I'm constantly
walking into blades
like I'm walking
through fields of flowers

exposed
those knives fit easily
in my glass heart

I sought the stars
with wild, hopeful dreams
to only come up short
& break the cheshire moon

My childlike heart
now beats with  a cynical clink
& the sky is barren
where light once shown

jilted, tilted, scorned
reckless laughter flows from my lips

hollow & cold,
I find the vapid touch
of a longtime lover
to be my only friend

death has come knocking
twice today
& I've tried to answer both times

you will be forever missed

wither, blither, blister, peel
you can't tell me how it feels

to want you
to need you
to almost reach you

just to have that star
snatched from my sky
just to have that glimmer
dashed from my eye

it's a long way from heaven

Trace your finger down my spine,
copy my bones,
memorize their brittle notches,
remember the breath under them swells for you.

I loved you in my dreams,
but my life has other plans.

pushed to the edge
I met the swords blade
with a devilish grin

I am not afraid

walking in such blind denial
while living in glorious beauty

I yearn to push back the curtain
to expose the deadly truth