you doubt yourself you grip the wheel you turn it up you scream, you squeal you grit your teeth you bang your head you stop and park you’re filled with dread you gas it up you hang up the phone you take your time to get back home you yell at God you apologize you try to see truth verses lies you call your friend you are alive you pick her up and make her drive the lake is calm but you are not you try to breathe it’s all you’ve got
I am afraid in time you'll see I'm worse than what you think of me And everyday you'll fantasize Of life without my lifeless eyes Honesty is hard to show When I'm scared it will make you go And if I learn to love like you Would that possibly be enough too? What if I was created to be A person without any company
I want to think I was made for love But when I look to the sky above The clouds don't part and the sun doesn't shine How could you possibly want to be mine
A reflection on doubts about my ability to be a person worthy of love. Most of the time I believe I am. It's only when I am going through an episode that I don't.
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