I always thought I was the only one protecting my heart with these walls
But what I saw that thursday made me rethink everything I ever thought of you
For the very first time, you looked vulnurable
like you wanted to hold me
just one last time
knowing that it was the last chance for us to speak up
and simply being honest with each other
But guess what?
We didn't
You just let me walk away from you
knowing that I was moving so far away
I always thought you just used me
while I really felt something for you
It was hard in the beginning
pretending like I just wanted your body
But I was happy with everything you gave me
even if your heart was like a vault
I surrounded my heart with these thick walls
guarding it, protecting it
Because if I ever was to love like I still love you
My heart would be broken
not fixable with glue

It's been a year and a half.
A year and a half trying to figure things out.

Who am I?
What do I want in life?
What does friendship REALLY mean?
What is love?
Am I ready for love?

I think I know who I am today,
What I believe in.
I don't know who I'll be in ten years,
But I will be proud of the person I am right now.

I have NO clue what I want in life.
I want to be surrounded by people I care for.
Those people would be my friends, I suppose.

Friendship to me is being able to be your flawed self.
We all have out flaws, and I wear mine upon my sleave.

Love?
I love my family and friends.
They're the people I would die for.
It's unconditional, never ending and free of judgement.

I'm ready for love.
But I will never give someone the power to ever hurt me again.

These answers can change.
And I'm okay with that.

I've accepted that the dynamics of life can change you,
They define you as a person.