I have no idea what I'm doing
I'm clueless on what's happening
I only know one thing with certainty
It's that you were supposedly  my infinity

From the moment you walked through that door
I knew that there was so much more
As soon as you said hello
I looked forward to our tomorrow

Months passed, we grew close
We knew each other from our head to our toes
The more time spent with you, the more I fell
I guess I was under your spell

I managed to decode your complicated pieces
And one of the things I realized is
You needed a hand to hold through life's disasters
A best friend and not a lover

You needed a wall, you needed a shoulder
Someone to lean on anytime and whenever
You said I gave you strength and power
And that you see me as a sister

That pained me in more  ways than one could imagine
In reply, I gave you a warm grin
I was your friend, a sister and nothing more
But you are the gallant knight I adore

Accepting that we would never be more than friends
And since I don't want our bond to end
Even if it's hard for me to say...
Dear best friend, we are better of  *this way

Let me be captured by the night.
Engrossed in the conversation
between the stars.
Syncopated twinkling like...
thousands of fireflies
trapped within sealed jars.

Let me be enslaved by the moon.
As I drink her glow in
greedy insatiable gulps.
Crestfallen...
Her beam with an agenda...
As the landscape she sculpts.

Let me be ensnared by my solitude.
But I hear crickets...
Chirping and chipping away at my
bastion of dreamstate.
Persistent calls
I try to shun
that never abates.

Let me be trapped in my thoughts.
So I could harness...
And immortalise them in
indelible careless scribbles.
Erecting and...
Rebuilding them from the
rubble of conflicting squabbles.

Let me be overwhelmed
by the mess of my being...**
Let me wallow
Then emerge strong from this
decrepit state of mind.
Let me breathe heavy from my
punctured lungs.
So I could heal in time before
true solace
in this dark,
I would find.