His hands trace the curvature of my body as I wrap my legs around his waist, quivering as his tongue explores places that motivates my body to react through a swift shift in movement of arching my back.
Gasps softly emerge from my mouth as I feel an entrance of rhythmic motion allowing the depths of my love to emerge as I mirror his passion that’s exhibited through the twists, turns, and motions causing me to get lost in pleasure, pushing me to realize that I’m finding myself in the reflection of his dark brown eyes.

Dear God,

When I die
I want my day to be celebrated.
No pain, no sorrows, no regrets, no sadness.
Just a big party full of fun living, breathing, healthy people who enjoy the company of genuine people.
That I be remembered as a goofy, silly, different type of unique being that has enjoyed his time on earth.
Because I can honestly say I lived & learned in this world.
And I did it all thanks to you.

October 26, 2038

Dear God,

I’m mad.
Sometimes I wish you would come down here & stop the madness that goes on around here. The killing, stealing, disrespect. I wish that you would stop these bad people from harming others for their own desires.

But at the same time, how can I be mad at you? You gave us free will. You gave us everything we needed and it was certain individuals own fault that caused all of these issues to occur.
It’s s not your fault that we don’t know how to behave. I guess I’m upset because I want you to do something about it.
I’m sorry. Forgive my ignorance.

Sometimes I just wish you controlled these situations.

March 9, 1988

I strive off struggle & determination to create success.
My craft is so unique, it performs greatness.
My intelligence is sharp
Wisdom is astounding
Through God's gift,
My sacrifice for my love ones change their lives for the better.
But one thing's for sure though...
As I stand out from the crowd,
I am Magnificent
My legacy will forever ♾

Beneficial
Luxurious
Angelic
Communicator
Key

Winning
Original
M­agnificent
Accepted
Noticed

Dear God,

How do we have all of these religions in the world.
But we have similar devil(s)???

March 13, 1950

Dear God,

I have days where I wish I was with you in heaven. No, I’m not suicidal. I just think about you taking my soul away as I spend all eternity with you.
But then I start to think, “How selfish of me would that be when I haven’t even fulfilled my purpose on earth yet”, you know?
I haven’t tried to change my life around. Given myself time to find out who I am or what makes me, “me”. Nor realize how it would affect family / friends to see me gone in an instant.

So thank you for not taking me away just yet. I will fulfill your request. I promise

But what is my purpose?

July 8, 1974

Tonight I danced with a French girl in a parking lot under the stars.
And it was amazing!

She Salsa dance
She had those **** hips moving side-by-side
She made her ***** role & twirl around
Her body match the flow & rhythm to the Latin music playing on the radio.

Guys I’m telling you, she’s it! She’s the one

And she’s from France

Tired of being humble
Tired of feeling puzzled
Tired of starting over
With these past few relationships
My love was used for the moment
Sitting here just roaming, tough
Good thing I was always honest
But made myself look foolish, so

Love will love like it always does
Selfish love is upon us
Love will love like it always does
Selfish love is upon us

Tired of these circumstances
Had some more common flashes
Feeling like I’m just chasing
Stuff is old, need more patience and
Meanwhile  I need satisfaction
I must learn to embrace it
Stay aware and pay attention
Describing my own feelings, cause

Love will love like it always does
Selfish love is upon us
Love will love like it always does
Selfish love is upon us

Dear God,

No weapon shall prosper against me for my list:

Continue to make me stronger mentally, physically, emotionally, financially, and spiritually.

Allow my mistakes / sins to be lessons and vanish. Let my wisdom/ faith bloom for others.

Forgive me and my family as I am the head of the household, not the tail.

Grant my future wife the meaning of being “submissive”. Godly ways, not earthly flesh ways.

I need my wife to be rich in mental health, in her own goals, her gains, and pockets.
Let her cup be full of joy & wonders with mine.

Allow our children, she will have to bare, to come out healthy as she to makes a 100% full recovery.

Allow my children to lean on you Lord. Open their hearts, mind, and study your words. In the Bible, 2 Corinthians, have them “preach the word of God with sincerity and with Christ authority, knowing that God is watching.”

Let me teach my children to wear the shield of armor at all times so they may protect their self-image.

Help my children to become stable & calm under pressure when times get tough. Keep their minds focus on the prize they seek with good deeds.

No weapon shall prosper against me for my list:

October 17, 2015

Dear God,

The signs you are making me see, what do those exactly mean? Is this what the future would possibly look like for me if I continue down this path?

August 9, 1999

Dear God,

So, if we are grown at a certain age…
But are considered a child of God…
Shouldn’t we stay in a child’s place???

June 23, 2021

Dear God,

I remember the day I sat down with my high school coach who’s like a father to me, tell me a story about his father sitting him down about the afterlife.
His father said, “You really don’t know what’s going to happen after death. At the end of the day one group is right, and a whole lot of people are wrong. Better hope your group right.” - then me & coach both laughed.
After I laughed, I started to really think who’s right & who’s wrong.
Because of the unknown, that’s why I have faith.

November 20, 1977

Hmmm….

The obvious was there
Charms in the palm of my hands
All a man could do was just stare
Visualizing a quick glance

Beauty I saw, in the distance
Filled with intense curiosity of how our lives collide
While hiding my feelings about one’s existence
I tend to set aside my love, due to my pride

Secrets after secrets
Not realizing you may like me back
Secrets after secrets
Views of your looks; can’t help myself being side-track


Love rain is what I call it….

Small drizzles of kisses,
Heavy thunderstorm of making love,
Wind blowing sweet smells of rain drops,
Only to look down into the puddle of your reflection

Sense touch from the rain
Texture of sweet taste on my tongue
Soft sound, showers pouring down  
Smelling fresh air
All to be seen through my eye

Her Nature is all around me

Dear God,

Tonight, after having this difficult conversation with my woman.
I pray that you continue to guide us both on the right path. We ask the right questions. We take care of each other regardless. And that things will be revealed to us to know if we are ready for marriage or not.
But most of all, if we belong to one another under your will.

September 1, 2006

I have
a desire
to act polite,
then
to follow
a life of
destruction

Dear father,
For once in my life,
I finally have someone who depends on me.

I asked for this blessing many times…
So, show me how to keep it.

Dear God,

Lately I’ve been feeling attacked by family. More than often, and don’t understand why?
I pray, I stay out of trouble for the most part, read the Bible from time to time, and because of you I finally found one of my callings. Poetry. I know I haven’t been around or talked much. I’m invested into my craft. My energy/ attitude never changed. I’m still the same strong spirit, will minded, giving child you created for this world.
Back then they said - “ Put God in the center, be anything you want, pay no attention to stupidity.”  
Now it’s, “Go get a good job with benefits, why aren’t you back in school, I don’t think this is what God intended for you.”
I don’t get it.
I’m just trying to obey your orders and demonstrate it to the family, best way I know how.
I just don’t understand.

So why me????

December 6, 2004

Don’t speak & wish me well
If you the one that gave me hell 👏🏾

Dear God,

We always ask you to reveal people’s attentions. Then have you remove them out of our lives when we get treated wrong.
But what most of us don’t do is give ourselves time to heal nor send healing energy. We allow our emotions to run wild sometimes.

May 14, 2087

Dear God,

You didn’t get enough credit today. I just want to say thank you for putting up with me over the years. You’ve always been there as I’m trying to change my life around. I want to thank you for giving me time to overcome my addiction. I knew it was time to stop and I finally did. I feel amazing + I use my free time to workout or get into other projects. My mind is at ease now.
I guess time does heal all.

November 19, 2027

Dear God,

Out of the 10 commandments: My biggest sin is adultery.
I love ***. Especially as much as the next person, you know. But I do have it under control for the most part.
I don’t know why but these urges keep coming. Like today, the only thing that was on my mind was eating and sleeping because I didn’t get enough rest last night. As I awake, I immediately start having intense energy for ***. I am strong to say “NO” or stop myself from time to time. I have common sense not to spread my seeds around town. But it’s hard man.
I’m smart & humble.
I’m not perfect but I try.

So I’m asking you this evening to help me control my urges. Because as a man, I tend to want *** a lot; however, I am trying my hardest to control it the best way I know how.

December 25, 2008

Two different hearts joint together in the same time zone

Our chemistry is strong, we’re in control of setting the tone

She love the way I treat her, have her mind blown

I like the way she hustles, she has her own goals

Next year we’ll be living on 500 acres in our new home

Express my commitment through this rose gold

Born a natural leader, I set those milestones

Beginning to end I’m here for the long road

Dear God,

Today I pray for mental health and for those who can not fight for themselves. That consistently need help on a day in/out.
It’s sad to see an individual you love go through what they go through, knowing they have to learn how to fight for themselves when they feel like they can’t. They feel like they don’t have enough will power to overcome their own situation.

April 23, 2001

Dear God,

I don’t want to keep sinning , even though I already am

I don’t want to be greedy with money, even though I have to survive with cash.

I don’t want to chase after flesh, yet temptation is calling me.

I don’t want to hurt nobody, but society really likes to test me.

I don’t want to make anyone my idol, but my actions are similar to mimicking my favorite character on Television.

October 27, 2040