Taking sips
Wating at least a min before each
Because the *** is so strong
The leftover liquid burns my mouth
Drinking to try and forget you
Smoking to try and forget you
But oddly enough these only make me
Miss you more
Want you more
Crave you more
I don't know how to stop

The leaves lost their luster
The grass burnt out dry
The flowers attempted to cluster
And the skies face went wry

The clouds turned to grey
The birds lost their voice
The night enveloped the day
To which it gave in without a choice

Crows cackled and flew about
Sinfully eager for this date
Innocent shrieks were viewed as touts
All known as mans destructive fate

My poems for you ****
I can't write how I feel
I mean I know I can
But **** doesn't sound real
It's funny 'cuz in my head
I know just how it goes
But once I spit it on paper
My thoughts just don't flow
If we were in person
It'd be easier to show you
Because I don't need to think
My body knows just what to do

I feel like I'm hearing the world very peacefully and delicately. Like everything is so
Little and fragile but I hear it all at once like god does when we all pray
I compared our life's to the snowfall. In the beginning we are all the starting snow and we are young and new then we become older and older until we are the bottom snow and die and then spread and then they recycling and starting over aka the new generation being born

It feels like a sin
To crave you this much
It comes from deep in
Beyond where'd you touch
It hides in my bones
And creeps in my heart
It takes me to zones
I don't know where to start
Your presence is a mess
But something's clear
The tug in my chest
Means I need you here

The first time we kissed you tasted of cigarettes
The last time we kissed I didn't know it would be the last time
And here I am a chain smoker trying to relive the feeling I got
And you wonder why I'm addicted

I'm sitting here and I'm crying
All night long
Being forced to write these stupid songs
As if they help us move along

No you're wrong
So wrong

You expect to me just get over you
As if you weren't my whole world
You think I can just be whole again
Well I'm not that strong of a girl

No I'm a human being
Whose breaking down
My chest is open
I'm on ground

My knees are discolored and bruised
My eyes are red
And I wish I was dead
Because I don't wanna live without you