I guess this is it
I guess this is goodbye
I won't cry and you shouldn't either
Stay healthy, be strong
Don't let anyone put you down
It was nice what be had
I was hoping it will last
But now the end has come
Be part from each other
Be strong my dear friend
One day we will meet again
But for now...
GOODBYEg

She is a girl. I bet if you saw her you would see a very happy child, a girl with two loving parents. A bright smile that lights the hearts of who see it. Others a rude girl who doesn't talk much and stick her nose on things that are not her business. But what most of you don't see is inside of her  she is fighting. Fighting tears, silent screams for help. Fighting to be notice for who she is and not for what she looks. Most of you don't see in order for her to smile so brightly, she had to practice that smile every night in front of her mirror. That her family is not at all a happy one. That every night she hides in her room, covers her ear so she can't hear her parents fight. That when she ask you how are you or how was your day, is because she is really worried about you. That she keeps her distance cuz she is afraid of getting hurt again. And yet some of you jude her. Whitout even knowing her story

You asked me once. Why do you always smile? Are you always that happy. No I'm not always happy sometimes i just want the world to fall on top of me. But when i smile it helps me. Is like the pain I'm feeling hurts less. Thats why i smile it help me endure the pain

She hides her feelings.
If you ask her how is she?
She will smile and tell you she's fine.
Lies all of it. Its her biggest fat lie
She hides from the world.
She pushes  people away cuz she is
afraid to be hurt.
She loves but she is afraid to show it.
She is lost
She is me

It hurts, it hurts so bad. but what can I do? The solution is not to lock myself in my room and cry forever.I did not want that to happen, but it happened. In my heart I believed that everything would be ok. so silly i know

Those hours is when we question, after seeing lots of dreams not coming true, What I believe is true? this dream I have,will it happen?

In my mind the answer is always yes, but this kind of questions always come to my mind.

This very end \ Start of the year has been difficult. Especially today. - And my eyes fill with tears again, after hours of crying - but  what can I do? That is life.

It’s just because I thought God would not let that happen because it was important to me. Has He abandoned me? I really can't say my mind os a blur.

But for today, All I know is :it hurts , It shall pass, but it hurts.