Danial John: Poems

Feb 2018 · 411

Danial John Feb 2018

I am happy.
No, really, I am.
How can one not be when life is so full of beautiful distractions?
The plants and flowers.
The trees and bushes.
The people with their smiles.
Its all just so magical.
Joy creeps through my veins.
My face is flush with ecstasy.
I can truly take in the worlds many lovely little things
when my lungs are full of love.
Who doesn't enjoy the mind-numbing radiance that seems to exude from life?

Now...
if only it could last.

Unfortunately it can't.

So now what must be done
is scrounge enough cash for another sack.

D.A.R.E

Drugs Are Really Expensive

They'll cost you your happiness, sanity, security, family, friends,
and most importantly...
Your money.

Doesn't rhyme

#happy #drugs #love #life #money #dare #expensive #price #cost #empty

Feb 2018 · 235

My Manifesto

Danial John Feb 2018

My Manifesto

Let this be my official declaration.
I
am
done.
Done with joy, love, happiness and all of that
FAKE ****.
If I go on pretending there's absolutely no way I'll make it.

The only things
that I seem to understand are hate, jealousy, and fear.
In all my time
they are the only things that have always been here.

I
MUST
rip the mask from my face.
Otherwise I will never be done running this race.
Its truly a disgrace.

I sleep with a
GUN
next to my bed.
Not for my own protection
but so I might work up the courage
to shoot my self in the
head.

**** ME
**** LIFE
**** DEATH

and
if
you're
reading
this
then
****
YOU
TOO.

**** notes

#life #death #suicide #**** #you #hate #poetry #guns #eyes #mask

Feb 2018 · 350

The demon

Danial John Feb 2018

The demon

There's a demon in my house.
Nobody knows the route it took to be... but there are theories.

Some believe that it fills the gaps in broken families,
Others that its welcomed in by misfortune and tragedy.

And I?
I think it has been here all along.

At first, its hard to notice the demon is even there.
Once where joy resided, only a dull ache is felt.
But before long it spreads until one is beside it.
Next to the demon.
The world begins to fade into a illusionary grey haze.

So
so
slowly.

Infact, by the time you realize its been living with you... in you... its been days.
Your chest is as hollow as the now empty packs and bottles
that you think may solve this sorrow.

But you're wrong.

Once it is let in,
there
is
no
exercising....
this demon named depression.

*******

#**** #you #depression #life #family #questions #vices #demons #hate #grey

Feb 2018 · 343

I remember because I cannot forget

Danial John Feb 2018

I remember because I cannot forget

When I was young

I sold my soul to the devil.

I asked to become an Atlas.

Now I wait... wondering
Did the clandestine transaction work?
Or has all my suffering been in vain?
Have I managed to reduce the pain?
Should I have repent first?
I was filled with hate... blundering

and filled with passion.

Now in sorrow I must revel

Left to question what I have done.

Hindsight is always 20/20

#mistakes #devil #atlas #hate #regret #love #deal #family #snakes #chains

Feb 2018 · 366

So what?

Danial John Feb 2018

So what?

If I want to die
                           So what?
If my beliefs are just complex lies
                           So what?
If my friends don't exist
                           So what?
If there's temptations I can't resist
                           So what?
If the broke stay broke and the rich get richer
                           So what?
If I can be reduced to 140 characters and a picture
                           So what?
If my faults are my own and not scars gained from the places I've grown
                           So what?
If I'm cold and alone, impaled on a fork in the road
                           So what?
If reality is meaningless and godly morality is diseasing us
                           So what?
If the good die young and the evil get to continue on
                           So what?
If the world is a beautiful place and the problem is the human race
                           So what?
If this poem rubs you the wrong way and you vow to make the unjust pay
                           So what?
If you feel like I am wrong or I went on to long
                           So what?
                      So what now?
                  So what do we do?
                So what is the point?
                 So what about you?

I wrote this, so what.

#so #what #pointless #depression #problems #world #rhymes #words #love #hate

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