Feeling empty like a car out of gas , can't even putter around anymore  , done like like a man in jail , sitting in my ****** apartment letting my mind go in a million directions , I feel as if I'm missing a pice to a puzzle , just gone , can't froget about it like your first day of school , your first kiss ,or the day I first saw you , still sitting in my hell hole of an appartment alone with nothing but memories from the past the " good ole days " to soon to say hi again , still feeling the spark so a hello and good by was the time to soon to say hi the awkward moment of silnce following , as the spark walks away for the fire to be not lit , ,I love you and I can't stop your always there , as a pitied sits on a wall i, I can't get sleep tonight eventhough I know everything will be alright .... This empty feeling *****.

why? Why are you in my dreams every night every day I can't stop thinking of you you're always there,  I opean my eyes and your'e gone I close my eyes and there you are making me the happiest person alive but then again I wake up and you're not there and it kills me , I feel lonely sad , depressed,  and confused  I don't know what to do all these thoughts in my head, these memories,  I'm just lost I miss everything about you everything we had  , it hasn't even been a week and I'm still a mess it's almost a week one day shy,  just like tomorrow's  night sky it will be beautiful I guarantee , just like you , and that's all I see , eveywhere I look I see you , I'm hypnotize like biggie smalls , and confused like jimmy Hendrix  , I don't know what to do, all I can do is think about you  , what am I going to do when your gone 2000 miles away on the west coast  , am I gonna be okay or will this keep happening, you haunting me in my dreams  , me thinking of you so that happens, why does this happen?  everyone says I can do better  , but there is no better to me you are the best , you understand me , I understand you what's better than that when we don't argue , maybe once or twice and 10 half months that's pretty solid if you ask me, no love can never be as strong as we were once meant to be , but we are different and we stuck through so much I don't understand  what happend to us , we were strong and then weak and we lost each other in less than a week , that's all it took 10 months so strong as one week to break it down so we are no longer  one.  But. Two seperate for now like the west and east, so far , but as friend we are as close as ever before , so what is to come in this journy of life ,  ... Love ? ....Happiness ?.... A new beginning  ..? Who knows except you ... You don't even know , .. time knows , but time can't speak only the people can , and that's what makes time , time is voice , not silence  and that's why you haunt my , dreams well .... So I think , how long will I be haunted ?? I guess as long as I think of it ,,, how long will that last ahhhhhhhh I hate time I wish I could just know, but I can't do for now i still love you , and that's all I can do as long as you haunt my dreams

I can't stop , can't stop thinking , about her , the feelings are real and they just don't go away , she's the greatest person alive , I mean no one is perfect but if there was a perfect she would be pretty dam close, I can't think of her leaveing , it drives me nuts , to know that soon she will be thousands of miles away , I'm in love with this girl , and my heart is slowly shattering knowing she  is leaveing , why can't I handle this ? Or can I ? I'm so confused because real feelings don't just go away , real feelings make you feel like I do , happy , sad , confused , crazy , I don't understand love its the devil , at one moment your the happiest person alive and than your the saddest  person alive , love is a game , where you try new thingshopeing to find the right one , trying to sadisfy yourself with victory , but you don't always win , love  is great , love ***** , love is always good when its real , love is real , she is real and I love her , but I'm loseing her , the days are getting shorter and the nights not getting any longer , I wish I could just go with her , but we both need to try new people we are young , but I don't wanna try new people I have feelings and they are real , and real feelings don't just go away ! , but I have no choice and no say , mabey just mabey one day we will be together again but only time will tell if we are ment to be and I know my feelings are real and real feelings don't just go away