Inspired by Words - Hello Poetry

Oct 2018

Emerson Nosreme

I know it sounds
So utterly dull
And strange to
Some of you
But here is
A description
Of me
Like you asked

I am a child born as snow fell
On the day David Bowie died
(Technically a few years before that)
A little late
But still good
I was as quiet as a mouse
I never cried or complained

But when I got older
Things changed
I didn’t act like other children
I wore brown each day
Which turned to purple
And now it is shades of
Blue, black and grey
Things were confusing
And a woman kept seeing me
In my home
Asking me questions
And showing me videos and pictures
Of a million different emotions
On a million different faces
And I mostly stayed alone
In the playground

I then researched myself
I found out what I have
It’s a little something
That makes me a little mad
But not bad
I don’t understand different emotions
I know what happy is
I know what sad is
But people don’t show their emotions truthfully
And I can’t understand it
I hate it when people talk
LOUDLY
AT
THE
TOP
OF
THEIR
LUNGS
I don’t like trying new foods
I don’t like being touched that much
Unless I know the person
And processing information
Is a little hard

But I have a few abilities
So I’m not a disability
I see patterns everywhere
I remember random facts
I see the trees and not the forest
I am emotive and mostly understanding
And of course
I write my dreams
My thoughts
My opinions
My life
Through poems
And questions
And the nice thing is
No one minds
No one cares
They don’t mind that I am me
They don’t care how I do things

if you see any song lyrics that I am referencing or any other references, let me know!

#autism #life #emotions #feelings

Oct 2018

Emerson Nosreme

“Are you ok?”

Look
It’s not that
I don’t appreciate
The words “are you ok?”
Because I know you are concerned
But first
Take a look at me
And ask yourself
“Do they look ok?”

In a bad mood. Sorry.

#mad #angry #sad #upset #annoyed

Oct 2018

Emerson Nosreme

Am I Being Rude?

Sir
Jerome
Mrs
Michael
Miss
Lucy
Mister
Wendy
Ma'am
Kate

I hear all these names at once
I hear all these things at once
I can hear everything

A glass just shattered
It was loud for them
It was louder for me

Don't be rude!

"I need to get some more raspberries tomorrow-"
"Remember Harry's anniversary is next week-"

All these words combined
Making me lose my mind

"I need to get- Harry's anniversary is next week-"
" remember- some more raspberries tomorrow-"

I'm shaking
I'm being stared at
I can't see
But I know they're staring
Don't take pity
I'm used to it

There's a woman touching me
She's touching my shoulder
She's speaking in a 'can I help you ma'am?' voice
But I can't hear what she's saying
It's under-

"Get a chair!"

Water

I see her again
She's rubbing my back
I think I'm screaming
I can hear screaming
I don't know if it's me
It doesn't sound like me
But it also sounds like me

"What's up with her?"
"Don't be rude!"

The room blurs.
It fades.
Everything fades.
Then I'm outside.
The woman is still there.
She's still speaking in that stupid voice.
I wanna tell her that I'm not a toddler.
But I do appreciate what she did.
So I decide not to be rude

#autism #meltdown #panic #attack #social #party

Oct 2018

Emerson Nosreme

the myth of autism functionality

Can you clear this up for me?
I was told autism is a 'spectrum disorder'
It is Autism Spectrum Disorder
Spectrum means a circle of unless colours in different shades
Light or dark
Hot or cold

So why is it rated by functionality?!

I am 'high functioning', I can succeed in life with no support.
If that is the truth
Why do I panic at every sound?
Why can't I process information?
Why am I not as social than I should be?

I know someone who is 'low functioning'
I am told they won't succeed at life
But they draw beautiful pictures
So does that mean they will not succeed?

So tell me
Is the spectrum a lie?
Or is the functionality a myth?

#autism #functionality #life #spectrum #autistic

Sep 2018

Emerson Nosreme

Death by Glamour

She wanted to be famous now
Since she was very pretty
Her hair was long and curly
She was the best singer in the talent show
And she did her make up well
And made it straight through hell

But when she became well known
Hollywood's true colours were shown
And soon she became thinner
As she was seen as a sinner
Soon she found hanging from a bit of rope
And left on her bed was a note...

'Note to self.
1: don't be famous
2: you're ugly'

#hollywood #suicide #anorexia #death #famous

Sep 2018

Emerson Nosreme

Lose yourself

Lose yourself to music that you wanna blast all day long
***** all the neighbors who yell at you for it

Lose yourself in books that you want to read
Read a few a friend would recommend
Otherwise don’t force yourself to read books that you’re forced to read

Lose yourself when you write things you want to write
Don’t let anyone tell you what to write
And don’t change a thing about how you write

Lose yourself when you do what you love
And don’t worry about anyone who is glaring at you

Lose yourself in the eyes of the person you love
Whether it’s him, her or them
Or whether your parents hate them
Or whether everyone hates you both

Lose yourself in the clothes you wear
Ignore any raised eyebrows
Focus on the positive comments

Lose yourself in the make up you wear
Don’t worry boys, this is for you too
And girls don’t stress about it
I certainly won’t care

#beauty #music #dance #sport #love #life

Sep 2018

Emerson Nosreme

second hand jokes

“So a guy and a girl walk into a bar...”

I'm sorry sir but what do you mean?
I don't understand it
Can't you explain? I'm very confused
No I am not an emotionless person
(Most of the time)
But I am confused

No sir don't get me involved
Don't like being made fun of
A second hand joke
No I'm not coming on stage with you sir
Can't you understand?
I don't want to and I won't go

No sir stop doing that
I will literally slap you if you do not stop
I will scream
I will shout

Yes sir, that was offensive
Stupid
Insensitive
Rude

Yes sir, I won't be seeing you in court
Because they won't believe a 'woman' like me
And claim it was because of what I wear
And claim I sat in a crowd to be a second hand joke
ON PURPOSE?

Then, this story and what I told you
Will just be another injustice in the world
In which most people will find some other injustice
And move on
Very quickly

It'll be another joke
A joke in a bar
Oh yes
I get it now
I get the joke
It was a horrible one
And I'm talking to it

See if you can get the second message. Read through the poem and let me know. If you want to know the answer, read the bit below:

Ok you're reading the message! That's good I guess. If you are distressed easily, don't read it.

Ok so the idea was, this poem was the logistics (in my opinion) of ****/****** harassment. This once happened to me (today is actually around the time it happened) when I was 12. A guy, who was around 17, who I had only known for AN HOUR tried to make me his girlfriend.
Yes, you read correctly. he tried to do that.
But my mother got the hint immediately (thank god for mothers sometimes) and immediately contacted his mother. She explained he has ADHD (fair enough, I mean, I do have autism myself so I get that) but could not process how uncomfortable I was (especially since I was 12 and very socially awkward).
I also read something where some **** cases are blamed on what woman wear (yes you read that correctly). It actually disgusts me that people think woman dress so they can be sexually harassed and *****. Yes because people like to be traumatised and upset.
I hope that if anything like this happens, you go to the people who can help you and give you the support you need. Thank you for reading :)

#**** #jokes #comedy #harassment

Sep 2018

Emerson Nosreme

are you like me?

Do you try to write from your heart,
But then it goes into your head,
And comes out as a mess
Like me?

Do you have doctors talking
In a language like a label maker,
Saying "they're on this end, they won't make it through life."
But you've actually gone so far
But have a few struggles
That you can't deal with
Like me?

Do you have people around you
Say they understand you
But then they talk too loudly
Around you
Without regret
And you start to cry and tear out your hair
Like Me?

Do teachers or your boss tell you off
For things you can't control
And you start to cry and scream
Like me?

Do your parents tut and sigh
Ask why
And yell when they don't understand
And you just have to leave the room
Like me?

Please talk to me
Tell me
Are you like me?
Do you run on a different system
A beat of a different drum
The tune to a strange song

Do you understand me?
Do you know how I feel?
Do you feel?
Do you understand me?
How do you piece the puzzle?
How do you see it?
Do you understand me?
What do you see in people?
What do people see in you?
Do you understand me?

Do you look at people
Observe them and talk to them
And think about their actions
And wonder
If they
Are like you,
Like me?

#autism #questions #words

Sep 2018

Emerson Nosreme

yelling

I find that people
Will always yell when
Something
Doesn’t
Work.
Their computers.
Their phones.
Their WiFi.
Their spouse.
Thier parents.
Their kids.
Their students.
Their employees.
Anyone.
Just to hurt their feelings
Or destroy friendships
Relationships
And silence

#silence #abuse #fights

Sep 2018

Emerson Nosreme

the cost of loving you

What is the cost of loving you, sir?
A slap, or two, or three or four?
Even more than that
If I tip my hat
Can we make that none?

What is the cost of loving you, dearie?
I can see you're asking for quite a lot of money from me.
Can we make that none?

What is the cost of loving you, Ma Chérie?
Another lover, but one who I think
Is not your lover?
Can we make that none?

What is the cost loving you, sweetheart?
You're not so sweet I see
If you want to beat me
Like eggs in a cup
Shattered, bleeding
Can we make that none?

What is the cost of loving you, handsome?
Some hate, not from you.
But from bystanders.
Who
Seem
To
Be
Unable
To
Shut
Their
Mouths
To
Stop
Pouring
Out
Hate
Towards
Us
Over
Nothing.

#abuse #hate #homophobic #bisexual #pansexual #gay #lesbian #lgbt

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