It didn't hurt when you drove the dagger into my heart.

Only did it hurt when you left me to pull it out by myself.

when i was lost

you taught the trees

to speak

so they could guide me

until

the sun

came up

I want to tell you,
Everything,
But I'll never,
Get the chance,
Because,
When I see you,
(Almost never),
The words catch,
In my throat,
My hands,
Won't stop shaking,
And when I look at you,
Your eyes burn me,
Alive.

lately, death is always on mind
and not in the sense
that i think about killing myself
or have lost anyone
but since you've been gone
you might as well have left
with the others
whose time has ran out
because it feels like you left
to rest forever  
and a piece of me went with you
and i'm so tired of this longing
this sadness
missing you
when you aren't dead
only missing from me

"... had an early lunch."
"... already ate... not hungry."
My daily white lies.

One hundred pounds. Most
Teenage girls' dream size, but the
Weight of my nightmares.

"... eating disorder..."
The last words I hear before
My head hits the ground.

I don't even feel
it anymore. My body
Got used to starving.

A penny for each
Meal I've thrown out could buy me
Another water.

Work out until your
Size is small as your daily
Calorie intake.

"You're far too skinny"
They don't see the fat girl that
Lives in my mirror.

- p. winter