Depression to me feels like a heavy weight on my head and heart.
Always there and hard to ignore.
I wish I could push it away,
but who am I without it.

Lost most of my friends,
most of the trust,
nearly all of myself.

Depression is a black hole that takes everything away from me.

Spring break is...
going out
partying
and having fun with others
But all I do is...
sleep
over think
study
and be alone

An invisible,
unattainable,
unfathomable feeling.
I wish to have it
I wish to give it,
but sadly I cannot find it

They don't believe me.
They don't trust me.
They don't listen.
They think that it's all in my head...
and even if it is,
they're not feeling what I feel.
They don't know,
so how could they possibly help.

I'm sick of waiting
I'm sick of falling,
I'm breaking
I'm tired,
but I can't sleep.

You're breaking me
while I'm falling for you.
I'm just waiting for you to notice,
the pain that you've put me through.

For the first time I noticed,
that I am not the only one.

For the first time I saw,
that they knew how I felt.

For the first time I felt,
how hard confrontation is.

For the first time I saw,
how what I did hurt them.

I tried to fight back,
but the demons took over
and now I feel lost