These 2 AM feelings, I've been fighting not to let them in
I've been sick and only you can be the medicine
I know you've got a man but who am I to meddle in?
I shouldn't be even talking about this, this is so irrelevant
But I'm going to write it all down just for the hell of it
I'm lost in my thoughts, maybe I'm way ahead of it
Obsessed, yes, I guess just a little bit
If I called you right now would you answer it?
If I called you right now would you stay a bit?
I'm trying to hit you up, ask you what you're down for?
Tell me what you're feeling cause I'm trying to stick around though
Let me paint our future, you know I could be Picasso
You could be my only one and I could build you a castle
Tell me where the days went as everyday with you is amazing
I'm losing motivation, I got a love song playlist up in rotation
"Should I send her a text?" I'm filled with hesitation
Tell me that you feel it too
I'm losing all my patience
If we aren't together
Then that's so much time wasted
I got no time for these girls who're always getting wasted
You took my heart on a trip and I'm still on vacation
What are you looking for, am I that troublesome?
Wrote you a poem before, and here's another one
Another love poem and you're not even mine
You cross me off your list but you're still crossing my mind
But don't you worry, I'm fine, it's just a little late
When these vibes come on I feel a certain way
If I came through now would you let me stay?
You're my brighter days because I've long been in December rain
Lost in your thoughts, you never know where you're headed
Heart broken and I let it, I honestly need to get a medic
I said it might just go away with sleep but this awfully pathetic
I know I need to get back on the road
Feelings, they come and they go
The thing about our heart is, does it ever let go?

I barely knew you back then but all the things I remember still run through my mind,
Tears on my face as I'm writing this, to imagine a place if I asked "Are you fine?"
Didn't care at all and never talked to you
There wasn't a perfect time and place to call and check up on you
Then you were gone and the only thing I recall
Was seeing your girl's face, no make up, no smile
Chaffed feelings, no emotions, nothing at all
What could I say?
How can I possibly say it's okay?
How could I not feel this anger inside me
I look at her now, and she's different
You made her this way
When you drank all those pills, it killed her
Since then I haven't seen the real her
Screaming in her pillow, could you tell me that you heard her?
Even when she smiles, can you see that it still hurts her?
They might say that it's wrong to be bitter
But the more that she drank, the more she got sicker
And I'm no better, but she's killing her liver
You thought she would be better
But it's getting worse
Hollow like the bottle she's holding
She's trying to sleep but she can't until it's the morning
Everyday is another ******* performance
These pictures and memories is what she's been holding
She's blaming herself for the reason you left
You took every pill but she's the one who's feeling the effects
Families in pieces, and your friends are a ******* mess
You left all your pain and you gave it to them
What did you think would happen?
Thought it would be easy like she would just move on?
She's hanging out with her friends like nothing is wrong
Trying to be strong but the moment you left, she was already gone
Forgive me for my honesty, it's a blessing and a curse
It's a medicine that hurts and it's the only thing that works
Who could understand the **** that you went through?
It hurts because I'll never get to,
Look you in the eyes and say
"Jacob, I get you. Don't let the stress get to you."
You left so much scars that are here to stay
The stars don't look as bright when you decided to go away
So much pain that I see even till this day
They start thinking about you when it starts to rain