You have to feel the hurt
cos it's the only way to know
if you can love someone
despite the pain

You have to feel the loss
cos it's the only way to know
if you can be with anyone
despite the desolation

You have to feel the betrayal
cos it's the only way to know
if you can trust someone
despite the lies

You have to feel everything
cos it's the only way to know
if you can continue
despite them

- J. L

I can't be any closer to you
You can't be further away
                    I just want time to freeze
                    I don't want anything but to stay
                                        Stay here
                                        With you
Look at me
While I pretend to be asleep
                    Resting on your shoulder
                    You holding my hand
                                        *Just stay

I've built this wall around myself
To shield my heart from the pain
Like the caterpillar, I hide
Until I'm finally free to find
A love to fly with me in the rain

I wake up in the morning and my first thought is you
After the head rush clears I'm left feeling blue

Every moves a struggle as I silently dress
*** even though I've slept all night I don't feel I've had any rest

Truth is that as soon as I close my eyes
My mind wanders and sees you by my side
Standing so tall, eyes full of love
Your so handsome, picturesque and I can't believe my luck

My past is broken, fragile and a wreck
But with you, you see past it and your touch
Is like a shock wave when your fingers brush past my neck.

You gently tuck my hair behind my ears and your eyes are fixed on mine,
every word you say to me my head is trying to define

You kiss me so softly and our lips are a perfect match
And I realise then, no one will ever compare to you, not even a patch

See the thing is the last time I thought I was with someone I loved
He stripped away all I was after he kicked screamed and shoved

I thought then I was broken after I ended the nightmare
And ended up soliciting my body out like it
Was everyone's to share

Then you came along and I started to love myself again
You friendship ran true and my life
Had finally began

But if we take it back to the beginning remember it's all in my mind
Because you don't even know how I feel
The words I can't even find

So I put on my make up and pretend to you in fine
But you will never comprehend how much I wish you were mine

I rush through the day, so I can fall back asleep
So I can get back to perfection, but before I do I weep.

He's damaged,
               Unfixable it seems
What others would call
                  nightmares
       Are his sweetest dreams
                And sometimes
  He takes his emotions
                               to
                            extremes
       It's so blatantly obvious
  When he finally
           breaks down
                    And screams
That the world
          brought him to his knees

                  He's a broken spirit.
       And I just don't know
   If my love
              can mend his soul
Or if my broken pieces
        Are enough to make
                                      him
                  ­                      whole.
       And if I use what
                       little I have left
To put him back together
                Won't that just
                                  leave me
      In a shattered pile of emotions
                   *forever?

I spit the moon, a fingernail,
in the black eye of night.

Stardust was born
from the dirt of a lifetime.

I had the universe at my fingertips,
and blew it away like a kiss.

The world is a better place for my loss.