If I'm only something that's in your way.
I'll leave

Beetlejuice
bEEtlEjUIcE
BEETLEJUICE

If you could let me in?
Not just in your mind,
But in your heart?
That would be enough.

Waking up from a dream
not knowing if I'm really awake
Am I remembering a memory?
or is this thing inside my head a dream?

Days go by and I don't know
memories are overflowed by dreams
I look around and wonder
What if this was real?

I still feel the anger of the fight I had 7 months ago.
I laugh at it now, even though I probably shouldn't.

That's what I see
When I see you
Us up on a hill
Touching the moon

That's what I see
When I look at the sky
A fiery light that I'll
Find in your eyes

You aren't mine
You are your own
But that doesn't stop me
From calling you darling
In my mind
Because in my mind
You are always my love
You're my dearest
My sweetheart
The loveliest one
And I'll knit you a scarf
With all of my heart
I'll call you at night
And stare at the stars
Someday I'll see you
Even if it hurts
Because loving you is a choice
I will always make

I wanted to write a goed poem,
But words don't always work in the way you expect them to.

So, here's another thing I've written to you. I've filled pages and pages, and, I kept a record. It's calles: "All the things I wanted to tell you, but never did." Usually, I call it "All and more." I just read one of 'em back. And I still can't explain the anger I felt. "3 months you've been posessing my mind." I still feel the anger from when I wrote that down. I was so mad. Not at you, but at myself. At the world. For letting me feel this way, and allowing myself to feel this. I used to think you were just a wave of lurid inspiration. But you weren't. You weren't just a wave, you were the entire ocean. And everyone knows how beautiful the ocean is.

I have so many tests to study for,
Yet I'm sitting here, wishing to die.
I have so many things to do,
But all I do is mentally cry.