She is now your star, the apple of your eyes

She is now the reason for your every smile
She has taken my place all in a while
Will I be somehow at peace today
Knowing that she always complete your day?

The person you had before
Is now wondering more
"Has she erased my part?"
*"Has she replaced me in your heart?"

There are some thoughts that even you tell a million times...

...would just be an air that they will never understand.

What if decisions were not made?
What if we swam into the flow
Of the sudden rush of feeling?

Would there be us?
Or it would still be like this?

Where am I now in your life?*
Can you still see me from a distance?
Or you *completely left the memory of me?

May we both have happiness

The thing we desired for
The thing we deserve to have
*As we part ways, opening new doors

Why do I love you?*
*The question that I still cannot answer

Hey
I wanted to say hello
But I guess my that "hello" would not be just like before
That "hello" that makes your heart beat fast

But I always end up
Effortlessly reminiscing your face
Your comfort through these rainy days

But not all the time you can escape*

Some roads have dead ends
When you hastily go for a road
As you try to escape
You'll never know what lies ahead

The best way to escape is to pretend.

Here I am
Still fixing myself and hoping that one day
I'll be brave enough to answer our clueless questions

There would be one thing
That I would ask
If someone admits
That he truly loves me
"Are you afraid of heights?"

And if he answers
"I'm shy to admit but yes, I am afraid of heights. Why?"

I'll tell him
"Thank you,
Even if you are afraid of falling,
You never hesitate to fall for me.*"

Kailan ko ba maiintindihan
Na hindi mo na ako babalikan?
Wala na ang dating pagtingin
Ni isa man sa sandaling **dati'y atin

Akala mo di siya mawawala
Eto ngayon, umalis na siya
Akala mo maghihintay pa siya
Yun ang masakit, hindi na pala

Akala mo di ka mapapalitan
Ngayo'y may bagong nang kasiyahan
Akala mo ikaw pa rin ang mahal
Nagbabago pala habang tumatagal

Akala mo ganun pa rin
Hindi na pala, nagbago din
"Babalik pa ba o hindi?"
Alam mo naman sa sarili ****
*"Hindi"

How I wish I am all that I wanted
Charming, beautiful, skilled and talented
Intelligent, brilliant, confident and brave

But the magic of life is this:
The Creator allowed us to not acquire all
Some may not be too smart but kind
Some may not be too pretty but wise
*So that together we can fit
Into the blank space of each other's lives
And enjoy the beauty variety brings

Ibig sagutin ng aking puso
Paano na nga ba ito?
Paano kung sa bawat ngiti mo
Ay tila ako ay nahuhulog sa iyo

Paano kung sa bawat bigkas mo
Ng mga salita sa tuwing kausap ako
Ako ay napapatulala
Kadalasan ay namamangha

Paano kung wala akong kakayanan
Magsabi ng nararamdaman
Mananatili na lamang bang
Isang lihim sa isang tula

Ngunit kung dumating ang panahon
Sa paghangin, paghampas ng alon
Magkaroon ng pagkakataon
Sasabihin ang damdaming nakabaon

Magiging handa at matapang
Marinig ang iyong ibibigkas
Tatanggapin ba ang aking nararamdaman,
O ito'y hahantong lamang sa wakas

Another year to bloom brighter
Another moment to step a lil' higher
Another chance to grow stronger
Another journey with learning and laughter

And this is my prayer:
"Oh God, make me the woman you want me to be"

The greatest struggle
In loving someone
Is when you realize
You need to let go

**"We were almost there
But almost is never enough
And I need also
To make myself go"

The days come
They seem to make
My flesh weak
My strength fade

But as I ponder
God never gets tired
In sustaining strength
It is new every morning

He is faithful in making me strong
I will be faithful in making Him happy
As it was stated
"The joy of the Lord is my strength"

I asked God
"Please give me just a day,
To refresh myself
Away from all tasks and demands
For I am getting tired of them"

So God did,
And during those days of freedom,
I somehow did not
Allow Him to speak with me

The days grow and suddenly
I feel empty, lifeless
I wonder why I feel weak
Even if I'm not tired physically

Then I pray to God
But not the same prayer I uttered before:

*"I would not ask you anymore my God
To take away those tiring tasks
That the days throw in me
Along my way

But rather, I say
Please Lord be my strength
Through the days of being tired,
Of being free
In every season in my life

I knew each of these days
Will give demands
But be the source of my joy
Be the source of my strength"

Brave and strong*
That how I describe her
Her beauty shines
As the morning breeze blows her hair

Her dress sways
Like the graceful grass
And she's as sweet,
As poppies in the field

Holding her parasol
With dignity and beautiful soul
Nothing will ever compare
To her never ending care

I've been walking straight
In this long journey
Holding on to memories
And my set of valuable things
Thinking they will be
Forever with me
But I cannot stop the clock
All these precious things
Could be taken by time

As the sun rises to the east
And sets to the west
I need to accept the fact
That I cannot fight with time
As the days grow old
Things will not be the same
I should treasure everything
The seconds, hours, and days
Passing in my life

Why should the first line of a story
Be in harmony with the last?
If love was a song, I would rather
Not play the end if it doesn’t match

But the first second of that moment
Was like a prologue in a book
I was eager to explore the pages
With my mind and heart ready for surprises

It is a story of us, or just about me
With great mystery to explore
Confusions and words unknown to us
Set a certain hymns and feels inside

Then questions rushed like this:
What if I face my fears?
What if I venture out of nowhere?
Would you see me?

If I sail over the moon
Can I really find you?
But if the moon doesn’t glow
I will never see a glimpse of you

If I go beyond the mountains
Can I finally reach you?
But if mountains were higher than hopes
I would be forced to quit

If I walk through dark valleys
Can I prove myself to you?
But if I became frightened of possibilities
I would not move from here

If I swim through the clouds
Can you meet me in the air?
But if you are not sure to fly
I will just stay with the sky.

If I force myself to be a flower in the fields
Would you choose and pick me?
But if great flowers exist before me
I would rather stay as a grass.

I closed the book
I looked to the mirror and ask myself
Then I finally became brave to
Accept the fact, the truth

Finally understood that life is still fair
Even if you became a part of my reality
If at least I can see you, I am happy with it
Not expecting that you will see me

If that moment was just a story
Cloudless skies, I dance through it
I will cherish every colour of the rainbows
And I will paint it with wishes and smiles

If that moment was just for a day
Or a dream that can be erased by time
I will brave enough to write it
And keep it up to the end

If that moment was just a story
A story in a book, in a world of sunshine
I will read it again
And fall in love with it all over again

What is worse than being
Confused about how
And what I feel about you.

My mind says,
"I'm afraid to love you"
But my heart says
*"I'm much more afraid to lose you"

I remember the night
I was awake with all my might
Watching stars above my head and
Asking myself, "do I really need to bend?"

I tried to be so flexible about adjusting
I really had a hard time believing
Convinced to meet high expectations
Prepared for numerous explanations

Then I also asked myself why
Why am I still giving it a try
Letting a chance to enlighten my mind
Of all the things I need to find

Letters before were already at their best
But now, even x's and y's are written on the test
Never ending solution sets to a question
***** of a line, and its points, and its equation

How can I distinguish velocity
To the speed of a car in a city
Almost all terms have the same meaning
And for me they are just repeating

Solving for sine, cosine and tangent
Is like choosing a question in a pageant
I do not know what to choose at first
Pick the best and things will be reversed

Speed of a car, man, and even horses
Together with others make up my courses
Drawing tables, graphs and designs
Follow this path covered with lines

Balancing formulas in chemistry
Is just like balancing your time with artistry
Critical conversion of units taught me
To give a careful approach to arrive at the key

I was wondering how I survived
Those tiring days that arrived
As I walk on the stage of honor with gladness
I can't help but cry with happiness

Success doesn't end in accomplishing
Hardwork is always followed by polishing
Experiences mold you to be better
Only if you aspire to be like no other

Years and year passed away
Roads and bridges gave a better way
Skyscrapers and buildings soared high
As I looked up and admired the sky

Now, as I take my white hard hat with me
Flashbacks of the past, that's what I see
Before it was only just a dream
But now, it is a success to redeem

I smile as I look up the sky again and
Whisper that dreams won't come to an end
Showers of wishes will ever be in our hearts
And no one can ever take away any of its parts

In this universal set we live in,
We are from two different circles;
Our worlds have their own identity
And we were just like them, unique

There would come a time
Our circles meet and break the line
That is when we share something
An intersection inside a ring

It seems that our own world forms
When we are together
A union of all we possess
Our hearts intertwine

My world says we are different
And we cannot be in between
They say you cannot be with me
You are a complement of our world

For a short span of time
For that space between us
If our worlds disjoint and separate
I will never be with you again

It started with a smile
A sudden rush of things
No one knew it would be
Ending with a tear

How long will I be
In this misery
Where are those laughs
All that we've shared

It is hard to see now
Those smiles of yours
Fake smiles emerged
Like dead flower blossoms

I remember you once said
"I love the feeling when you smile"
I never thought that it means
"It make me feel so alive"

And he never knew
It also made me feel so alive
A rush of bliss
A little taste of heaven