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 Oct 2014
Amanda In Scarlet
I'm scared, so scared, of something indefinable.
    I need you to hold me, but
I won't ever ask.

I understand the power of a spoken dream,
   A hidden longing dragged from the shadows
  To dissolve in the light.

            Tonight

I am lonely, I am hurting,
   Raked by Never's scabrous fingers,
Hungering for hope.

If I begged you, would you, could you, come?
   Spirited before me by the strength of my need?
No matter; sleep, our restless tossings
  are well earned, this is a just and righteous anguish.

We, I, you, we,
    Recognise the power of a lost, unspoken dream.
 Oct 2014
pencaricahaya
The memory of you is like black coffee.
Dark, bitter, and causes insomnia.
 Oct 2014
pencaricahaya
Of course I want to see you again,
That's the one thing I want the most.
Even though you recoiled from me, and left me lost.

Them butterflies in my stomach will torture me while I'm thinking on you appearing,
And won't go away even after you're gone.
They'll end up filling me whole.
Then overflow.

I think I can handle them butterflies,
But what I still can't do, is dealing with the thought of you.
 Oct 2014
pencaricahaya
A wish unfulfilled
She'll never be reached
But we'll keep on flying
Higher and higher
Above the clouds
Beyond the horizon
Till the air turns thin
Where like blade cuts the wind
We'll keep on rising
Higher and higher
Till our hearts turn blue
Till the blue turns black
And then white: nothing
And then perhaps
We could touch her heart
In the beautiful land of the rising sun they believe cranes live a thousand years, and if you fold a thousand origami cranes (one for each of their years) one wish of yours will come true.
Folding them didn't make my wish come true, but I guess wishing for a heart is wishing too much. So I set them free to roam the sky, maybe that way they'll reach something I can't.
- Pencaricahaya.
 Oct 2014
pencaricahaya
All I ever wanted has just gathered in you.
All I have admired, longed for and loved.
I've finally found you in this ocean of time,
That I've been wandering in for so many lives.

So am I to let you go?

Well of course, that is a must.
For I am not to cut your butterfly wings.
For I am not to take away your marvelous dreams.
 Oct 2014
pencaricahaya
I should have known better,
Butterflies never never fall in love.
But I have learnt they are quite pretty
As pretty good at breaking hearts.
Thanks to Dajena M.
 Oct 2014
pencaricahaya
The sunrise surprised me awake again
I haven't slept, I just can't
Not while you're in here
Haunting both memory and imagination

I haven't slept
And I'm not really awake
Ambulant slumber, never-ending malady
Love-sickness is the worst of them all
There's no comfort, nothing soothes, nothing satisfies

I must wake
Even though my heart is broken
And everything has stopped for me
The rest of the world won't wait
It will just go on and run me over

At least the colors of the sky
Reflect those of my heart
Grey and blue,
And that saddens me a little more

It's lonesome looking at the sky,
Because it has your colors too.
Grey and blue
And that depresses me a little more
 Oct 2014
pencaricahaya
Lately I've been seeking for light,
Looking for truth and searching for life.

The shine of the sun does hurt my eye,
So I totally fell for the silver moon's light.

I'd be with the moon for hours on end,
Living more on the sky than the earth.

I haven't deviated from my lunar path,
But a new moon invaded my heart.

This tiny moon is lively and rad,
Like a heavens treat or a wicked trap.

Broken-hearted moon with an angel's face,
That infected me with her heart ache.

I wish I could share her my feelings made words,
But that heart of hers is utterly shut.
 Oct 2014
pencaricahaya
If you said yes
And let me close to you

That will stall my poetry with words
And ignite my poetry with touch
The best poetry is that of broken hearts

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