"mabey" poems
I saw the man that lived in 2B a few times
At least that's what I tell anyone that asks about him
He was a well groomed man
Medium length black and grey hair
I use to imagin that he had a grey hair for every rusty nail he had pulled from his boot heel
Looked like he was in good shap at one time or another
I herd once that he could recall every drop of rain he'd ever herd
Didn't know any jokes
Had no real opinions on religion or politics
Mabey that's why he never came to the building picnics
Checked his mail everyday
He was waiting for something
I don't think it ever came
After some time had past
People stopped talking about him
I never saw him again
Mar 17, 2013
Mar 17, 2013 at 2:52 PM UTC
I can't stop , can't stop thinking , about her , the feelings are real and they just don't go away , she's the greatest person alive , I mean no one is perfect but if there was a perfect she would be pretty dam close, I can't think of her leaveing , it drives me nuts , to know that soon she will be thousands of miles away , I'm in love with this girl , and my heart is slowly shattering knowing she is leaveing , why can't I handle this ? Or can I ? I'm so confused because real feelings don't just go away , real feelings make you feel like I do , happy , sad , confused , crazy , I don't understand love its the devil , at one moment your the happiest person alive and than your the saddest person alive , love is a game , where you try new thingshopeing to find the right one , trying to sadisfy yourself with victory , but you don't always win , love is great , love ***** , love is always good when its real , love is real , she is real and I love her , but I'm loseing her , the days are getting shorter and the nights not getting any longer , I wish I could just go with her , but we both need to try new people we are young , but I don't wanna try new people I have feelings and they are real , and real feelings don't just go away ! , but I have no choice and no say , mabey just mabey one day we will be together again but only time will tell if we are ment to be and I know my feelings are real and real feelings don't just go away
Jul 12, 2013
Jul 12, 2013 at 1:23 AM UTC
The got down on their knees and asked The Man for rain.
Crops were drying up,looked like a bad year for grain.
The bills started piling up , the note came they'd loose the land.
They held on tight as a family should, never lost faith in The Man.
Rain never came across the parched land even the fish had a worry or two,
so the good folks came up with a last dith plan cause that's what good folks do.
They brought a few cattle down from the hills,
along with a few fat pigs.
Cleaned up and painted the barn ,then built a huge , fancy BBQ rig.
Got word out to the neighbors and everyone in between,
told them there would be the biggest three day gathering, the biggest they'd ever seen.
Well still no rain but no fret, there was work going on,
these folks never lost faith in The Man, they were not going to loose this farm!
Come Friday noon there came a rumble, almost like a distant storm.
No it wasn't lightning or rain, it was three thousand bikers mabey more!
They all lined up for this three day event, music, foolishness and good food.
Paid thirty dollars a head and signed a paper they'd obey the rules.
Music filled the farm air that night and fun was had for days.
Then like the rule book had printed out, they cleaned up and road away.
Now the farm was saved and bills were paid, worries put away,
as the last biker road away in the dust....the sky opened up with rain!
Feb 17, 2011
Feb 17, 2011 at 11:54 AM UTC
Mabey it was just the days
that seemed prolonged
My mind that resurrects the dead
To the reaches far beyond
Fatigued i let myself wander
Fulling false emotions blurred by imagination
Confined in my prior self
Till Im a tyrant to my own degradation
The bittersweet animosity of false hope
Like watering a blossom in hopes of a willow
My self-pity only absent in my dreams
had i wished they where nightmares not long ago
Strangled with fists and stains my pillow bears quotes i suffocate through
That quote
Go to bed
He’s not thinking about you
Nov 4, 2018
Nov 4, 2018 at 11:08 AM UTC
I wonder how many times I'll say hello to these strange people I am said to know. I can see the look on their faces and the false happiness that they all show. Why can't they be real why must they lie? I'm sick of being played by time! I want them to be straight up, I want them to know that I can see their problems they always show. I just want them to be real to stop the lying and hate. Why can't they just say these things to my face! Mabey I could help them or at least understand why. But no these idiots think its smarter to hide. To keep the demons that eat at their pride. I'll tell you this I want you to know that if I have a problem I won't be apart of your emotionless show. I'll open up express my thoughts. To many times have I welled up my thoughts, but now I'm boiled over to the brim. I've taken so much and held it all in. But not again I can't hold it in, I've been filled to the brim. I'm sorry but not again, I can't do it this is the end.
Dec 11, 2013
Dec 11, 2013 at 11:37 PM UTC
With dreams comes nightmares , and thoughts come dreams , life is a dream is it not ? one day you won't wake up , are we even awake ? Is life just one big dream with the ocassional nightmare ? I mean you do make life the way you want it ..... Eventually .... But for now you just keep dreaming thinking everything is fine , untill .... One night you wake up to an old dream , an old memory , a sad memory you thought mabey was gone , s good sleep woken up by a great memory to be shattered into sadness when your eyes meet the day light , is the dream the best part of life , to see what you want what you used to have , love , touch , smell ,or is it the now the new views , people lifestyle , what is better people ask , the response its different , undiscribeable , just different , nothigng is that similar if anything at all new towns , new states , west and east , sunrise to sunset , the thoughts end the dreams , the goals and the memories , the past and the future are what make who you are from yesterday to today, the past is missed but the now is today so what will my next day bring , who knows but I'm excited for everyday !
Aug 29, 2013
Aug 29, 2013 at 4:09 AM UTC
Ever try and find something, something really needed?
Find **** near everything else, except what your seeking.
I needed to find a letter , all legal and all,
I have found enough other things to start my own mall.
There's that old collector ******* I could have sworn was taken by my son,
I'll have to apologies to him, I got that one all wrong.
Found the deed to the land, I had to go and file a new,
hell who knows what I'll find , mabey a dollar or too. Na.
Found the long lost pacifier, well it was really hid,
man it took along time for Brande to get over it.
I should show it to her now and see if there's still a connect,
ok , mabey not I know how touchy pregnate women get! Smile
So finally I find the letter, man I thought was lost.
So I'll try and see the appoinment man , hope this letter was all.
Smile
Aug 25, 2010
Aug 25, 2010 at 5:34 PM UTC
They called him up to the main office, told him Friday was his last day,
he came back down to the shop, started puting his things away.
Took down all them old posters, been there since 84.
Hard to believe this day had come, not excited anymore.
Got the call to the main office, I wondered now what again?!
called me on the carpet, said I'd be replacing him.
Stood there in amazement, just couldn't get it to sink in.
I'm replacing my teacher, boss,......my friend.
Times we used to talk about how many years left to this day.
Sleep in with no alarm clock, fish the day away.
Finally buy that Harley or mabey take that cruise.
Somehow it's not like the dream when you finally get the news.
I walked him to his truck and found no words to say,
seems kind of odd, we used to talk all **** day.
So I shook his hand and gave him a hug,
sent him on his way. Walked back into the shop,
it now seems so strange.
Watched him from the open doors disappear in a cloud of dust.
One mans journey ended here today, one is about to start.
Feb 16, 2011
Feb 16, 2011 at 9:14 AM UTC
When the wind of her breath reaches my skin I freeze , when the skin of this girl hits me I melt , when her words hit my ears its like the ocean waves crashing so calm and mellow , I can't think of anything better than her , when she leaves I feel alone , I feel empty , I love her , when I say it I mean it , I feel a spark , this spark is drifting , I'm confused , I don't want her to leave , but its what's best for her , that's all I want , is for her to be happy , even if we are both left sad for a while , being together now is what makes this love so strong , but in 40 days I'm gonna have to let go , I'm.gonna have to be alone , because that's what's best for her , I hope she dose well , I really do , and one day if its ment to be the spark will be lit and mabey one day just mabey we will be togather again , so for this last 40 days , I will make it memorbral , it will be one of the best 40 days of my life and mabey here's but all I can do.is try my best for the one I love !
Jul 7, 2013
Jul 7, 2013 at 2:39 AM UTC
My heart broken like glass , eyes red as solo cups , and the tears of a waterfall , ..... My love has left , I sit and sob on the bed , looking through pictures to try and froget , but ... That just makes the tears flow again ... What do I do ?,... My mind twisting with thoughts as a tornado ripping through a old southern home , here I am still crying , over the girl I fell in love with , you might say you can't fall in love at first sight , I used to think that way before I laid my eyes on this beautiful women , I just felt something and I dident even know her name , I was crazy to think she would like me back , ha ha good thought , but she did and she changed my life , thankyou , thankyou for everything ,you are the greatest girl out there and whoever gets to swoop you off your feet is one hell of a luckly man ..... But than again I can live the hope life , thinking one day maybe we will end up togather again , like they say u never froget your first love .... Is that true ?? And if it is and both end up in a situation to be one again what would happen ? But you never know and you can't go on thinking about it ..... But .... if its ment to be it will happen and you just have to let time play its game and mabey it will be in favor of you , so for now I still sit and think knowing atleast we are still friends and that's what makes these last 10 almost 11 months so great is I.made a best friend out of it no matter what and that's the most important thing I love her and always will and nothing will ever change that and to this goodnight ! .... If I sleep ..............:
Jul 19, 2013
Jul 19, 2013 at 2:05 AM UTC
A red feathered hawk glides across the semi frozen fairways
as potential morsels scramble off the daily menu.
He picks at random , enjoys his meal, then starts his
search anew.
Such is Life.
A flat bottom ****** has found his home near the pond on green number two.
Surrounded by trees on all sides for his **** building to choose.
Atlas he chose what wasn't wise and took a beam from someones porch.
So now he dangles at the end of a trap secured to a tree of course.
Such is Life
Wild geese come and gather round, here they found a place to stay.
Each day their wandering gets kind of wild when golf ***** sail their way.
Their droppings cause quite a mess on these wealthy mens shoes
but I laugh inside most of the time , this isn't the worse thing they could do.
Such is Life.
To me , to see nature entwine with population and still come to some course of harmony,
brings a peaceful moment to my life but mabey that's just me.
Such is Life
Feb 8, 2011
Feb 8, 2011 at 12:14 PM UTC
mabey its not always about trying to fix somthing thats broken mabey its about starting over and creating something better .
Mar 8, 2012
Mar 8, 2012 at 10:41 PM UTC
I look up to your face,
Oblivious, you gaze down,
Every cell a brilliant shade of blue,
Eyes reflecting a greenish hue;
You don't realise were you are,
Fields of colour you ignore,
African sunsets I know you would adore,
People, places you never even glance at,
Too engrossed in adverts- adverse to books and that;
This haven you think you've created,
It's really a jungle- endless and endless,
Constantly chopping down trees,
Searching for a way out,
But forgetting to open your eyes:
Loosing yourself in an electronic jungle,
loosing yourself in your phone,
loosing yourself in your selfie- self harm; self loath; self hate;
Look up,
Get up,
Move,
Mabey you wont feel quite so...
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Jun 29, 2018
Jun 29, 2018 at 1:37 PM UTC
i saw that shift in your gaze
when you remembered
the last time
you became something
Wild, Hungry
whats in my mind, asked
with that eager
and far away look
in muddy water eyes
I sympathize, compromise
it's happened again
while the city lights
rippled the water
with their speed
you put your hands on me
and I doth not protest
when you say
i was the one that got away
so why am I back
so why am I afraid
to turn away or
say this ain't ok with me
why must I empathize
without boundaries
or fear an abrupt ending
to this uncomfortable moment
Dec 21, 2020
Dec 21, 2020 at 6:14 PM UTC
The sound of the wet stone against the straight razors edge,
The rhythmic sound it makes as it grinds the narrow blade,
It's like a song what the cries to be heard yet no hears,
I hear it every night I hear it,
Mabey because that's because I'm the one playing it I don't know,
But I hear it and feel it,
The slow first cut the one with all the pressure,
The skin opens and the red crimson blood spills over the edges,
The ecstasy,
The thrill,
It's unbelievable,
So I do it agin and again,
I forget why I started,
I forget the reason,
But all that matters now is the feeling,
Pure as light it's self,
I play that song and relalise,
That the first cut is always the deepest.
Dec 22, 2013
Dec 22, 2013 at 4:50 PM UTC
Thinking about her , everyday and everynight , its like being followed , I try so much to get her off my mind , but I can't , she is just there , everything I do reminds me of her , when I sleep she is in my dreams , when I'm awake I wonder how she is , I miss her company , her by my side , the sound of her laugh , the sight of her smile , both beautiful things like herself , I just can't stop , I wish I could just fly away , both of us and be together , but its impossible , mehhh ..... She's all I can think about , maybe its because I felt love , I knew it was gonna end , but I loved her and wanted to make it last , and it did bit now I'm broke like an old record , what do I do , everygirl I see I want them to be her , I miss her , just everything about her , the memories just keep flowing through my mind like a raging river , the photos I see make me smile , I look so happy , from haveing the best birthday in the last 5 years , to looking at the photo we last took togather , I'm excited to see her again but also nervouse I wonder if she misses me , or if she dosent even think of me , I don't know anymore , I just want time to play its game faster so mabey one day ill end up with her or I won't.... , I just want to know and I can't stop thinking I miss her ....
Jul 22, 2013
Jul 22, 2013 at 11:37 PM UTC
There used to be man who could stand up to anything,
To the pain and violence of people both loved ones and hated,
He used to be able to be the sheild for his family and friends,
But now stands an empty shell,
Lost never foun and never to be a man to stand up,
I am that empty shell there's nothing left inside,
Nothing to fill me up,
Nothing to give me hope,
I've lost myself once again,
I'm disconnected from life and everyone in it,
Like the wind I float along no purpose but to pass through the lives of everyone I meet,
Never to be rembeted,
Never to be held dear,
Never to be loved,
I am but a small shell of nothingness,
So there once was a man who could
Stand up to everything,
I was that man but now,
I am nothing,
Empty,
Ad floating away,
Lost on the wind,
Floating through lives,
No one wants a shell.
So I will go away travle the winds Mabey they will carry me to place far away.
For I once was but am no more.
Nov 8, 2013
Nov 8, 2013 at 7:09 PM UTC
Falling
Falling forever downwards
Into a hole that just grows
Deeper and deeper
And darker and darker
Digging
Digging my hole deeper
With every mistake I make
Every time I mess up
Every time I hurt someone
Crying
Crying tears fall from my eyes
The shame and embarrassment
Saying sorry is not enough
For me to be forgiven
Remembeing
Remembering every mistake I made
No matter how small they are
Or how bad my memories is
They will never stop replaying in my mind
Begging
Begging for forgiveness
For things they probably don't remember
And that probably don't care about
But they need to know that I do
Hoping
Hoping that one day they will forgive me
And that I will forgive myself
For the things that create my hole
And then mabey I will stop...
Falling
Jan 13, 2017
Jan 13, 2017 at 1:43 AM UTC
This is it
my perfect bliss
the perfect kiss
at the end of her ruby lip stick
now picture this.
a young man who had fallen inlove
age 16, the protagonist of this story thought he had finally won.
the jackpot.
well that's a thought,
his perfect world came crumbling down when his girl got caught,
straight leaning.
going into bed with other men
right then he felt his mind start to break and mend.
he was broken,
A shell,
A pain unspoken.
he's now in hell,
heartless,
with his pride stolen.
thoughts of suicide Plague his mind,
The voices in his head screaming "DO IT NOWS YOUR TIME!"
but he was scared,
and he cared,
about his family.
why should they suffer because he discovered true insanity?
now what's next?
the steps,
to full recovery?
he doesn't want pills or to sit for hours in therapy.
there's only one way to make what's wrong right,
go out in the night, with this knife, and take this man's life.
that's what they said
the voices,
inside my head.
its him or me!
i thought about it last night iwhile i layed in bed.
the only way to stop these voices inside my head,
is ether **** him dead or to take my own life instead!
I CAN'T DO IT!
lets face it,
I'm not a real man,
those ******* voices telling me "THIS ACT CAN NOT STAND!
NOW GO OUT AND RETAIN YOUR HONOR!
YOU THINK HE GAVE A **** ABOUT YOU WHILE HE ****** HER?!"
this is it.
its time.
to tie the knouse,
and hang from this celing fan until my face turns blue.
**** THAT! LETS GO AND **** HIS MOM,
IN FRONT OF HIM AND WE CAN MAKE THIS A PERSONAL ISSUE!"
in hindsight,i couldve made a better choice.
Now I'm in jail, with no bail, and alone with this voice.
i tell the judge "I HAVE NO REGRETS, WELL MABEY ONE.
I NEVER GOT THE CHANCE TO GET MY HANDS ON HER ONLY SON.
BUT ILL WAIT 100 YEARS AND ROT IN THAT CELL
FOR THAT FAITHFUL DAY WHEN I MEET THAT SORRY ******* IN HELL..."
Feb 20, 2014
Feb 20, 2014 at 9:14 AM UTC
Mommy screams to much
and daddy's so quiet you'd swear he wasn't there
My brothers where are they?
my razor blade I can't find it
These mental scars I can't hide it!
stitches tape and glue
mabey that will connect the two
peices back together
cause just talking wont help me out
thats all im asking for
but noone can hear me
when I seclude myself to my room
swallow them down choke them up
im to much of a chicken **** to try
so why doesn't everyone else just die
told me it'd be better if I jumped off a bridge
had a pine box bed to roll around in
what if i really did
would you feel guilty
would you feel triumphent?
cause your pushing me farther
and farther to jumping.
Mar 4, 2014
Mar 4, 2014 at 11:56 PM UTC
I can fly no more
My wings are spent
As is my incentive
Mabey its time
To let go of the past
And finally rest
So please catch me
as I fall from this blue sky
Mar 8, 2014
Mar 8, 2014 at 1:03 AM UTC
This pen and paper are mocking me.
showing my many flaws.
This cause is a lost
my hand is cramping.
**** this writers block!
I know there's somthing in my soul,
a story to share with you all.
But alas, I'm still lost,
trying to fix this writers block.
mabey a tale of true love perhaps!
No, that's a bore and we've already heard them all.
Mabey an Odyssey of a powerful kingdoms fall?
But even if i try,
ii can not deny
i don't know where to start,
a total brain ****
so my brother and sisters!
Lets all work around the clock,
And mabey together we can defeat our one true Enemy
writers block.
Feb 20, 2014
Feb 20, 2014 at 12:57 PM UTC
a rebellion is my love for you
forsaken and opposed by many
still somehow i feel its lost
my heart says one thing and my brain another
this constant rebellion may go on forever
and stop mabey never
at the end of the day its for us to decide
whether to give in or to turn out to be a rebel
and fight till the last breath
it may prove destructive for us
but all is fair in love and war
and love has no boundaries
not now not ever
i feel that you are the one for me
it may be opposed by my family
and many more
but my love is mine forever
my breath is the promise
and my soul the witness
it may not be the same for you
yet it is a rebellion
a rebellion against the world
you and me are the rebels
the odd ones out
we can either choose to stick together
or give in and fail....
Dec 4, 2018
Dec 4, 2018 at 12:58 AM UTC