Sewn into the sky
Patterns of fire and light
Singing of new life

with shaking fingers my grip
slackens from the steering wheel

mind free of all cares
heart bursting with joy

the car moves forward
answering my desire

taking me somewhere
anywhere but here

pain unfurls in my chest
a reminder of loss
that will
never
go
away
even when forgotten
forever branded into my mind
eternally scarred into my heart

The beast watches from afar
yet close enough for me to sense its presence
like a cat watching a mouse
a predator closing in on its prey

It whispers into my ear
taunting me with  fears and doubts
while I can only listen
and act like nothing is wrong

It disappears for a while
as I strengthen and lull into false security
until it strikes once more
with its harsh words and painful accuracy

I can't run from the beast
because no matter where I go
it always finds me
and reminds me just how broken I truly am

What do you do,
when the path ahead,
is filled with thorns,
and may never lead anywhere?

What do you do,
when all that is behind,
is a gaping hole,
the abyss called despair?

Do you move forward,
and hope for the best?
Believe a false hope,
that may only end with darkness?

Or do you give up?
Let yourself fall,
and be engulfed completely,
by the empty never-ending hopelessness?

But then isn't it better,
to have hope,
even if the journey is harsh and not easy,
even when the ending unknown?

Even if the results may be unkind,
and the aftermath painful.
Isn't that better than to be left in the sadness,
cold, alone, and hollow

is it wrong of me to
wish for rain
without a rainbow?

with every splatter of
forgotten tears my hope
for colors dissipates

i know it hurts
the pain, the scars
i know

i can see it
in your eyes
clear as day

but you should know-
no, you need
to know

how much i
understand
that pain

the pain
to live knowing
the scars never heal

i know it
i understand it
i live it

and you will too
but not alone
not like this

i'm here
i'll always be here
for you

i'll wipe
your tears
when they fall

i'll listen
to the fears
you hide

because
you're not
alone

we're here
together
and that's fine