Every future I can see still has you in it,
So why aren't you in my arms?

I am afraid of recovery,
I am afraid of being along,
I am afraid of purging  you from my system,
I am afraid of the two of us never speaking again,
So here I am begging you not to leave things like this,
I am afraid of leaving you behind in my memories,
I am afraid our jokes will disappear,
I am afraid of missing you,
I am afraid of recovery

It wasn't your sharpest knives,
Or mad fighting skills,
That killed me so brutally.

It was the look in your eyes,
And the way your mouth formed the words,
That fell deaf on my ears,
As my heart fractured and fell to pieces:
"I can't do this anymore."

I hear your words
In the howling, screaming wind
Outside my house
And God, the winds are strong tonight.

My heart is torn in two
Over him and over you

He's the standard I'll never reach,
And you're the friend I'll never breach.

Each so unobtainable,
But each can make me smile,

So what am I supposed to do?
But let my heart remain torn for a while.

How long can you
Pretend I dont exist
Until I simply don't?

She dyed her hair
Every time she lost a person,
Her hair has been,
More than 15 colours.