I write poetry to forget you. Hoping with every clever word phrase, you'll find your way out of my memory.
I just want you to know, betwixt all these fancy words and captivating images there's a broken girl who sits dangerously at the end of a piece of drift wood as a tornado approaches the shores of a distance beach.
There's a crooked smile singing the praises of some self found confidence that could be bottled and sold in the nearest gag shop.
There's a record player in my chest rotating the same three songs all with the same sad tune of "maybe this time". There's an empty casket going into an unmarked grave for feelings I thought we could share but never quite died.
There's a timid hand shake wrapped in insecurities doused in ambition and remorse for the words and actions that lacked excitement when I took the hand of some fragment that should have replaced you.

Let me be 100% honest for once,
I'll even swear on a Bible if that makes it any better.
But I'll be ****** if I sit back with my mouth shut any longer,
Let's call this a "the love you've lost" letter

My heart drops into my gut when I find out you're "with" other girls.
I feel sick to my stomach and cheap.
I'm jealous as hell and find myself almost holding back tears,
but I also refuse to let you see me this weak.

I'm terrified to tell you how much you're hurting me,
because that would give you too much power.
So instead I bottle it up and release my words on a page;
as something formerly bittersweet, becomes just straight sour.

I could literally fill up the space between us,
with everything that you've chosen not to say.
And I'll tell you this; I don't have to tolerate your behavior;
no one deserves to be treated this way.

Recognize this not as goodbye, but rather me taking a stand.
I'm fed up, I'm tired, and all around over this.
So do us both a favor and be a ******* man.
Or prepared to be permanently dismissed.