in my bed
Feelings light in my head
Skin cells saying hello
Those brown eyes won't let go
Of mine
Want to play this back
Again again in my mind
This can't be real
You're here
It is real

They say what a pretty mess
It's almost as if she's lost her head
Two weeks ago there's was less
Left of all the brokenness
Now here she sits
With her two hands in fists
Holdin on to something
Something so distant

The innocence is gone
Somewhere everything went wrong
Floating away in song
She dreams of a place where she belongs

When I die
Lay me in a field of poppies
All I want is to feel whole
With the flower that made me feel alive
Even when I was already dead