"couse" poems
My heart's now filled with melancholy,
My lungs with smoke, my eyes with tears,
My liver with a poison
That I drink to forget you.
I'm celebrating today
Four weeks of being all alone;
Four weeks of being dumped, violently
Oh, please pour me another drink.
And even though you've moved on,
We're staying friends, we're still talking ;
Oh darling of course you're still in my heart.
Of couse I'm still in love with you.
Of course I still wish I could hold you tight,
tight against me.
You can't imagine how much it hurts
To pretend I'm feeling good.
Nobody knows for real.
And what I talk to you, I can smell your perfume
It reminds me of all our nights together.
Nothing can harm me more..
Oh darling, of course I still love you.
Et je me dis que plus rien ne sera comme avant,
Je ne pourrai plus te dire que je t'aime,
ou que tu me manques.
Je ne pourrai plus te serrer contre moi,
embrasser ta nuque et rire avec toi.
Et même si tu pars bientôt,
que je ne risque pas de te revoir avant un certain temps,
c'est toi que mon coeur a choisie.
Et je continuerai de t'aimer.
Jun 20, 2012
Jun 20, 2012 at 8:37 AM UTC
he ran away from his unborn child,he thought in his mind he was too young to raise a young child,couse he also was a child.
All he wanted was to be free,young and wild.
As he took two steps back he felt relief,then he believed he could leave,so he left with his believe.
Runing away was like runing to jail he knew not.
Planing to go in drunkiness and in revery that two he knew not.
The mind kept spreading more lies to the morning bread he eated,he was just too weak so his heart was defeated.The unborn child forgotten.The weeping girl weeped and whipe hear tears,but his memory remaind,a picture of him that can never be ereased,that each and every thought of the child evoked the unbearable feelings,the bast of fury flames touring her mind,shouts encrepted in the her heart,on the bed twisting n turning,wakin and sleeping but still she found no rest,internaly bleeding,emotional abused by his pictures
then she thought
thought that abortion might be the solution to the situation that she is in.
Jun 2, 2014
Jun 2, 2014 at 4:41 AM UTC
She rose from the waters
Of couse she was wet
Her hair mingled in moss
rigor mortis ? not yet !
I stood for cautious
My heart cried out in fear
FOOL ! don't go any closer
This is certainly most weird
She left watery footsteps
As she ascended the hill
To the abandon cemetery
Where all rested so still
There on a knoll
She spread out a cover
Sat down and awaited her lover
A screech by a cat
A hoot of the owl
And in the air
A stench so evil and foul
She rose to her feet
As he appeared in the gloom
They embraced
By the light of the moon
His eyes were live coals
His breath sulphur hot
His clothes were impeccable
His skin dried and taut
Together they sat
But there was nary a word
When he bent over and kissed her
There was a sizzling heard
He stripped her bare
of her watery rags
And they made unholy love
It sure made me gag
The clouds in the sky
How quickly they flew
The moon was so embarrassed
That he turned blackest of blue
Jun 27, 2017
Jun 27, 2017 at 4:11 AM UTC
Motto: „ they are all elsewhere/ examining things/ in new bedrooms/” – Charles Bukowski – Praying for rainy days
**** Bukowski
thinks that’s a supraestimated fake
for townsends of years
„ harder than The Riots of Watts”
and it’s not about *****
it’s too precoius and delicate
and it’s not about women
'couse the women *** with roses
or with the spine-birds
and still gets payed on the job
it’s all about poetry
it’s about that funny slaughterhouse
in wich we kick eachothers stupide ***
like some real lovers
and then we rearange our underwear
or what’s left of it
it’s all about a load of **** good to be throwned at the garbage
'couse – don't mention it – there is nothing heroical
and every ****** thing is a makeup
there is just a mouse shiverring in a corner
two ugly frogs are hugging all what is left of the sun
and above all
the monkey is trying hard to improvise a tired smile
**** Bukowski
I don't know a living soul with such a perseveration
to ****** his poems
like his money on horse-races
like his fat’n’ugly mexican ******
and still somehow to become his own hero
insane like this
born into this
and becouse he had lived to much like a dog
alone with the whole world
with it’s ******* **** beauty
in wich actualy nobudy finds his mate
in wich everything it’s just a canibalistic clown
and a childish cry
almoust painfully dead
from his own laughter
Mar 30, 2010
Mar 30, 2010 at 11:06 PM UTC
Hurting by the ocean waves
sand with blood, we all
learn to behave, when our
curtains catch no light,
and do not prevent the
squashing night
to give my child to another
and to abort a fetus, who
is or was his brother,
depending whom you ask,
of couse I wouldn't know,
so I numb with clothes,
money, and blow.
Jul 24, 2016
Jul 24, 2016 at 8:33 PM UTC
disease set up a limits,
all over crossing lines,
shark darkness pushing spirits,
forbid the Future bright,
when sources dried up cleaned,
when finish seemed arrived,
and body doesnt listen,
an orders stretching mind,
have lived ones life already?
have lived ones world they say?
all bettings leaving steady,
ones boat drown away?
this all regrets and sorrows -
will follow for the fate,
but yesterday, tomorrow,
all over Futures days -
fight back, combat an illness,
show up Your shining light,
couse constancy existence -
rulls only sleepers kind.
Apr 24, 2015
Apr 24, 2015 at 3:50 PM UTC
My storm
A gentle breeze a gentile Wisper
Only to turn in to a storm my love you are my storm
The wind took my heart away. The Tidal wave of love that washed over me
The lightning that flashed and filled my life with new light new hope
My storm my storm you are my storm that rattles my world and shakes my foundation only to wonder will the lightning strike my heart and Couse it to shatter
updated
My Storm
A gentle breeze, a quiet whisper,
Soft at first — then stronger, crisper.
What began as calm, became so much more...
My love, you are my storm.
The wind carried my heart away,
A tidal wave of love swept in to stay.
Lightning struck and filled my sky —
With new light, new hope, a reason why.
My storm, my storm — you are the one
Who shakes my ground, who blocks the sun.
You rattle my world, shake my core,
And leave me wondering…
Will lightning strike my heart once more —
And shatter it forevermore?
Jun 12, 2023
Jun 12, 2023 at 11:08 PM UTC
What I write may sound deep
But it's real life
What I write may be critiqued
But it's real life
What pushes me to do this
What motivates me to do this
Pain did
Without pain, I wouldn't be here
Without pain, I wouldn't bother
Even writing this stanza
Yet writing this takes the pain away from me
Yet it comes back to haunt me
They ask me "how do you know what real life is?"
Pain is how I know what real life
Revealed the entirety to me
I didn't live a life of candy and cakes
I live a life of failure and mistakes
Yet I am still here
Telling you how I am able to do this
How I am able to write this
Pain gave me this
And don't say you never felt pain
Couse without pain there is no real life
Yet there is a road of joy and happiness
The most of us find
I am still searching for mine
Yet pain never dies
Still, carry on
Even if I have nothing holding on
Pain showed me
And it will show you
A taste of reality
Pain guided me
Will it guide you?
May 14, 2018
May 14, 2018 at 11:46 PM UTC
when i was a kid, me an this black boy
(an remember, slavery was still legal then)
we had just escaped some orphanage where they was plannin to lobotomize us for bein so dang ordinary
an the spirit of alan ginzberg come backwards! thru time an guv us a magic sunflower and he said "i hope this does sutra you"
so we said
"a couse it do" not knowin what he meant but then it burst into a poem and we wernt THAT stupid and we figured out what he meant
and so we became one humanity but then the oinkers they too united and so here is amerikka jes like always except it is you too who are here so what do you got to say an what ya gonna do about it now?
Jul 14, 2010
Jul 14, 2010 at 4:13 PM UTC
If reading is dying--
of couse it's--
then, what's thriving?
May 20, 2013
May 20, 2013 at 3:21 AM UTC
Got a little goblin just the other day
to remind that there's no reason not to smile
Got a little pocket sun to shine on my days
and to warm me when winter comes
I painted my head in green just the other night
now I have smile instead of tears
I made myself a little deal
that will drive away my fears
every time clouds are grey, but rain don't fall
piece of my goblin dies
and my goblin cries and I cry with him
'couse rain might be a lie
Jun 30, 2014
Jun 30, 2014 at 1:07 PM UTC
Can you remember
When you would lay by my side
The time would fly by
What felt like forever
You would look at me
And say those words
Those words that hurt
hurt more than dirt
The time would fly be, Again,
But this time not forever
Couse never is forever
And forever is never
Oct 1, 2014
Oct 1, 2014 at 10:20 AM UTC
Save us once
Save us twice
Save us again and tell the lies
Couse only once in your life
You'll have this shot
To do something right
For me and for all of us
Save us from evil
Save us from the hell
Save us from everything
And tell us why do you care
Save us now
Save us for good
Save everybody in the crew
And be who can't you save
Mar 4, 2020
Mar 4, 2020 at 2:22 PM UTC
Who am i tell me who i am , i cant couse who stays and leaves, ever person i take into my life, takes a bit of my sanity when they leave, slowly as parts of me are taken, i fall apart, those who support me leave, as if i were nothing, because they see im weak, im NOT strong in any way, the only thing i have is a cloud of Depression
Jun 5, 2018
Jun 5, 2018 at 8:44 AM UTC
Why
Why do I do this
I new this
Would hurt
But the fact is I did this
What's my problem
I need a fix
Or else I won't solve em
I need to change this
Take this, break this and bring this
To places where it needs to be
Like in dark cages
I can make it
But the fact is it plays with
Me
My demons
Favors me
Telling me who I am
And what not to be
But wait
It's up to me
So get out of my face
Don't touch me
I am the one the runs me
So get out of here
You dummies
I will not rest
Until I break this cycle
Of my demons giving me the title
Of what they say
No, it's what I say
My life is my cave
It's my haze
So get out of my maze
Couse, it's what I create
Not Yours
Stick to it
But if I worry
I'll lose it
But I figured out why others follow me
Why they look up to me
My writes are a step above the sea
They see it
Now they're proud of me
See it or not
I'm just teaching a lesson
To those who live in the dark places
Of Condemsion
This was a session
to help me but
If this helped you
I gladly thank you
For you understanding this message
Couse this gave me redemption
I actually thank my demons
Without them
I couldn't write this message
But I am sure
They are out of my expansion
I correct the incorrection
They did
I am free
So I live
In Peace
I'm Home
May 27, 2018
May 27, 2018 at 3:54 PM UTC
see how you do
while im not around
couse baby i know
that im your fuel tank
its funny to me
to see you this way
because you thought
you were better off
oh id say
Feb 8, 2016
Feb 8, 2016 at 3:50 PM UTC
Yesterday,
Why should i care anyway.
Tomorrow,
Remember it's not that far away.
I like you,
In present, that's all that matters
'Cause i know feelings will not scatter
Do you play with'em?
-You asked
I'm sorry I'm unskilled at that
-I replied.
I'ts hard for me to say
That I like you everyday,
For I'm in love with you.
I'm trying, really trying
To change my feelings towards you
Yet,
I wont let my heart be a treacherous being.
I'm trying to supply,
So I can see a smile on you everyday
I'm trying not to die,
'Couse a decamp would mean suicide.
For you are my everything
And without you my life is meaningless.
Without you..
How could I live without you?
Dec 5, 2016
Dec 5, 2016 at 8:29 PM UTC
Let's do this
In the zone again
Coming home again
To visit my paradise
That I cope within
Sometimes I sleep with them
The dreams from them
It's beautiful
Lively
No what else is
Family
They love me
For every ounce
They hug me
Tells me
They see my pages
They feel me
It's a brilliant feeling
I hold them
Never let go of them
Couse, it's all I got
It's a once in a lifetime
So take it
Cherish it
Love it like you never did
Take it in, Cradle it
Want to know why
Listen in
They will always be there for you '
Take you, bandage you
Find you, feed you
The ones that see you
of who you are
They accept you
No matter what you are
Darkest of nights
Make the brightest of stars
We are the stars
light the night where ever you are
You're never lost
My family is a Northstar
Yet
We can't miss the thunderstorm
It's hard to hold on
And sometimes
The lights gone
But with family
A new light
A new dawn
Yet the storm will carry on
But we can mend it
bend it and push it to the side
And we say "Heaven where alive"
Well now
This is what I can say now
It's up to you
Take it as you will now
Because some they don't know how
Going around
Telling people "there not loved now go" now
It sickens me
takes me to places I don't want to be
Evolves me into something I don't wanna be
It Put's me in a place where nobody is
Then I remembered when no one cared
When no one was there
Hearing the voices in my head like
You ain't going nowhere
I almost lost it
Sorry
Just trying to get my point across
That when your life is very thin
Family is everything
I'm not saying this so you can feel me
It's something real to me
Listen I used to cry cause no one was there for me
Now I got my family every day saying "They'll always feel for me"
This write is healing me
Hope it heals you
Just never let people distract you
from doing you
Hope you see it
Jun 4, 2018
Jun 4, 2018 at 6:57 PM UTC