Every day, every week, every month that passes by we drift farther away from our old normal
The new normal starts to settle and make itself at home
It's over stayed it's unwelcomed arrival.
I ask it politely to leave but His plans dive deeper in and slowly washes over all of mine.
The pain tastes salty as it pours out of my heart
His will be done, not mine
With the wake of the morning, the sun shining in so bright, it forces me to rise, my thoughts flooding right back as soon as I open my eyes
"When will this feel like ages ago", that song plays over for the 30th time. Hoping one day I'll sing along and not cry
The coffee tastes darker, the wind feels cooler, the view where I seek to find Him
The seasons are changing but I'm not ready, each outlet refuses to shine

Yesterday, your voice filled my lungs with air
your sweet laugh at my horrible jokes
makes me feel whole again
I can breathe into Today
Today, your name on my phone makes my heart skip a beat
the day isn't over, but that might be all I get
Tomorrow may be filled with sadness as I search
for the reasons why it has to be this way
Every day is different
Every day is a mystery
I love to hate it and hate to love it