Be not trapped between
the great illusions.
Your fear will drive you
to righteous solutions.

Our spirit is above our gender.
Above the ethnicity our souls render.
A dream of type enslaves the mind,
a dream of fear and hate,
we must decline.

The spinning wheel of madness
is spinning out of control..
Believe the lies play your role.
Or..
Learn not to hate and your love will grow.
That's the only spiritual practice we really need to know.

The greatest threat
Is closer now
Than we could
Ever know
Washed in black
Piled and stacked
Better left alone

A watchful eye
Needn't search
The sky
Nor the gutters
Down below
The greater threat
Resides within
Our society as a whole
....

Have you heard about the great democratic power that’s ready to devour? Looming in every ocean and across every sea. Their military bases pepper the globe like a bad dermatologic disease.
Their basal ******* bow and pray, to the illusion of money made, made out of thin air, truth is, there ain’t no money there!
And their army’s are dwindling as a matter of fact, their societies have grown lazy, crazy and fat.. Not many warriors to fill the void. That’s why their war machine is just a ploy… A rue, an illusion through and through.

Change needs
our attention
Love needs
constant retention

Rubber bounces
plasticity bends
Emotional wounds
!we’re meant to mend

Don’t just set there all alone
set your wolf free
let your spirit roam!!

Don’t assume things
Don’t take things personal
All those bad thing from your past
It’s time to let them go!

You are acceptable
here and in the end
even if you don’t believe it
your heart will heal again!

Who is this lower self?
Barbarically weak
Seeker of wealth
While I sleep
He drives me blind
Façades of fears
Thoughts unkind
I grab and hold and tie him down
he has no strength only pronouns
But soon enough I tire
Tempted by this ever present
white liar…

Never give up!

It’s so beautiful to be human
Once compassion purifies
Like a flame that burns much brighter
It feels so good to feel alive

My smile longs to greet
And mend a broken heart
My love it longs to reach
And mend the worlds apart

No mystery to believe in
No invisible quantum ghost
Just the basic simple freedom
The humanity within the host

In our arrogance
We must admit
The disqualifications
Of our wits
The foundation
Of our operative minds
Subjectively trapped
In space and time

A claim to know
A mere belief
Ripened, fallen
Dying leaf
Landing on
The forest floor
There my love
I know no more
.....................

It had been brought to my attention
Such feelings are not our inventions
The hunger is actually what we are
In degree of unconscious decisions
Made with reptilian brain stems
It's a wonder we got this far

Still I want more
More than the hungry poor
More like a hungry lions roar
Posed to pounce
Upon the prey
I would love
To touch
Your pretty face
And share my hungry heart
With you
After all
Aren't you hungry too?

Upon the sea wall the breakwaters pound
She holds my hand my soul is bound
A salty summer breeze,  fresh and alive
Her hair blows wildly across the sky

A beacon buoy dances upon the ocean swells
Anchored to its destiny attempting to rebel
Seagulls attracted by its ringing bell
They take their haven in this beacon’s hell

Her brown eyes scan the horizon then back at me
I don't know what she sees in me
Truth is I hunger to be free; you know, like the sea
Yet like the buoy I could never leave

I start to say, you know our dreams are quite insane
But she quickly covers my mouth, “Shhh, do you want it to rain?
The sun is shining, the sky is blue and I will always love you”
I think to myself, what more could I ever want to hear
Still my heart is somewhere out there

And again the hungry sea calls out to me
Take a chance and come be free
Yet then again, where would I be
But alone upon the hungry sea...

The wars of the gods are fought
In the flesh of humankind
Pawns posed in a posture of divine purpose
Pleading for power, repenting of pride
Prepared to die, an eye for an eye
Upon the battlefield the devil dines
Was this your destiny, or some deity’s design
Wars to be lost, battles to be won
I am the star, the moon, the sun
Will you worship me when you’re done
I am all things, so let’s be clear
Vengeance is mine so make yourself pure
I am the bullet, the crime, the tear
The blood that you spill, the bringer of fear
A deaf ear I turn, a judgment I render
Appease me now for I am the offender
I hold the answers, you wonder why
Belief is a disease and so you will die
Call it a gift, call it a game
I create lust and demand you abstain
This constant collaboration between me and I
We are the truth and therefore we lie

Bite into my apple of immortal desire
Look upon the nakedness of eternal fire
I am Satan, I am god, I am the mystery within the façade

It's

Not

That

Far

Beyond

Human

Comprehension

.............­....

The brighter the light
The darker the shadow
Upon my rusty cage
A vindictive past rattles

Come out, come out
And sell us your soul
The one we condemned
All those years ago

Did you think it was over
Did you think we were through
Did you think you could escape
The inhumane zoo...

The cancer we feed
Western hegemony
A fire out of control
Imperialistic goals
The secret coup
The crippling fall
Forfeiture of resources
Loss of civil law

Do you not see
their master plan?

Suddenly there was a loss of interest,
why do we insist upon gratification.
I suspect we are limited
by our own realities.
We sleep while the dreaming’s good.
Until a force awakens us,
then we sleep walk
through our nightmares.
Until we realize
we were never asleep.
...........

Come home now my precious child
For life is getting older
These dreams for you have faded
The intoxication sobered

Come lie beside me
And rest your weary head
Stress and strife shall slip away
And all those things you dread

The promise of a new world
May appear pretty bleak
Yet your destiny awaits you
And the answers that you seek

Death is but a doorway
So many options open
Our quantum souls return to source
To all we put our hope in

Come home now the voices call
Like a vague yet gentle caress
Easing all our worldly worries
Putting our minds to rest

I get lost in pleasure
The child playing tag
Running and laughing
I beg to make it last

A place in my dreams
Where I was once free
Wet behind the ears
Innocent and green

Why'd I need to know
Why'd I need to learn
Eyes are watching us
Sin and we will burn

Heavy on our hearts
Parasites in our brains
The lies we were tough
We'll never be the same

Oh please come back
Innocence of youth
Storm clouds of lies
Blinding the truth

Tell not the children
Santa Clause tales
Pretending leaves us
Believing in Hell

Running from devils
Demons inside
Please take it back
All of those lies

Return our innocence
The care free happy child
Let us go outside and play
Let us love ourselves  
These last few miles
..................................

I LEARNED TO RUN WHEN I WAS YOUNG
FROM A WORLD OF EVIL, AND THEN SOME
THROUGH WICKED SKIES THAT STAINED THE NIGHT'S
I TORE THE FABRIC TO PEEP THE SIGHT

GATHERING SHADOWS WATCHING ME BLEED
FLASHES OF PHANTOMS WHO LONG TO FEED
WITHIN THOSE NIGHTS MY SIGHT WAS FORMED
WITHIN THOSE NIGHTS MY HEART WAS TORN

Looking without
You can finally feel
Set in judgment
Forget what's real
Take notes of
Several possibilities
Looking without
You'll never be free

Looking within
The traveling soul
I lost my worry
Forgive my foe
Embraced my demons
In changes of love
Looking within
You'll never give up
.......

There is a hell
Beyond your worst
A place where living
Becomes a curse

A restless feeling
Trapped within your gut
When you know your time
Is almost up

Passion dies
In the fear of night
There's no comfort
In the struggle for life

The heart sinks
The mind slips
Even the hand
Can hardly grip

The darkest day of my soul
Shines compared to this lowest low.

There is a hell
Beyond the worst
A place where living
Becomes a curse

A restless feeling
Trapped within your gut
When you know your time
Is almost up

Passion dies
In the fear of night
There's no comfort
In the struggle of life

The heart sinks
The mind slips
Even the hand
Can hardly grip

The darkest day of a soul
Shines compared to this lowest low.

On a path
Few of us knows
Where southern winds
Swiftly blow
Mother earth
Greets the sky
There at her feast
Of these primal beast
The imagination
Becomes alive

There's a whisper of relief
By the skin of our teeth
As stars in the night align
And so comes the truth
We lost in our youth
Happiness Is simply
Sublime

The Angel sighs
Be thankful
And happiness
Will come...

Tall as a ladder
Rungs of the brave
Stood like a Krishna
Words on parade
Angels with messages
Dreams in the sky
Imagine the state
Neural chemical high

It was the cool nights
Glow from the moon
All of the torch lights
Waiting for June
The magic of silence
An itch in an ear
Awaiting the whisper
   Year after year...

Whispering, they point their fingers
They see me looking and quickly look away
As I walk away the gossip lingers
I can just imagine the words they say

I make my way downtown to a crowded bus stop
Stares and looks of disgust I recieve
An old girlfriend who once shared my secrets
   Conveniently forgets her own ***** deeds

I was never really
The man in the trench coat
Supposing to expose my naked shame
I didn’t breathe down phones
I was never out to get ya
Never peeked through your windows
Yet the labels remain...

I was just like you an innocent child
Falling in place, never making waves
Yet if you cross any line, they wont’ let you redeem
They believe such a person can never refrain…

Istanbul  
of friend and foe
Spinning on their dime
Sanctions are all waiting
Legitimacy waning
Hegemony on the line

If only I could empty
The pangs of my mind
Upon these pages
What a mess you'd find
In words of rage
In staggering truths
In broken memories
Of my unsettling youth

Instead I write
In a vague dim light
My heart, it cringes
On a cold dark night
So many things
That are never right
Stuffed deep in despair
Where memories blur
A place where forgiveness
Never gave birth

And there upon the page
The tragedy I label mine
Never again a part of me
The mess I'd leave behind...

Some thing $100000.00
can’t make you happy
if you’ve never
had anything $.00

When the sound of gunfire
Is followed by a stinging bullet
Perhaps we should have done more...

These addictions
My mind says I need
But it’s only what I want
Because I’m bored as can be

Fill this emptiness
My urge is on repeat
Give me some ***, food
alcoholic, drugs
This hunger needs to feed

Who can go without
The rush that they now know
Every time the needle sticks
The world just turns to gold

In between is a living hell
Yet although they don’t seem to mind
They return to the ******* ******
Time after time

And that my friends
Is the condition you’re seeing
When this addictive nature
Hi Jack’s a human being.

Oh blind me now
To the ways of sin
So that I may bind
Myself within
Rip it out
This heart of lust
Take away it's
Conditional trust...

Deafen my senses
To unaware
Cast my shame
Into the air
Ruptured
Drowning
In guilt's despair
Bring on the numbing
Of all my cares
.....
With a bottle of beer!

The oaks and the pines
So lofty and wise
Ever stretching and growing
They reach for the sky

Tender young saplings
Cry out for the light
Only to be shaded
And trampled by night

The whisper of love
In the warm summer breeze
Caressing and kissing
Ever turning the leaves

The creatures seem oblivious
To the coming of dawn
Birds singing optimistically
No need of sad songs

And so we are
In this forest to stay
Predators of might
Yet creatures of prey...

The old wolf
Despite his apathy
Instinctively
Must lead

Unlawful
The weapons
In a time of need

To bring to light
That which
The pack
Does not perceive

The luminous night
Of their ignorance
And deceit

In the gathering
They love to hate
The old wolves howl

Still he leads them
In his confident
Style

One girl wanted me
But I wanted the other
So I chased the other all night
Just to make her my lover

One girl smiled
The other turned away
One girl left
But the other girl stayed

One girl looked
As good as the others
But the other girl had dated
One of my brothers

One girl helped
Chase away my blues
The other girl tried
To run me through

One girl whispered
In my ear
The other girl said
What I wanted to hear

One girl I could proudly
Take home to  mother
But Mother wasn't happy
when I brought home the other

One girl treated me as kind as can be
The other girl always cheated on me

Life would have been so easy
With just that one
But now the other girl is the mother
Of my daughter and sons...

**** it all!

She broke his heart
Forevermore
Burn his bridge
Slammed his door
No returns, not a word
She sealed his heart
With his deserves
He had it coming
His reckless ways
She pays him back
All his days
........

Tunnel vision
The camera eye lens
Blind sighted
The directions
We're in
Manipulation
Of the press
Who's point of view
Do you like best?
What do you
Suffer from less
Social or economical
Unrest?

Blindfolded
But never blind
The one percent
Are on my mind
...

Rivers of love flow from her letters
I bathe in her words such beautiful weather
All that I am and all that’s to come
I promise her love, my living life sum

She appeals to my senses like a basket of flowers
Love raining down like a gentle spring shower
A star in the night just south of the sky
A stairway to Eden in her sparkling eyes

The sweetness of honey, the dew of the mist
The warmth of the noon sun found in her kiss
She’s an early spring thaw, she’s a midsummer night
She’s a fresh autumn breeze and a wintry delight

To the innocent she’s a princess who guides and protects
To the broken she’s a maid who cleans up the mess
To the fallen she’s an angel forgiving all sins
Her mercy is proven, her compassion no end

She’s all of these things and so much more
She’s obviously the one that I adore...

Within the coming moons
While the universe parades
The stars which were once in line
Shall all become misplaced

Leading to the transfer
Of heart and soul to mind
The universe we know
Shall no longer leave us blind

The rapture of our being
Free to open wide
No more in between
No more other side

All the multiverses
Converging into one
All a sudden knowing
Where we all come from

Yet perhaps endless knowing
Is more than just a drag
And that's why over and over
We all keep coming back
.......

Theories of existence
We carry to the grave
Where the laws of the living
Are left in dismay

Our limited state of knowing
Is purely subjective at best
The ultimate may never be known
A theory so many detest

Fortunately logic dictates
It’s all the way up
And all the way down
Entropy has two arrows
These quantum theories
Do confound…

Am I a poet or a writer
Am I a wise man or a fool
The answer is all of the above
Yes it feels good to be popular
But what glory is there in hiding
The vastness of our other mindsets
I feel more than empathy
I feel pain, anger, resentment
I am happiness and sadness
Wrapped in one mind and so much more
My writings are different parts of who I am
My legacy of writings
Beautiful, messy, vague
****** up or strangely weird
As they seem
Are parts
Of the whole me
The real me...

Before any season
Had a chance to bloom
Or any star could set
The proper mood
The universe
Stretched and yawned
And then resumed
Leaving me with
An assumption
That I would have
Never assumed

It seems from the beginning
World peace was doomed...

Rabid dog attempts to bite
Rodent wakes me in the night
Pain lays dormant in my veins
Too much living leaves a stain
Bottomless, this pit in which I fall
Shadows that crawl upon my walls
I was whole, now I'm half
The sands of time are falling fast

Oh but if I were young again
In a time before that knew no end
And you were young with eyes still blue
In the flames of passion we once knew
To burn forever in a magical bliss
To embrace the eternal one last kiss
How could love have fallen behind
Replaced with feeble forgotten mind

Now this rabid hound latches on
To a night that's lasted far too long
My blanket now worn ever so thin
A chill of forgotten regretful wind
Blows cold into my restless dreams
Oh what misery life can bring ...

Rabid dog attempts to bite
Rodent wakes me in the night
Pain lays dormant in my veins
Too much living leaves a stain
Bottomless, this pit in which I fall
Shadows crawl upon my walls
I was whole, now I'm half
The sands of time are falling fast

Oh but if I were young again
In a time before that knew no end
And you were there with eyes still blue
In flames of magic we once knew
To burn forever in passion's bliss
To embrace the eternal one last kiss
How could love have fallen behind
Replaced with feeble forgotten mind

Now this rabid hound latches on
To a night that's lasted far too long
My blanket has worn ever so thin
A chill of forgotten regretful wind
Blown cold into my restless dreams
Oh what misery life can bring ...

I have a plan.
I haven’t made it yet
but I plan on making a plan.
So that’s the plan…

I watch in silence as the children play
Innocent games like tag and keep-away
Pushing and shoving, the weakest child falls
And the playground monitors see nothing at all

A big boy teasing pulls a little girl’s hair
We feel for the girl so let the bullies beware
But what about empathy for the boy and his deed
Abuse and neglect is the home life he leads

But all I can do is stand here in silence
Condemned to a world of hatred and violence
For the crimes I committed before I could see
The ways that the playground had taught me to be...

My ego tried to impress me
But the fact is, I’m losing ground
When I wrestled with my Demons
God is nowhere to be found

My RNA is failing
In a  blemished tarnished blur
My eyes are getting tired and
I’m searching for my words

My dreams are but exhausted
I’ve lived and lied and loved
I took the devil by his horns
I never did give up!

What sound did I make
What word did I leave out
If I’ve said my all
Where is my curtain call

Now
My dressing room is bear
The end was somewhere in there.

If I were to attempt to communicate
in a language I seldom engage.
Beyond the thesaurus that my puny mind retains.
Who would interpret the hesitation of my contagious intellect.
Surely you would perceive
my thought patterns are not
conducive to the stimulus.
The Muse of college grammar
scarcely entertains.
The words of a true poet are developmentally ingrained!

The poet’s shadow
is exposed
page after page
a ranting rave
of confronted truths
trending lies
our poetic shadow is our guide..

The opus of our secret love
desires dance beyond our dreams
where the shadow shines it’s lust
hear the victims victorious scream..

Fear not the shadow
embrace the bad we have done
and the bad we will do
to integrate our shadow
is to grow leap and bounds
when we finally break through
……..

I find my beliefs
Are mostly inline
With the far LEFT
But you know
Every once in a while
I agree with the RIGHT
In fact fear dictates
I wish I had a hand gun tonight

Must I represent
The evil in this world
My empathy engulfs
Every soul that toils
To be accepted
With due respect
I would give my love
And my life

Sure I am of the pigment white
My ancestors aimlessly struggled
But couldn't put things right
Because they lacked
Humanitarianism
Something in their bible
“No offence” talk about schism
A map that embraced human slavory-ism
And so...
I consider thinking left
As an evolutionary state
A way to clean the slate!

(Creative Thinking)

The problem

Isn't in the truth we know

The problem

Is that we think we know the truth
..........

Quickly glancing
Towards the clock
How much time
Before I'm not
So much more
To be done
Frantically
Running
Towards
The Sun

Finish line
Just ahead
Fires
Burning
Green and red
What is
This big hurry
To be dead?

If I attempted to expose
My many dysfunctions
With words that simply rhymed
My heart would surely ache
As I committed to relate
The faults in my weary mind
What I'm really trying to say
Between these lines is where I fade
And so I survive another day!