Alone and cold.
I do it myself.
Others try and get close,
They just wanna help.
But this emptiness inside my chest is breaking me down,
Tightening my throat,
Making me drown.
I'm sorry for the depression;
I'm just so cold.

Another night in my car thinking.
It's freezing outside,
My body keeps shaking.
On the verge of tears,
I'm doing my best to keep quite.
Only thought on my mind is them.
"Please keep having fun,
smile, laugh,
The night is young.
I'm out here so I won't bring you down,
I'm trying my best to not make
A sound"

This is safety,
Not my home.
Turn the lights out
As you go.
Let me sleep.
Just let me sleep.

Just me and a blanket
All alone
Will I wake up?
Nobody knows.
Let me sleep.
Please just let me sleep.

I've spent too much time
Waiting on my phone.
Truth be told
I am on my own.
So let me sleep.
I think I'll just sleep.

I dont have a reason
To keep fighting.
Whatever happens
I dont think I'll mind it.
As long as I sleep.
I'm just gonna sleep.

I'm still around
For when im needed.
Obviously I'm not,
I finally believe it.
I need to sleep.
Don't wake me from this sleep.

Hey Mom,
I'm sorry for not being
your happy little boy.
I'm sorry I couldn't grow up
to be happy like you wanted me to be.
You were perfect.
I love you.

Hey Dad,
I know I avoided you these past few years.
I don't regret it.
I hope to see you again though.
Only in hell.
I hate you.

Hey friends,
I know you tried so hard for me.
I'm sorry I was pointless.
I never really had a chance.
I was always the ****-up I am.
You know this.
I'm sorry.

Hey Dear,
I'm sorry for all the guilt I've caused.
I'm sorry for always being your little problem, the one you could never get rid of.
I always wanted to see you happy.
All I did was cause the opposite.
I wish I was someone else.
Forgive me.

All my little notes I leave.
I still hope no one will miss me

No, I'm not fine.
Please stop asking.

No, I'm not lying.
Please stop crying.

No, I am caring.
Please stop judging.

Yes, I do still cut.
Please stop searching for them.

Yes, I do still try to hide the pain.
Please stop thinking I'm weak.

Yes, I am still breathing.
Please stop reminding me.

I still do many things I shouldn't.
I'm sorry.
Please leave, everyone is better
without me.

Think back to when
We could laugh,
breath and grin
I still see it
Now and then
When I look into your eyes.

Remember how
We would be
Life was great,
And so were we
Now I have a hollow heart.
When I look into your eyes.

Can you recall
My biggest fear?
I'm always alone
You're not here.
I have to hold back my tears
When I look into your eyes.

Please forgive me
I've tried
I am a sinner
I've lied.
I still wish I could die
When I look into your eyes.

I am not a man
You see.
I'm a coward,
Not he.
Forget me when I leave
I will remember your eyes

I have never been able to see the hints
I'm sorry I'm not smarter
Sad stories seem better then happy lies
I'm sorry I turned darker
And I know these little poems are a tad ******
I'm sorry, I'm just want to make you happy

I'm sorry it never helped

My voice just seems to bring people down, I'm sorry
Maybe I should not be around, I'm sorry.
I cry out words but never make a sound, I'm sorry
I'll fake a smile at you and all those around, I'm sorry

I'm sorry nothing ever worked

All I ever tried to do
Was show that I'm no good for you.
Well im a liar, I'm sorry.
We should of tried, just possibly
It could have been the best of times.
Only truth, no more lies.

I'm sorry

Maybe sometime.
Dinner and red wine.
I know now's not good
But I want you, maybe we could.
But for now just know that
I'm sorry

Give up the fight
Everyday, every night
The voices tell you to run to heights and
Jump.
Tell them to shut up
You're already a **** up

You can't feel your heart anym
It stopped beating.
Realize how badly you lost the war
You stopped meaning.
Sleep, cause you find some bliss
from nightmares in a sea of ignorance

Who am I to complain?
I'm always the starting my own pain.
A few cuts here, maybe punch that wall.
Run around for an hour, hopefully. fall
Dead

I'll never put the blame on another
Loving friends, supporting mother
Yet I feel so ******* alone all the time.
I say I like it, another lie
but who could keep up with how many I've made?
I'm not trying to be saved.
I give up
I surrender to the pain.
Maybe in the end suicide isn't the only gain.