Tell me when to wake
for if I could choose then I
would sleep forever

A hole in my head
I can’t think.
A hole in my heart
I can’t feel.
A hole in my stomach
I can’t eat.
My body is full of big, empty holes.
Am I going to disappear?

They asked me this question in class one day

"What do you want to be remembered by?"

I wrote down the answer of what they wanted to hear

But to be honest

I just want to be forgotten
So no one has to hurt when I say
goodbye

Cool
Calm
Blue
I always liked blue.
It’s strangely comforting
To see a color
That feels like you do
Bright
Happy
Yellow
I never liked yellow.
It hurts
To see a color
That feels like you wish you do

Then
I met you
You made me something I never thought I could be
Bright
Happy
You’ve always liked yellow.
Now
I see sunflowers
I think of you

A perfect blossom
frozen from a sudden chill
beauty encapsulated