I cherish my sobriety
And my holiness
Even though I have abandoned God
And no longer have a purpose in life.

But I look at the men with drunken nights
And the loose women with abandoned children—
They make me ***** a heap of cold, hard truth
That spills to the floor like blood from a pulled tooth,
And although I don't get to see a fortunate future,
What I do see is a chance at a great enlightened life.

The question is whether or not I can handle it.

The glass is either half empty or half full
But all I see is a glazed piece of transparent drink.
It's a shame to think things have hit rock bottom
When all of it has idly rested there for years.
If life doesn't stop messing with the sheets
I think I might wrinkle them up on purpose.

I see the 20-year-old with pigtails across the street;
She sees the shadows traveling under my eyes.
Good evening, she says.
Perhaps.
It's my own personal masquerade ball.

I prop my feet up for comfort
And the pain goes away temporarily.
Ever since I left behind my innocence
There's been an absence in true pleasure.
Even when the world pushes me down,
The chance is always still there.

It's an uncomfortable position to be in:
To be unhappy with yourself and others
It's like the thought of something greater
Is all you need to get through the day

And the question always seems to remain—
Should you remain voiceless?
I say, "No!"

Who gives a **** if you **** at tact
Or you can't find your "inner voice"
There's a true way to escape carelessness
Without falling victim to faux pas

If you look at yourself
Through another's viewpoint
Do you see content?

I'm sad.
But what's new?

Nothing.
Nothing is new.
Everything is sad.
**Everything.

There is a dark empty hole of dirt where you died
I see it and I feel only a black pit of despair
No tears, sadly enough
I swear I've used them all too much
I need a friend, yet I abandoned you
Why should I have any friend at all?

There's no harder thing to say than I'm sorry
I can't believe you're gone out of the blue
It's a sad tragic life of mine filled with pain
Nothing feels worse than losing everyone I love
And being left with my internal misery.

I wonder how much long longer
It will take before I'm
Where you are.

My intentions are weak;
This much I know.
But I try my hardest
just to please you each day.

If I fall            Why don't you
you fall.          try a little
I don't             harder for me?
want to
make things
worse.

We could make the memories
between you and I cherishable.
Lessons are the things
you experience daily
with no sense of reason
on what they actually
do to people—like us.              "Keep me in
I hope that you observe           your memory
the clear drops of rain              each day
that touch your windows.       you walk
They have the right idea—     the narrow
to move on to better places.    sidewalks."

I was walking a steady rhythm yesterday
And my blood swayed like a boat in the ocean
I can't make things the way I want them to be
Can't I just stop all of this loud commotion?

I'm at the bottom of the well today
And my skin trembles like a leaf
I wish that the future has high hopes
And I can go a day without grief.

I let you get a little too close to my feelings
And now you march to the beat of your own fears
You're the reason I sleep all alone at night
Now I drown in a cold pool of my own tears.

You can contort my mind
You can destroy my feelings
You can bring me to the lowest
If you are that cold-hearted.

And in your world
things are full of
mediocrity and disgust
you lay in bed at night,
dissatisfied with yourself.

Contort my mind, you may
Destroy my feelings, go ahead
Bring me down if you see fit
But let's make one thing clear.

No one can mess with my pride
You will never borrow it
Because once you have it...
That's the moment I lose myself.