some days I'm awake
Others I'm asleep
Try to relive the moment
But unfortunately I'm too weak

Asleep last for months
Painful and dark
Treading like a ghost in chains
I can't get very far

Blood is red
And as warm as humidity
Sticky and dead
There is no serenity

Being awake
Is no better than asleep
For that's when /they/ come
The voices that scream

Plenty of energy
But nothing to do
Seeing a door open
Yet no one comes through

Feeling as if
Someone's touching your spine
But you blink and realize
It was only your mind

These are the tortures
Of awake and asleep
Flipping back and forth
As my sanity leaks

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I have this dark thought,
Deep,
Down inside.
I tell no one,
Hoping it will get better,
But it doesn't,
It only gets worse.
The more I push it away,
The darker it gets,
The more realistic it becomes.
I made it one of my options,
A very possible option.
I think about it every day,
But I can never actually do it,
No matter how bad I want to.
I promised myself,
I would stay here for you.

I saw myself in the mirror flat
The river as calm as how I wish my mind was
And the trees hung there leaves so dark and sad
That I forgot where the sky was

Confusion swept over me like a warm blanket
Darkness came like a calm storm
And made me the only way I can't take it
Crept so quietly I didn't hear the door

Suffocation loves the lost
Pain loves the drowning
Lonliness loves the broken
And time keep cutting

Under the shadows I saw my reflection
Over the mud i saw my mind
I saw a path with no redemption
I saw escape with no sign

The bitter sweet taste of being alone
Solitude or confinement?
And where ever I am it doesn't feel like home
Lost in the dark where the rain is sent

Begins in light
Dimmer and dimmer
Ends in death
Farther and farther

Into the ground

******* cutting up my skin.
In only places I can see.
Never ******* meant a thing.
No not to anyone.
I'm just tossed around.
Thrown sky high only to hit the ground.
One two three.
All blody lines on me.
Can I just take one to my neck?
Get it all over with.
Wash the blood from my hands
Dress me nice.
I made the ultimate sacrifice.
I took myself away.
So you can have a worry free life.
You never needed me.
Until that day.
Imma just ******* cut!!!
Bleeding.