Visions blurred
Future unclear
Aspirations silly
Disturbing insecurity
Dreams incomplete
Untouched gifts
Hope wilts
Cryptic wit
Uncertain relation
Suspicious intentions
Difficult conditioning
Unresolved mistakes
Hesitant risks
Seasons passing
Age increases
Tis' Life.

Everything I try I have lost faith in me
it is the story written of my destiny
there is a lot to what could be
but the pages of my thoughts are left empty
I owe lot to the belief of my family
They're still wishing the best for me
but I want to check the exitdoor
I just have no self belief like before.

I'm in battle
trying to win over my heart and mind,
I'm in battle
trying to get control of my actions and thoughts,
I'm in battle
trying to restrict temptations and attractions,
This battle,
might last till my last breath
for its ongoing
for years over years
to  achieve  peace
and this battle
Won't end
till
everything in me will be satisfied
and nothing will ever hold power over me,
I'd be finally free and out of here.

It is much suited, isn't it
the separation
it brings its own melody
the only thing
Everyone who listens
feel the same
It is the same longing
we all feel
all the same for all the difference
deserted in middle
met again in the same boat as travellers
finding place to soothe the thirst
rhythm of the same beat
echoing in the same heartbeat.

All that is
What it is
Future is imagination
Nothing concrete
Present has never been kind
I live through it with hope
Survive like every day
But to what end
Present will never be kind
And what I am building,
The future, it is in my head
An imagination
it is there and gone.

The mask you see me wear
The mask I put on
They are different
I am protecting both
You and me.

Forgiveness
It is not simple
It cannot be given
So simply
Without the intent
The mind won't rest
Till the end
But forgiveness
Gives the freedom
To move on.

Forgiveness
Is freeing,
It is the peace,
It is so much more.
It is a step taken
To move ahead,
Leave behind
The history
In the past.

Forgiveness
It is the best gift
Given and received,
It can be the beginning,
it is the end of bitterness.
It is just like a necessity
To be a human
Who makes mistakes
live with harmony.

Forgiveness,
I give to thee free
To free me from the chains
Of the ill thoughts
I conceive in head
time to time, again and again
To not loathe the trust
I placed in you.

Forgiveness,
It is a process
To forgive myself
As I forgive you,
I give myself another chance
To believe the best
In you and in me.

Forgiveness,
Let's mend it.

One more year ends,
Counting few others.

This is the time
of the blown out candles,
Unaired balloon,
No whipped cream,
And non received postcards.

The closed restaurants,
And unreachable phone lines,
and boredom filled eyes.

It is the time of truth
Looking into my lines,
I have seen many years now,
Never seen times like this.

A very happy birthday to me.

I am a soul
I am not a body with a name

one step outside
and thousand thoughts in my head
five feet distance to maintain
the mask, check
the gloves, check
can I breath, I don't know
my heart pounding, yes
it is crazy, I know
but paranoia won't go
Empty streets, here I come
got to stock up the essentials

supremely trying my best
I fear the ticking clock
racing against the time
what will come is the fate's decision
when everything is already written
but there is a chance it is in my favour
if I give my best try
and I keep on hoping
that my time has come
and rest will become
history!

The world is on fire,
Where is the water?

Always wanted to be show my valour
Be as brave as they were
the characters who I admire
The books that told me the right wins
Always wanted to be in heroic scenes
And I tried courage for days
And each attempt failed
And I slowly took the role of spectator

The sidekick role much suited me
All I couldn't definitely
I still try my best infinity
My sword isn't right
My cape doesn't fly
And every book has told me a lie
No one is rooting for me
I don't fit for underdog too
It is funny how wrong i am
I don't possess anything useful.

Leave me with my thoughts, don't!
Get me out of here, now!
This is hell and heaven combined
Am I losing my mind, find!
It is getting out of hands, umm..
Help me out, someone?

I am seeing the colours
Mixing and blending
Without outline
All lines blurred
I can't see you
Red, orange and blue.

Sound and fire
Loud and the lightning
Clouds and the rain
Bound to the walls
Count me in and out
Zoning away

Venture to the north
The peace in the east
The land in pieces
Going to small places
The pink and blue town
huge marvelous palaces
On foot for days
The sand and mud stays
at the back of shoes
The path left ahead is beautiful
But am I ready to face the shine
Where to draw the fine line

I could put in the words what I do,
It becomes so irrelevant to
what I say despite for it not be
It just deeply affected me.
I do what needs to be done
It needs not be said so seldom.
In the dark of the night,
From left to the right
Don't cut, no bite
I have to say to be in the fight
To be few and fortunate.
With the crimes increasing,
And people turning cold,
You need more to live by
Give more and try
To make this earth a nice place
All across.

This comes to more than what I post
The life I lived and the moments I lost
In bringing the dreams together
All my wishes flew like butterfly
Birds shedding their feather
I leave each hope behind
Now I just live and breathe in unrest
Because I have got no conquest
Now all I do is wait
Wait to see what is stored in my fate
To turn my life around.

I am a small part of big
it comes from within
every cell of the body
working together in unison
to make me do what I make do
every each equal part
all through the heart,
neurons and veins.

a rebirth in the breath
same with the death
to openly give
lay arise to have and hold
simple things are gold
all the moments made
never will be sold.

a figure to figure
a passing second to record
the choice my made
and the lies I said
echoed in the universe
came back pronounced
it faces me the ugly side.

Who really knows
the knowledge of eternity
a purpose, wishful destiny
a very green envy
my own construct life
my existence roots
disrupt others.

When there is no sun
and no moon around
The darkness reflects
Night shines the brightest

Flashlights take us places
to make our way through spaces
the time moves slower
and dark clouds hover

blinding black surround
and echoes of voices of hounds
the heart freezes
we sleep till late

Keep our eyes closed
to protect from the truth
Hands on every surface
finding the path out

Hoping to come across
morning rays coming through glasses
Urging to wake from
this terrible nightmare

Too late to contemplate
if it is too late now.

Another lifetime comes to an end
Sleeping rhymes of beautiful hymns
Capture the essence of it all
And in the night slowly does it crawl
No inch into misery
No greed and no jealousy
The spirit devoid of it
Shining through the darkness
Brightening the passage
Wielding the magic
Little surreal not dramatic
A pinch of past and hope to future.

I'll **** my own pride
to go on this fairytale ride
to become a distressed damsel
to live a life stable

There are no fancy knights alive
no one teaches them what's right
we'll be waiting half our life
then proceed ahead on our right

Little late on this race
there is not enough space
running knowing no better
getting a place whenever

The world not shy to show the unfairness
same status, more the less
crowning someone else the royal prince
it has this same ending long since.

Can't it just
not this harsh
not mush, but
not this hard
why this rush
can't it must
stop the gush
like but not
when it rusts
no more trust
ends to gust
it just got
lost again, tough.

Still inside the prison
which doesn't exist
stuck in this place
which has no exit.

confined to me
no one is visiting me
there is no skies above
no different scenery.

I look for ways to escape
but I keep getting myself
more entangled
my sentence is getting larger.

I breathe every second to stay alive
fill my lungs with air
not you.