I promised only butterflies...
But that promise I cannot keep.
For inside my head there's a wailing..
A screeching...
I just want it to stop...                                         y
It wants pain..it'll stop for pain..         a
But I promised only butterflies..             w
And I don't want them to drift   *a

You people think I care,
When you call me these names.
You think I haven't heard them all before.
But I will only ask one question,
If you are not a ****, and I am not like you,
Does that mean I am a ****?
Because yes I'm not like you...

I am not a ****
like you had put me down to be.

I am way more than that.

I'm a flower that will keep growing
even when you're done stepping on me

because you walking over me will no longer have any affect on me

Lanterns swing lonely
In bitter howling wind
The howl of a distant wolf
Flames flicker in the night
And she is lost—lost
Never to be found again

**~Marian~

At least graveyards are a constant

Sweating, breathing, silent screaming
Shaking, crosses, mixed love making
Kisses, crying, forced good-bying
Late night terror, morning dream
Guardian angel whispers in my ear
I'm screaming so loud, no one can hear
One more prayer, one more look
Look at my own heart I've took
I've thrown it into jail you see,
To save me from questioning eternity

You told me you trusted me,
Made me think we were okay.
Stroking my hair and smiling,
Like forever would be this way.

But then things changed,
You said I wouldn't understand...
Treated me like I wouldn't care
If you pushed me away...

I tried talking...
But my words never seem to make sense.
They don't fall into place...
Not like your lies...

The thing is darling,
I actually cared...
But when you push someone away,
Eventually they'll just let go...

of my heartache.

There's no need
for any explanations.

And although you
may not understand;
      I cannot
          deny
    the way it feels to be
               in your
       presence.

Her eyes wander
And
They begin to tear
Each drop
Slithering unto her pillow
As she wipes them away
More come
And she can't help but
Cry