I giggle,
I smile,
I laugh,
but inside I am broken.

I move,
I walk,
I run,
but inside I am frozen

I dream,
I hope
I believe,
but inside I am losing

I frisk,
I jump,
I bounce,
but inside I am falling

I go,
I find,
I open up,
but inside I am lost

I am,
I will,
I do,
but inside I am hiding

What if
... I could turn back time
... I could go forward
... I could change the days
... I could read your mind

What if
... fairytales would come true
... superheroes do excist
... magic was for everyone
... happiness wasn't a bubble

What if
... I could fullfil my dreams
... I wouldn't be too scared
... I didn't lie to myself
... I could get my happy ending.

What if...

See it

Feel it

Be it

Heal it

Say it

Do it

Love it

Four years ago, on this day.
I said goodbye,  I walked away.

I picked up a sunflower and your hat.
A ray of sun I wouldn't forget.

I gave a farewell, a final letter.
Somewhere beautiful, somewhere better.

Remember the countless tears I shed.
You are my hero, you are my dad.

My final words to you, a final kiss.
Till forever I always remember this.

You showed hope, you showed me love.
Dad, I miss you there up above.

So many things I wanted to say to you.
My final words 'Dad, I love you'.

12-7-2012

At the end of the day,
when I lay in your arms

I feel all worries fade away,
When I feel your warmth

Asked you to stay,
Be by my side

I have no other way,
to survive the dark emtpy night.

I hold your hand and I feel safe.

I kiss your lips and I close my eyes.

I see your smile and my heart calms.

I look into your eyes and my worries fade.

I listen to your voices and it's music in my ears.

I love you and I know you feel the same.

I called you my friend.
Would do anything, always.
I called you my friend.
Would care forever, always.

I called you my friend.
Put effort in it all, everything.
I called you my friend.
Put love in it all, everything.

I called you my friend.
Made sacrifices for you, honestly.
I called you my friend.
Believed in you, honestly.

I wasn’t  your friend.
Told me I was fake, into my face.
I wasn’t your friend.
Told me I was lying, into my face.

I wasn’t your friend.
You didn’t put effort in .things, never.
I wasn’t your friend.
You never showed me love, never.

I wasn’t your friend.
Let’s be honest, goodbye.
I wasn’t your friend.
Let’s separate here, goodbye.