"becaue" poems
Am i pretty enough?
Do i need to change?
Does my wieght satisfy you?
We are all stuck in an abusive relationship
Because when we free ourselves from society
We are the ones who bring negative words
Whether your beautiful or not someone judges you
Whether it be yourself or
The world we live in
We stay in this abusive relationship becaue
We think theres no way out
And im afraid there's not
Jan 2, 2014
Jan 2, 2014 at 1:29 PM UTC
i think we all addicted
prescriberd like lil sick kids
depressed for only fitted
new era for the news
to get bull **** for the twisted
mini van is two in front and get ******
took gin and juice but sniffed it
glue shoved and huffed
a bag
no lunch
asked to twix it or maybe captain crunch
take a break
chit chat with satan who offers a kit kat
say please satan stand back
demons with a stare notorious
b
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glare
my eyes riding spines
backless lines
one word lies
as she gets shifted
christmas feelings the only part not gifted
reverons speaking one words up lifting
g
o
d
is a new prescription
because our days they are so limited like edition
section or fiction
a book did not quite fit him
becaue he was more interseted in women
who taught pain and sour living
taking faith that was not giving
spread hate as if they sinnin
then grinning
blasphemy is the only one listening
as to see every one living the way they sinnin
eating the plates they skimming
treating favors as dares to forbidden
that is so insignificant
of our innocent
oh so delicate
like a rebel or maybe a filiment
that leading the path with light and a laugh
the joker the midnight toker
taught take the money and run
you sure ******* cuss alot for a nun
teach our children that *** is fun
its weird how ignorant we all feel when its all said and done
Jan 8, 2014
Jan 8, 2014 at 12:54 AM UTC
JUST BECAUE IT IS ALL HOPELESS
doesn't mean a thing
we are not
trying to win
we are not trying
to stay sane
we are only here
"to see"
to see eachother for free
to see eachother and make love
in the same ole way
JUST BECAUSE WE ALL ARE HELPLESS
doesn't mean a thing
i don't need no help at all
i know the most important thing
which is that you all are lovely
so love-ably lovely
oh so lovely
so very very lovely
Aug 3, 2010
Aug 3, 2010 at 4:41 PM UTC
I live for the days that you look at me
Some recognition that you know I exist.
It's not always worth it
Loving you
But then you smile
Or laugh
And I know
Its worth it.
Even if you never see me,
Or never learn my name
I know yours,
And I won't forget it anytime soon.
I live for you
And its scary,
Because you don't know I live at all
But its okay.
Becaue I somehow survive.
And its okay.
Dec 4, 2013
Dec 4, 2013 at 4:02 PM UTC
date me
bring me home to your mom and dad
let them talk about me when i go to the bathroom
nonchalantly tell your friends how you can't stop thinking about me
but make it seem like you aren't really shook by your feelings
write it down
write down how you feel
tell me how you feel
be honest with me
FALL FOR ME
make it hurt
let me in
bring me there
show your brother pictures of me to see if he approves
even though you don't really care if he does or doesn't
just ******* give me a real chance
come sleep in my bed and kiss my neck
and when i start to cry becaue i am emotionally overwhelmed
by how much i feel for you
just tell me you'll ******* stay
Mar 13, 2015
Mar 13, 2015 at 9:08 PM UTC
Because I care.
That's why I'm here.
Because I'm here.
That's the reason I care.
Never unestimate this.
Because, because, because it's true.
There are mutiple reasons to loving you.
There are mutiple days, when I'm thinking of you.
Because, because, because I do.
What if?
I said I didn't.
Then I have to explain.
Let's just keep it real.
Have you near to me is a big deal.
Because, becaue, because you love me.
Mar 6, 2013
Mar 6, 2013 at 11:41 PM UTC
i can hear them now -those sirens, those bells,
and all the girls in our uniforms, hollow and brave,
and how we sometimes feel so alive, and sometimes so, so tired,
those ones who ask questions, and the ones who just leave,
and we’re both of those and we’re so brave,
and i think our eardrums are going to break.
every night, pick me up and we’ll go home,
but oh wait sweetheart, we can’t because we’re so young and so ******* busy.
like i said -i’m dying but i’ve never felt more alive, more happy,
or more tired. life has never been like this
-and i love these dreams, because right now they're blowing my way
did i also mention i love you?
i love you.
you know, you know, each hug is fragile,
broken glass shattering and putting itself back and becoming beautiful,
and thats me. you’re all soft words, and eyes like mine but all the more cunning,
but you’re braver than you know, and you’re a mystery.
and with every touch, i think of what would happen if we were hungrier,
that maybe, if we were hungrier we’d solve that mystery,
or i’d solve you.
always, always so worried. too worried to make a masterpiece,
but somehow you say i’ve made masterpieces of words, and i’m waiting for yours,
but i think you’re unlucky, because even though i’m so afraid of my muses,
they drive my hands, my brushes, my pens, these things that make you softly open your mouth,
and oh how i want to trace those lips. i wonder if you want to trace some other girl’s lips.
because there is no way you love me the way i might love you.
if i love you. i’m so lost in this.
more than anything, i think, i’d want something for myself.
so many muses, so many friendships, so many lovely people,
but yet all i want is only another kind of love. your kind. because you know what we could be?
every night, i’m trying to spend more and more time with you.
and if we were ever next to each other, i’d like to hold hands and gaze at the stars with you.
oh no -i’ve said too much. i wish with all my heart (futilely?) that you know who you are,
please tell me.
and these sirens keep sounding in my head, and i’m wondering if i’m losing my life,
because we should have each other, at those games, with those hollow brave girls,
with those dancers, and alone to dance to our own songs, and in our words.
we’d write each other, or perhaps you’d draw me, i’ve always wanted that.
anyway, this is just another schoolgirl’s dream becaue she should be focusing
-but she knows she needs something to do other than focus, someone to love,
and right now, it’s you.
Aug 30, 2018
Aug 30, 2018 at 8:18 PM UTC
Have you ever love someone
Until you let them go, you just basically give them what they want? And even not a single second thought to kept them, just becaue you want them to be happy even though it might hurt you
Have you ever love someone
That you wish you were someone else, just because they said they couldn’t love you because you’re just being you. You wish you were someone else so they can love you back.
Have you ever love someone
That you feel you are just a spare tire, they call you just when they need you, never be the first choice? But yet you’re always there when they need you
Have you ever love someone
That you don’t even have any courage to be the one to ask them first? Just because you’re thinking that maybe they’re with someone else and you are nothing but a disturber.
You never think about your happiness, you never think that maybe you worth more, you never think that you deserve better than that, you wish you never know them. And you’ll drown in your thoughts, the only place that you feel a little better. To wrote your own story.
Dec 13, 2020
Dec 13, 2020 at 11:25 AM UTC
There's a tear on my cheek
It's for you
The plans we made
They didn't go through
There's a tear on my cheek
And the pain won't settle
The happiness we shared
Went to hell though
There's a tear on my cheek
That is filled with sorrow
I gave you my love
but you only borrowed
There's a tear on my cheek
That I whipe away
Becaue im a new woman
Starting today
Jun 14, 2018
Jun 14, 2018 at 4:07 PM UTC
You are like a shooting star
so beautiful, it makes you happy
yet so illusional it makes you mad.
You could possibly make me happier
happier than anybody else
but at the same time you make me angry
you make me mad, you make me go insane
becaue even tho´ I know the words you say are true
I don´t want to hear them
because it scares me how good you know me
how well you understand me
believe me when I say you are special
the way you think
you talk
you act
And you will always hold a special place in my heart
the problem with you is that you know me
but you don´t know yourself
or maybe you do
but then you are lying to yourself
you created yourself a different reality
but you will never accept that
because even tho´you are good in nearly everything
accepting the truth is not your strength
I know you will also never accept your beauty
but let me tell you
you got the most beautiful eyes I´ve ever seen
the most kindful hands I ever touched
and the loveliest mind I could find.
I hope you find happines in yourself.
I really like yogurt.
Oct 5, 2018
Oct 5, 2018 at 12:37 PM UTC
You're just sinew and bones
With a dash of soul
But you wreck me.
You're a taste of everything
I can't have
Because my mind runs in circles
And I'm too enthralled
To stop it.
I watch your body move
And your mouth dance
Around words that
Make my knees go weak.
But I only half believe them
Becaue you're on another planet
Far from the island to which I've swam.
And I watch life go by
With my past a broken record
And I tell myself that's
No excuse because we all have them.
So I'm back to wondering
If there's something I'm missing
And if everyone else feels the same way.
But your lips on mine
And my tongue on your chest,
I'm sure crack would be jealous
Because you're just that infectious.
And without any warning at all,
I'm waiting for you to come to me,
Because I'm prideful and weak.
You really scare the **** out of me.
May 2, 2016
May 2, 2016 at 2:37 AM UTC
I'm happy.
I'm so happy.
Because tomorrow
is just what I want...
But what if this,
The beers and the jokes,
what if that's what I really want.
My smile says so but
My eyes betray me every time.
We're so close and so far
and I just need our us here.
How do I face this?
I mean tomorrow too.
I'm scared and lonely
And happy and soaring.
But it's just so incomplete.
And it flows, that feeling.
From the back of my eyes
To that point in my chest.
And I'm faking a smile.
Becaue that's what regretters do.
That stone hard resolution
won't let me change my mind,
even if my resolve is half hearted.
I knew getting close was such a bad idea.
Its so much easier to have no one to miss.
But I will.
All the same.
Because you've burrowed like a tick
and you're leeching the ailments
right from my soul.
US.
I will miss it.
So much.
May 2, 2016
May 2, 2016 at 2:43 AM UTC
Though I am above water
I Feel as if I am drowning
Though I am on land
I am spitting water out of me
But in my mind
The water is red
Bleeding heart or
Is my goodness leaving without me
Everyday a part of me dies
I’ve learned to like the solitude
People get tired of hearing my cries
There isn’t really much I can do
My heart is so heavy
And my shoulders just drop
Am I really asking for too much?
By begging it to ******* stop?
I’m lonely
I’m sad
I’m angry
It’s getting pretty bad.
I’m losing who I am
Only one part is left to save
But you’re too late
At my lonely 12 o’clock I’ll cave.
Goodbye beautiful me.
Hello protected soul
Today everyone thinks I’m fine
But tomorrow they will finally see me fold
The pills are my escape from you
I hear the bottle rattle in my head
My mother was an addict too
But I just take them to go to bed
At least, that’s what I tell people.
One time I took too many
It wasn’t an accident I swear
That’s actually how this habit started
Because my pain was just too much to bare.
This was never part of my plan but
These capsules make me numb
And I forget who I am
Or even Where I’m from
I finally laugh again
When my brain isn’t the same
These beautiful pebbles
Can definitely change the game
I don’t remember what happened to me
When I’m under their spell
I forget about the burning in my throat
From constantly yelling for help
I should be fine by now
It was a year ago after all
Maybe I’m trying too hard
Or maybe the pain doesn’t heal because you ******* tell it so.
Everyone is your friend at your funeral
But it’s vacant when you’re alive
I’m a downer at a party
They sense I have a different vibe
Maybe it’s becaue the last event
That I attended
Ended up being a traumatic
Fearful experience with you.
But you’re in prison now
And it shouldn’t be a problem for me
You got a small ******* sentence
That should be enough to set me free.
Right?
Aug 4, 2018
Aug 4, 2018 at 10:02 AM UTC
the world's people is like a box of choclates
if you take the right choclate it will be sweet and yummy
if you take the wrong one it leaves a bad taste in your mouth
just like people
some are really good to you
and some treat you like **** and you dont see it becaue it is your friend she would never do that to me but others sure see it
and some walk all over you and you just dont have the courage to get rid of them
and some of them are 2 faced lttle ******* who you honnestly cant stand but you ******* tollerate it for so long and sit back and think why did i let it get that far
Jan 10, 2018
Jan 10, 2018 at 11:56 AM UTC