I wonder if the stars get so lonely being in the cold night sky,
That they decide to burn themselves out
so they might feel some warmth before they die.

Please don't get offended,
That I no longer care.
You see I wait around,
but you were never there.

I got tired
and angry,
frustrated
and mad.
That you were happy
and I was sad.

But I realise now some things
aren't meant to be
And being with you
wasn't meant for me.

How much more broken can I get?
I've been chewed up,
broken down
and crushed into tiny little bits.

I yearn to write endless poems about you
But there's no right words to encrypt what I feel towards you.

You.
You know who you are.
I miss you more
than the moon misses the morning blood star.

I wish I had the courage to tell you
But I'll keep my distance stay afar
and be proud of who you are
The things you've done.
But I hope in years to come
If you see me alone
or with my family who's grown
To look at me with happy eyes and a smile corroding your face
And recall memories and begin to trace every detail like it was yesterday

Do you remember me?
Because I'll never forget you.
And I'll never replace you.
And it's hard to explain
this blood pumping through my veins whenever I hear your name.
I'll never be the same
after everything
We've been through
When I see you to this day
You
look at me like I'm a stranger
A shadow that fades away.