Crying,
Over the bathroom scale because I think the numbers are taunting
Smiling,
Because if people actually saw how I was feeling they'd avoid me.
Hurting,
Because I'd rather bottle it up than tell anyone
Dying,
Because not eating is more appealing than being happy.

I feel it
I hate it
I can stop it. I can eat.
Food tastes guilty.
I lie,
I starve.
I hide the fact that I'm hungry,
But I'm not going to eat.
Not yet.
Not until I've taken control

You are
Paralyzed,
Dreaming,
Resting,
Resetting,
And Calm.

While I am here all alone,
Waiting for the next day,
For the past to fade.
But it all blurs together
When there was never,
Right hours to reset my mind.

They lost themselves.

Buried within their own lies,
They lie awake at night
Dreaming of what it might be like
To relight, the candle
which once lit up their eyes.

They are alone,
With no one to hold.

My heart,
torn to pieces by the love you never had for me .
My thoughts,
overcome with the someone who can't understand,
this burning feeling in my chest,
this unrequited love that won't let me rest.

And yet...
I'd rather live this way,
and keep you close
Then tell you,
and lose you forever.

I gave them the words
that I never thought I'd see.
The ones I wish were said
in my time of need.

Now you have them.
and I'm glad you made use,
of the things I could never have,
but gave to you
when I needed you to,
give them to me.

You crushed my heart
with your beautiful soul