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Elixa Greene May 2014
All she wrote was her name on the bathroom door
Not a single word more
Red stain lipstick and a signature
Were her last goodbyes
Elixa Greene May 2014
You hear glass breaking, and think nothing of it.
You hear a scream, a shout, and ignore it.
Build a brick wall around myself, but you don’t question it.
No longer smile or laugh, but do you ask why?
All the signs are there, but you never notice.

I want to be like a butterfly.
You won’t break my wings, just because you try.
I want to be like a butterfly.
Emerge from my cocoon, ready to fly.
I want to be like a butterfly.
Laugh until I’m ready to cry.
There will never be enough sky,
to fill me up and take me down.
I’ll always be ready, to be a butterfly.
Elixa Greene May 2014
Feeling so defeated
like I can't breathe without your permission
like nothing ever goes right with you around
but I can't let you go
I can't let you leave me alone
i'm afraid for my life if I do
because I love you so much I can't let you go
Elixa Greene Jul 2014
Tell me how you keep me hanging on your words
Everything you say makes me hooked on you
You’re too intense and crazy, laughing and amazing
There’s so much else I don’t have the time to say
And I wish I could count the hours we have left to spend
But your voice keeps getting louder, I can’t get a word in
Just listen, listen to what I have to say
And maybe together we can figure out a way

And everything is happening way, way fast
It's all piling up, and I can't get past
What you claim is love, I see as lost
Cause all that you want is something I'm not
I'm just a filler for the boredom in your life
It's now in the open, I can see clear
Don't know what I was thinking, thinking you'd care

I wish I could take back all that I have said
Turn back the clock, get you out of my head
These scars are hidden in places even you can't see
But everyday I'm alive, they still haunt me
Why do this when you can see I have done nothing wrong?
I knew I suspected what you've proven to me as true
But why do I still feel as if I’ve been betrayed by you?
I am just a girl and you are just a boy
And I had hoped when you broke my heart, you’d tell me why

And everything is happening way, way fast
It's all piling up, and I can't get past
What you claim is love, I see as lost
Cause all that you want is something I'm not
I'm just a filler for the boredom in your life
It's now in the open, I can see clear
Don't know what I was thinking, thinking you'd care

You told me that you'd never lie
That you hated to break my heart
But how can I believe when all the evil I've seen
Points me back to you
You told me that you'd never hurt me
That you'd never make me cry
Is that why when you do you close your eyes?
Elixa Greene May 2014
Cracked mirror hanging on the wall
My beauty just as broken
A mangled heart to go along
And words that remain unspoken

With scars that crisscross into the unknown
My reflection my only friend
Look away as the tears fall
I already know the coming end

Pain that circles from oblivion
and with nothing more than that
I can't hold myself to my promises
I can't let go of the past

My weakness is a gripping fist
Iron in it's might and glory
Ripping me from the memories
Forcing me from my story

I wish upon the lovely moon
and sit beneath the lonesome star
I hope and love and dream
that someday I'll find out where you are
Elixa Greene May 2014
Singing show tunes in new York city
Trying to make a buck so I can eat
I don't even know why
I even try
My Guitars hanging off my neck
I'm playing the best way I know
You pass by on your way to work
But don't sit there like you know
Like you're better than me

Writing words on a half used flyer
Wet from the rain, from tears dropping off my face
Lyrics I don't know the meaning off
Broken phrases that make no sense yo anyone but me

I tried to go off and live my dream
But now I'm living half alive
Trying my best to get by
And the little I got isn't quite enough
Elixa Greene May 2014
Do you even hear yourself
when you speak?
You sound like an idiot:
immature, and not educated.
Elixa Greene May 2014
She never had friends
She always talked to herself
And no one ever dared
to look closer at her quietness
She seemed normal- happy
not depressed at all
that was their mistake
And one day when the snow fell
she loved the snow- it was peaceful
She decided she was done with it all
So she grabbed her daddy's gun
And walked into her snow storm
And laid down in the grass to
make an angel one last time
Before she became one permanently
And she held it to her head
Paused for only a moment
and it seemed the air was charged
With electricity
The sound went off,
the bullet shot into her brain
and her eyes went blank
She stayed there, staring up at the sky
And when she was found, a scream went off
And tears came from a little girl
Who had found her
"Mommy!" she screeched.
And her mommy came running
Then the yell pierced the sky
And nothing else was the same
This girl- she had it all
But an invisible thread cut her short
And now she can't say "I love you" again.
Elixa Greene May 2014
I’m not alive and thriving, I’m barely surviving
Just trying to get by without attracting attention
The pain that I feel you can see it quite clearly
But everybody chooses to just look right through me
I’m burning these words you once said to me
I’m trying to forget, but it’s not that easy

I'm one of those girls you see in the hall
The ones you can't remember their name at all.
My face is just one of those faces that blends in with the crowd.
I'm anonymous, you're wondering who I am, where I've been.
My own self, but no one at all.
I got a secret that I can't tell.
I'm anonymous, and your wondering who I am.
I'm anonymous
Elixa Greene May 2014
how can I live
how can I love
without this trust
I'm holding close
You call me your angel
but no, not anymore
you may be my devil
but that doesn't mean you're perfect
Elixa Greene May 2014
Just a soul,
An empty corpse
Waiting for a death sentence
That may never come.
I may be cursed to wonder, endlessly
For my sins
For I have sinned.
And I will never repent
For that means I have regrets
But regrets are empty words
That mean nothing
Because the past just is,
Nothing we can change.

I am just a soul,
My heart mangled beyond repair.
And I can no longer love
For that is part of your plan
To wreck me to the core
And you have succeeded for I am broken
Elixa Greene May 2014
I’m trapped in my own mind,
A cage of my own making
Is it safe in here?
With the walls raised so high
That tumble down with no warning
I’m lost in this darkness that threatens me

Lost in the oblivion
That makes me lose hope
Calling my own name
Trying not to lose myself
But even when it’s mission impossible
I will succeed, no matter the cost

Feeling like I’m broken,
Never going to make it
Always forgotten
When people think of me
It’s with no edging thoughts
Just sadness, no overwhelming grieving

Lost in the oblivion
That makes me lose hope
Calling my own name
Trying not to lose myself
But even when it’s mission impossible
I will succeed, no matter the cost

Another day starts alone
Another day that ends the same way
Feeling like it’s never going to reach
Wherever it’s supposedly going

Lost in the oblivion
That makes me lose hope
Calling my own name
Trying not to lose myself
But even when it’s mission impossible
I will succeed, no matter the cost
Elixa Greene May 2014
Everyone has a story, a secret
they haven’t told.
Hold it close, for fear of being alone
A map into the stars, they’re hoping to
Find a way to remember
without a way to remind
We hide ourselves
Draw into the shadows when we
have nothing else
Is it lonely out in that world of yours?
Is it lonely to watch your whole world
fall apart at your feet?
The only expression you can show defeat.
Even that’s a stretch,
all you want to do is
stare blankly ahead.
Thinking about what’s gonna happen,
when nothing’s happened yet.
Who needs a heart if it’s only going to break?
It’s better to be heartless,
At times like this
Nothing seems like it’s going the right way.
The wrong turns are going in circles until your dizzy.
And feeling like this is never gonna end.
Because as long as you’re dead inside,
it's an endless cycle that'll never break.
Elixa Greene May 2014
I live in the dark
You tell me it’s better this way
Don’t have any dreams, they’ll only get crushed
I am scared of the outside world
The only reason why
Because you tell me to fear it

I’m like a puppet on a string
You’re in control of me
You tell me to move, I move
You tell me to sing, I sing
Because I have nothing to lose
But I want to cut these ties that bind us
But I don’t know how to live without you
I will spread my wings and fly
Because I will survive

You tell me don’t go
It’s dangerous out there alone
I don’t know how to be by myself
I’ll only get hurt if I leave
Won’t let you lie to me
I will not let these chains **** me

I’m like a puppet on a string
You’re in control of me
You tell me to move, I move
You tell me to sing, I sing
Because I have nothing to lose
But I want to cut these ties that bind us
But I don’t know how to live without you
I will spread my wings and fly
Because I will survive

Wish that I could undo
All those bad choices
All of those days spent with you
Wishing that I could be free
But not letting myself be happy
For fear of what would happen to you
But now I see, you manipulate me
Into believing I’m at fault
That won’ t happen anymore

I was like a puppet on a string
You were in control of me
You told me to move, I moved
You told me to sing, I sang
Because I had nothing to lose
But I cut those ties that bind us
I  know how to live without you now
I have spread my wings and flew
I will survive
Elixa Greene May 2014
I can feel it in my bones
Like a lost soul calling out
Like a plea
Can you sense the danger
In yearning for the future
But you shred my dreams into pieces
You’re stealing all my air, I can’t breathe

Please bring me from this state
I can’t take it any longer
I can’t stand this pressure
I feel like this is torture
A hundred thousands weights upon my shoulders
And you can see my silent screams
But all you do is stare at me
Who else could you be besides
The devil inside of me…
Someone please save me.

I will grow stronger this time
Never will I fade again
Don’t hurt me
This fear won’t hold me back
I want to rely on you
But how can I even trust myself
When my ignorance speaks, for itself

Please bring me from this state
I can’t take it any longer
I can’t stand this pressure
I feel like this is torture
A hundred thousands weights upon my shoulders
And you can see my silent screams
But all you do is stare at me
Who else could you be besides
The devil inside of me…
Someone please save me.

Break down these walls
Build them up again
The whole world is watching
I feel so exposed to all the stares
Am I going insane?
Can you hear them speaking
In a whisper like this is
Nothing but a secret

Please bring me from this state
I know you see my silent screams
All you do is stare and wave at me
Who else could you be besides
The devil inside of me…
You want my torture to be never ending.
Someone please save me.

Who else could you be besides
The devil inside of me.
Someone please save me.
Save me.
Elixa Greene May 2014
Their love was a rose- beautiful, but ****** to die
His thorns brought diamond clear tears to her eyes, and
Knowing, knowing he was always like a monochrome rainbow- nonexistent
Unreal, this boy she loved, she cried for her mistakes
Her happiness stolen by a thief, brought nothing but grief
To her he meant the world, but her heart shattered
And when he left her, although she cursed his name
Never would anything separate them again, not even his greed
And the fear she'd forever be dead inside reigned, but
Nothing else could compare to their love in her mind
This was for a contest, and there had to be ten lines, and each line had to have ten words.
Elixa Greene May 2014
The person you see is just an exterior
A shell to hide what I really feel
Put on a happy face and go with the flow
That’s the motto that I follow
But sometimes my emotions catch up to me
And when my mask isn’t enough, I cry.
Careful not to do so in front of others
Showing weakness is not an option
An opinion other than the majority is trouble
I follow the trends of the crowd
Pushed from the front to the back
A slave to the masses
Stuck wherever I go with nothing
Told what to do by others
No choice is allowed to be my own
Who am I you may ask
I’m a teenager
Bet you weren’t expecting that.
why
Elixa Greene May 2014
why
You feel like no one cares
And you're all alone in the world
They all got their own problems
aint got the time for yours
and everything they say is a critisicm
and you fight and you cry
and it seems like they care
but really it was just a dare
a flirtacious fun thing for them to do
and they're gonna break your heart
and you never knew
but now that you do
you want to die
because everything seems to say goodbye.
and you wanna never know why
Elixa Greene May 2014
You act like you don’t think I know
That I’m annoying
That every time I text you
And you don’t answer
I get mad for no reason
You act like I don’t know
How everyone talks of me
Behind my back
About how I don’t want to
Be popular
How do you expect me not to know
When I can hear them whispering
When you see my messages
So I text you again
Obsessed, you think
But deep down just wanting contact
With someone, anyone who has been
Kind at least once
You act like I don’t get sad
And lonely
When I post things, and no one
Replies
You act like I never loved
And lost the one that I loved
When I’ve suffered a lot of grief
You act like you know me
When you clearly don’t
You only know the picture
Of me that everyone sees
You act like you like me
But how can you
When I am insane
You act like I never knew
That I have no friends
And that I think sitting alone
At lunch
Is a tragedy
You act like everything I do
Is worthy of gossip
When I don’t do anything
Out of the ordinary
You act like reading is a bad thing
That having my nose in a book
Leaves me isolated from the world
The truth is that girl-me-
With her nose in a book
Finds solace in those characters
Because deep inside she feels like an outcast
And feels like she only belongs with
The fictional characters
Like she is not worthy enough
To have contact with other people
That is your fault for shunning her
Into thinking that she has no worth
And though everyone feels like
That sometimes
Try to walk a mile in these shoes
And feel the suffering all the time
The loneliness of when you
Have to partner up
Of working alone because
You have no friends
The loneliness of when you
Have to walk alone
In the halls
And feel like everyone else has
A friend when you have none
And yet you’re stunned by her quiet
Demeanor
The way she holds herself around others
Don’t judge her for would you like
To be her
Don’t judge her until you know
How she lives everyday
Elixa Greene May 2014
A girl can only take so much before she explodes
Temper past boiling point and eyes raging bright
I may not look like it at first
But there’s anger beneath the exterior
Your taunting can only go so far
It’s too much to handle at once
Poking and prodding to see how far you can go
I’m not afraid of your teasing
But the consequences when I blow over
Watch out for the fire
Apologies I know you don’t mean
Only adding fuel to the blaze
There’s no way to douse the flames
Only to let it simmer and burn itself out
You try to get it to settle
It comes back with twice the fervor
Don’t mess with the fire
I’m a force to be reckoned with
And this is one fight you can’t win
Elixa Greene May 2014
Chatter forming round the window panes
Dewdrops falling from your mouth
Splatter into my own mind
Poisoning my own thoughts

You don’t realize how much
I can’t stand to be around you
You don’t realize how much
I hate you when you’re like this
You don’t realize how much
I love to break my heart
You don’t realize how much
I trample myself to stay out of the crossfire

Your voice straining above the others
Sounding to me like music
Trained to move past the barriers
Straight into my soul

You don’t realize how much
I can’t stand to be around you
You don’t realize how much
I hate you when you’re like this
You don’t realize how much
I love to break my heart
You don’t realize how much
I trample myself to stay out of the crossfire

It’s like an addiction
Moving into my blood
One brush isn’t enough to
Cover myself against the pain

You don’t realize how much
I can’t stand to be around you
You don’t realize how much
I hate you when you’re like this
You don’t realize how much
I love to break my heart
You don’t realize how much
I trample myself to stay out of the crossfire
Elixa Greene May 2014
I met you yesterday
And I fell in love
Like nothing I have ever felt before.
Love at first sight never existed.
Until you stepped into mine.









And got ran over by a car.
Blood running down your chest.
Spattering from your mouth, and nose.
Staining the street a dark scarlet.
Like a flood.








You always wore all black.
So I wore that to your funeral.
You looked so dead.
Not peaceful at all.
But I was still in love.








I wanted to get with you.
But that’s impossible.
I’m not trying to be creepy.
But somehow you make
Dead look so good.

— The End —