I push everyone away
Praying somebody would stay
My logic more ****** up
Than my entire existence.
I'd never want you to let go
Yet I'll do everything I can
To try to shake you off
And drive you running
Light-years away from me
Because sweetheart I'm broken
Not just bent
I'm nothing but empty space
Hallow through and through
Because I'm not just heartless
I'm scarred beyond recognition
My ghosts haunting alleys
I could never show to you
...
It's not that I don't believe in love
For I have an abundance of it to give
It's just that I don't have anyone to give it to
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(Some of the closest people to me once told me I was a cynical romantic and I guess I didn't understand it until just now...).
(Beginning of another long-winded 'rant' from RH that really makes me think I judged her wrong in some ways. The note at the bottom was her last sentence in her last journal entry I just finished reading and it has been a roller coaster of emotions so Happy Writing and Enjoy!~ BM)