Throat hurts from the smoke
These thoughts provoked
I feel it breaking
My life disrupted
I promised myself otherwise
Do you know how to read?
This label reads fragile

I'm feeling impulsive
Anything to run away
You want to be reckless
Such a harsh thing to say

Canyons
Full of empathy
Roads
Leading to destiny
Fields
To run
My racing mind
Nothing
Full of wasted time

Thanks for your concern
I'm doing just fine
Putting back together
This heart of mine
I've been self sufficient
As long as I can remember
A windmill creating my lifestyle
Holding on to feelings in amber

The salesman with a sales pitch
Love on the table, made a switch
I become the enemy
Swarming in for a remedy
No time for the vague
I fly much higher
On top of your game
A predator
you can't commit
you're unfit
and it's sick
how proudly to admit
faults makes you humble
throw yourself down
Take a stumble
lay on the ground
you're under arrest
I can't contest why

I miss being yours
You seem like the person
Where when I say I'm hurt
You say “good”, and move along
But I'm addicted
To the thought of changing your mind
Rather than accepting what I cannot change
I find myself down a familiar path
Of holding on to the past
The amazing memories
The happiest I've ever been
For it all to just be ripped away from me
Again

I am broken
Needing glue
Split in two

I am broken
A flickering light
Turned just right

I am broken
I've made a mess
A game of chess

I am broken
By a silent past
It creeps in fast

I am broken
Love is scarred
Falling hard

I am not broken
Something new
I was awoken
I met you

Afraid of what I think is there
Feeling suffocated by air
Acting out when things don't feel right
This is my fight or flight
Losing control
Grasping whatever I can
I hate this was caused
Just by one man
Unexpected reactions
Full circle disfunction
Stop the cycle please
PTSD

Go ahead deflect
Redirect
When I'm breathing down your neck
I won't stop
I give it all I got
Always until the end
Cause you'll never be my friend

Apple cider vinegar
Will clean anything
Maybe it will work
When I need to erase you
I'll wash myself and strip your scent
Maybe if I drink it
I can clean my thoughts too
You're a clever parasite
And I'm just a fool

You're consistent
And my teenage dream
But here I am
No longer seventeen
Our love is real
But don't ask how I feel
I always want what I can't have
And I can have you so easily

Wondering around
Until you're free
I am a victim
Of fortunate encounters
And now I'm just wasting time
Until I see you again

One day I'll wake up
The reality will hit me
For now I'll stay naive
That someone could love me

I've watched the pieces fall apart
Then burn with intention
You're so different from that
Pure magnetism

Empathetic girl
Molded by her environment
Living two lives
One free
An escape from reality
One a war zone
A constant reminder
Of who she doesn't want to be

Eyes
The spotlight on me
Nose
The chain between
Lips
The door that never locks
Neck
The ignition
Chest
Bare with intention
Arms
The bandage
Hands
The leader of the pack
Feet
Walking away from me
Heart
Something I'll never meet

Hiding in my shell
Waiting for something real
Thanks for being here
Want to strike a deal
But I wouldn't dare
I'm afraid to bare
My scars from the past
Because I like to run fast

There's a balance
But I can't keep the pace
Every time I show myself
I still cover my face

My intentions
Make me arrogant
Your needs
Make you so eloquent

There's a balance
But too much appeal
Projecting my needs
Making none of it real

Words we speak are not our own
Repeated arrangements
Created to make thoughts known
True meaning left behind
Authenticity
Genuine words lost in time
Ignore signs thrown
I'm immune to the let down

Want to be left alone

I'm starving to feel better
Aftermath of stormy weather
When you left you ran
I'm doing what I can
I'll never apologize
For feeling so deeply
You wear a disguise
So perfectly
It's hard not to fall so steeply
You warned me
You weren't a real man
A boy in sheep's clothing
Keeping love on ban

Filling in spaces
With attachment
Mild phases
Of abandonment
Wanting love
For myself
Instead I should
Just love myself