When she looks at me
I hope she sees
Unconditional love

Not selfishness
Broken trust
And unfulfilled promises

I hope someday she understands
I did this for her
Not for me

The feeling of being alone still haunts
My mind
First time I saw you still excites
My heart

I can still see your beauty with
My eyes
Your skin I can still feel with
My hand

The moment you said yes
Time stood still
As my arms wrapped around you
I felt safe

For the first time I could feel
Real love
For the first time my body didn't
Feel abused

The only time I couldn't feel my abusers
Touching me
All I could feel was myself
Inside you

Finally I felt my heart beat
With yours
Finally my mind was free
From pain

Never would I have believed
Et tu brute
Now another looks in
Your eyes

As upon the pillow my
Blood spills
And in the final
Night

My body screams for the shelter
Of your arms
My ears scream for
Your voice

But you aren't there
Are you
You left me alone and
To die

Your wish shall finally
Come true
Your desires have
Shown through

I meant nothing
To you
I was only shelter and money in
Your pocket

Now watch as my friends
Line up
To only see my face in
Their dreams

Now you can watch as
They carry me away
Alive or dead
I am worthless

For you took
My heart
And my soul died
That day

she got home late that night. that same night you broke her. she lay in her bed with her eyes overflowing with tears thinking of all of the damage you had caused her. her heart broke as she saw you with that girl. she knew that she would never be anything like her. her heart broke as she thought of the lies you told her. her most favourite lie she heard from you was "I love you". she knew you didn't mean it when you said it but it still made her happy. she saw that you were "online". but not for her. she wanted to try her best to forget everything about you. your name. your mother's favourite song. your scent. your voice. those hugs and kisses. she drank a whole bottle of ***** trying to forget your name, but the only name she forgot was hers.

when a poet falls in love with you
you can never die
they will notice the way
you rub your palms and look down
when someone is angry at you
and the way you smirk
as you pull away from a kiss

they will notice how you can't sleep
without your body touching someone else's
how you never crease any pages of books
and how you close your eyes when you dance in your kitchen
with your record player on

they will find all of the words
that they see you as
and turn them into something beautiful

people say you die twice
once when you stop breathing
and when someone says your name
for the last time

if you fall in love with a poet
they will never stop
mentioning your name
you will be alive
for eternity

He kissed me
and pulled away
and his cheeks were damp,
when he asked me why
I told him
"I don't cry, I never have,
and I wouldn't cry in front of you.
But everything feels
a little too sharp today,
so if you wanna hold me longer than usual,
that's fine."
If we're being honest,
none of this happened.
I'm in bed pretending my loneliness doesn't have a face.
I'm trying to sleep
but I'm unraveling into your hands.
There's blood,
everywhere,
I can't tell if it's mine or everyone else's.
My vision is red,
my skin is red,
and I thought that wanting someone
so much that it hurts
was a cliche
until I felt this literal ache in my ribs.